Fast Falling // Killugon

Chapter Four: Tension

Gon's POV

I woke up next to Killua. "Good morning Killua" I say cheerfully and then remembered what happened. Was it a dream? Or did it actually happen? I sat up in bed, realizing I was naked. That meant it actually happened. "Morning Gon" Killua replied. I blushed and covered my face immediatly facing downward so Killua wouldn't notice. I apperently failed at that because he moved my hands and kissed me on the cheek. He got up, wearing nothing but boxers, surprising me. "Killua!! Your not wearing anything!!" I covered my eyes. "Neither are you dummy" he said, stopping at the edge of the bed. He had a point though. I blushed, embarrassed. "After what we did last night, boxers aren't a problem~" He said walking towards the door. I slipped on my own boxers and shorts, and followed Killua down the stairs. He looked like he had something on his mind but I don't know what it was. "I love you, but you'll never know." What the-?! Seriously? I still remember that after everything thats happened? To be quite honest, I don't know what me and Killua are right now. Maybe I'll wait til we hang out with someone and see what Killua says.

Killua's POV

Gon is such an idiot sometimes, but it's cute. He's thinking about something, and he's thinking really hard. "Whatcha thinking about?" I ask. He snaps out of it and looks at me. "Oh nothing" He smiles. It's obviously something. I'm still thinking about what me and Gon are now. Are we together? Friends? He acted like we were just friends this morning so I'm guessing he's going with that. I felt arms wrap around me from behind and I jumped but it was just Gon. "Gon?" He looked sad. Was he worried? "Killua- What are we?" He asked, still looking sad. I don't know what he wanted to hear. "Friends, Gon." I'm so dumb sometimes, but its for the better that he thinks I wanna be just friends. I know friends don't do what we did but we'll forget about it. Gon's phone buzzed and he answered it. "Hello?" he said, answering it. He went into the other room and all I heard was "Hi Kurapika!!" as he walked away. I sat down on the couch wondering what to do. Why did I tell him we we're friends? Should I have been honest with him? He can't know. He's just gonna move on from what happened because I said we're friends. "Killua! I'm gonna go meet Kurapika and Leorio! Wanna come??" He shouted from his room. "I have to stuff to finish but I'll catch up with you." He came down and nodded, setting his phone right beside mine. He looked around for his shoes and put them on once he found them. "Ok I'm out, see ya in a bit Killua!" He gave me and small peck, the one he does now. I guess it's a thing. He grabbed his phone and shared an adorable smile as he walked out the door. I went to work on the paperwork from before when I continued hearing a buzzing sound. I couldn't find where it was. I searched the kitchen, living room, bedrooms, everywhere. I stopped to listen for it and it sounded like a phone. "No one calls me or texts me except for Gon-" I say as I pick up my phone. Once I saw the wallpaper I realized. This is Gon's phone. He must of grabbed mine. His friends were texting him even though he was on his way. I opened the messages, and looked at his and Kurapika's conversation. I scrolled up to the latest one.

Gon-
Kurapika!!

Kurapika-
What is it Gon? Are you alright?

I scrolled past a bunch of just random topics then I read my name. I stopped scrolling and read through it.

Gon-
Kurapika- I'm stuck-

Kurapika-
What do you mean?

Gon-
I just found out that Killua loves me...

Kurapika-
Did he confess to you?!

Gon-
No he didn't! I read his Journal cuz I found it in a hoodie pocket! What do I do!

Kurapika-
Gon even though that wasn't right at least you know now.

Gon-
image attachment- 5 (Killua's entries)

Kurapika-
Wow. I never knew he felt like that

Gon-
He said he wished I would know how he felt but he wouldn't have to tell me or know when I found out.

Kurapika-
In a way he got what he wished for.

Gon-
your right- but theres one sentence I can't forget.

Kurapika-
What is it?

Gon-
"I love you, but you'll never know." Everytime I look it at him it just replays in my head

Kurapika-
Wow. Well have you told him how you feel yet?

Gon-
No, I've just been affectionate towards him a lot lately. I'll tell him when the moments right.

Kurapika-
You've grown so much-

Gon-
I'm the same height as before though-

Killua's POV

I stopped reading. I could hear my own heart beat. I exited out of the messages and set his phone back down. "He knows..and he feels the same.." I say outloud as I lay on the couch processing everything I just read. I'm not even mad he read my journal. I wrote everything in that when I was like 12 and 13. I filled it up because I met Gon. Kurapika has a point. I did say I wish he knew, because I did. I wanted him to figure it out with out me knowing when, where, or how he found out. I spun in circles laughing. He felt the same! I couldn't believe it. I hope I'm not dreaming, because this the best thing to ever happen. Besides when I met Gon. That was a good day too.

--timeskip- Gon's home--

Gon's POV

"Killua I'm back! I took your phone on accident." I shouted as I walked in the door. Killua was on the couch watching TV. "It's ok, I hardly use mine anyways." He said, his usual tone. "Ok, thats good." I set my stuff down and sat with him on the couch. I took my shoes off, along with my jacket. I sat criss crossed and looked at Killua. "So what did you do while I was gone? You never came." I say, curious to know. "I got sucked up in work and ended up just wanting to stay home. Plus, their your friends so I just figured I'd let you have your fun" He says. "Ok" I reply giving him a bright smile. I wanted to cuddle with him but I didn't know how he'd react since he said we're friends. I just looked at him with a pleading expression. I fiddled with my hands, attempting to get him to say something. "fine, yes you can." He says, laying back allowing me to cuddle him. I smiled, and curled up on top of him, laying my head on his chest. I gave him another peck on the cheek, and just looked up at him. He had no reaction. "Killuaaa" I bleated. "Hm?" He replied. "Why don't you react whenever I show any affection? You don't smile or push me away, you just sit there expression less. I wanna know whyyyyyyy but I can't figure it ouuutttt" I knew how he felt about me already, but why he wasn't acting like he didn't. I sat up, looking him in his ocean blue eyes. I ran my fingers through his soft white hair, and gave him a look. I could look at him with a certain expression and he would know exactly what I meant. He let out a deep sigh. "Fine. I'll tell you." He said. He looked down and mummbled. "I love you-" he says. "but you'll never know" I say in response but then I quickly cover my mouth in fear. He was gonna get so mad at me. He just smiled. "It's ok Gon." I was releaved. "Killua I-" I was stuck. I knew what I wanted to say it just wouldn't come out. "I love you too" I finally managed to force out. He grew a wide smile and laughed. He brushed the side of my face with his fingers, looking at my eyes. He kissed me passionately, this time it finally felt like we were connected. When we parted, I asked, "So what are we?" hoping to get the answer I'm expecting. "What do you think dummy? of course we're boyfriends. Your mine now." He said. I giggled. I pinned him while still on his lap, and said in a low tone,"yours huh? looks like I better be a good boy then~" 

[yep. there it is. dom-gon. lets take a moment of silence to just breathe this in- yep smells great. anywayssssss 5-7 wont be out till july since I posted this one today soooooooo yurp. theres a picture of killugon below so have fun looking at that]