Pious and Raw

|Raw Confrontations|

"What's wrong...kya hua..?," he almost  groaned, on being interrupted while doing something he was deriving immense pleasure from.

"Iye hum kya karne ja rahe hain? Jo bhi ho raha hein woh thik nahi hein... issey agey hum nahi badd sakte!!"

He was slightly taken aback by the sudden change in mind and the resistance put forth by the girl in whose eyes he had seen the same burning desire for him, few moments ago. He pondered for once whether he was rushing things too fast or if he was taking steps forward which he ought not to have, so soon. The next moment another part of his mind silenced those thoughts, by reminding him the way, she had kissed him, taking the initiative;--- ardently and longingly. No.. her feelings for him,
therefore, could not be doubted. He had had this feeling for a long time. There was a chemistry brewing between them from the moment they had set eyes on each other, that they both somehow failed to acknowledge or realise. Nothing had ever felt more right to him than whatever was going on, did. He knew she was just as willing as he was, looking into those eyes of hers. All he had to comprehend was whatever that was going on in that  head of hers. She couldn't do this. It was their moment; just perfect and beautiful in the best  manner possible it could ever be. He couldn't let her ruin that for him. For her. For them..

Another thing he presently discovered he absolutely detested to the core was  when she pulled back from his embrace or didn't let him touch her the way he felt he had the right to, and covetted to.

" What's wrong with you, all of a sudden Anokhi? Kya hua.. Ab tak toh sab thik tha... Are you okay? What is it?" he queried, the clenching of his heart and the subtle disappointment evident in his voice.

" Aap mere proffesor ho aur mein apki student. Yeh hum kya karne ja rahe the? Issey hum dono ko kitni musibat ho sakti hein, pata hein?" she steadily tried to voice her reasoning mind. What was she doing! Doing that, did she think  would make her feel better later on? Of course it wouldn't . Let alone feel better, her heart screamed in her ears that she was going to regret this decision for the rest of her life, perhaps. Denying herself the only thing, she had so unquenchably desired for? Denying the man, who almost ached to claim her as his; the man who she wanted to be claimed by and by no other?

"How is even all this coming in? Manta hu ki mein tumhara professor hoon aur tum meri student.. Par woh sirf college mein. Moreover, didn't we just confess moments ago, how much we love each other? Pyaar karne wale hum hein na?"

" Aapke yeh kehne se sach toh nahi badal jayega nah ki humara pehla rishta kya hein? Aapko andaza bhi hein ... ki agar kisiko humare bade mein pata chal gaya.. ya phir kisine humein aise akele kamre mein dekh liya toh kya ho sakta hein? "

" Tum uski fikr mat karo. Mein hoon na. Kuch nahi hoga.. I am there, right? "

"Aapko nahi hoga shayad. Par mujhe hoga. Aap SIAC ke director hein. Moreover, you are a Sabherwal and top of that a man. But it will be not that easy for me. Mein ek student hoon. Mera future barbad ho sakta hein; meri padhai ruk sakti hein.. aur yeh samaj... society mein toh mera rehna mushkil ho jayega. Ladkiyon ko kis nazar se dekha jata hein agar shaadi ke pehle kisi mard k saath sammandh rakhte pakde gaye, pata hein na aapko?...." she flooded him with all the plausible reasons that came to her mind.

"..Aur apke gharwale.. unka kiya. Woh toh shayad mujhe pasand bhi nahi karte? Unhone agar humein aise dekhliya? Toh kya hoga?"

Shaurya stood there perplexed hearing those words coming from her, thundering down: slowly trying to grasp in and preparing to retaliate. Why was she stuck on such things, he thought!

He began in a rather annoyed tone,  "Bas! Bohot ho gaya!! Kya kabse laga rakha hein koi aa jayega, lok kiya kahenge, future ka kya hoga!! What happened to the chivalrous and bold Anokhi we all know you are?! Even if there's a possibility of us getting revealed in front of all, don't you have enough courage and resilience in you to go through whatever will ensue, hence? You are talking in a way as if I am using you for my amusement and once I am done with you, I will just abandon you and walk away. As if hereafter, you walk your path and I walk mine. Your words if not anything, at least affirmed me how low you think of me. This is really insulting and I don't think I have done anything to deserve to be thought of in a way such as this. I thought you know me better; better than anyone else ever did," he halted as his raw emotions crept their way from his heart to his lips.