Love You Always~ Yeonbin FF

Chapter 8

Soobin was sitting on his bed looking at Yeonjun doing his part of the choreo." Umm Soobin so you can put your hand around like this and then do the move so it'll be more clear and..." Yeonjun stopped when he saw that Soobin wasn't paying attention to whatever he was saying. Soobin looked lost in his own thoughts.

" Soobin are you listening? Soobin? " the last part was kinda yelled by Yeonjun. Soobin finally realized that Yeonjun had been calling him since long and he was lost in his thoughts admiring Yeonjun. " Umm are you even listening you look lost, we can continue later if you are feeling tired and also it's getting late and eomma's meeting might have finished by now so I think... " Yeonjun couldn't finish his sentence as Soobin's lips met his own.

Soobin was kissing his lower lip asking for entrance and Yeonjun subconsciously opened his mouth and soon their tongues were fighting for dominance and Soobin won. The kiss was soft and sweet with no sign of lust and it felt so genuine and real. The kiss showed the longing they had for each other. The kiss continued for 5 minutes until Yeonjun realized what they were doing. He pushed Soobin off him and he couldn't look into his eyes.

" What happened? " Soobin asked visibly upset by the way he was pushed by Yeonjun. " This is wrong " Yeonjun said looking down " What is wrong? " Soobin asked " Whatever just happened between us few minutes ago it was wrong and it should never happen again " Yeonjun answered." I don't think it was wrong. I liked it and I want to continue " Soobin placed his lips on Yeonjun's and started kissing but he was immediately stopped.

" How can we do this when you are not gay. This might be a one time thing to you but for me it's not" Yeonjun said and tears started to flood his eyes although he was trying his best to stop them. " Why are making things complicated and what does this kiss has anything to do with my sexuality do I have to be gay to kiss someone?" Soobin was angry.

"You know how I feel about you Soobin and you clearly told me that you don't like me in that way. So now when I'm trying to move on with my life why are you making it so difficult for me? Yeonjun failed in the battle with his tears as they started rolling down his cheeks. " So I was right that friend isn't just a friend you want to move on with that asshole San? " Soobin asked holding Yeonjun's arms.

" First of all I am not bound to inform you about anything I do with my life and secondly San isn't an asshole if someone is that's you and leave my arm you are hurting me " Yeonjun tried to break free from Soobin's hold but failed and he knew there must be mark around his arm by the way Soobin was tightly holding onto his arm.

"You called me an asshole right so why don't I show you something to prove you right " Soobin said as he started kissing Yeonjun's neck leaving wet kisses and was biting down his collarbones and he made sure that he left hickies. " Soobin stop don't do this please stop " Yeonjun tried to push him off but this time he couldn't. Soobin was biting his skin hard and it was paining a lot but his requests and cries fell dead in Soobin's ear.

Soobin was trying to open Yeonjun's T-shirt but he stopped when he saw Yeonjun wasn't moving, neither protesting , dried tears on his cheeks, neck and collarbone full with hickies and his eyes were closed shut. He immediately regretted whatever he did with Yeonjun. He moved back running his hands through his hair. He would have killed himself later if he would have went any further.

" Are you done? " Yeonjun asked in a low voice. His voice sounded so broken. He never expected Soobin to do something like this. The boy in front of him can't be the Soobin he loved because his Soobin was always so caring and loving towards him and made sure he was comfortable and those were the things which made him fall in love with Soobin although he knew his friend didn't swing that way but still he had some hope.

" I'm sorry I couldn't control myself please I'm sorry slap me beat me do whatever you want but please talk to me " Soobin was on his knees holding Yeonjun's waist and he was crying, he was ashamed of himself his jealously made him do something that he regretted and he can never forgive himself for that yet he was begging for Yeonjun's forgiveness.

" Let go of me " Yeonjun said and Soobin immediately left Yeonjun's waist. Yeonjun rubbed his eyes and went down the stairs to grab his bag. " I hate you Soobin " he said and looked at Soobin one last time before leaving his house. Soobin couldn't bring words out of his mouth no matter how much he tried. He fell down on his knees as he saw Yeonjun's retreating figure.

" I lost him " Soobin said to himself as he cried. He cried the entire night. He knew he was selfish for not leaving Yeonjun alone. Still he decided to do anything to get Yeonjun back in his life. He needed him. His life was incomplete without him. Still he failed to realize his actual feelings and the reason behind the pull he felt for Yeonjun.

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Will Soobin get Yeonjun's forgiveness?
Chapter 9 soon.
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