Lovers Under The Same Sky.

Chapter 4

Mew

When the sun rays caressed his smooth skin ,all I saw was the bruises that I left behind . I know what I did to him was unforgivable.I shouldn't have done that to gulf.I forced him into it. I still remember how much he struggled to escape from my hold.but I couldn't help ,I was drunk and distressed because of Arty .I found out that he was cheating on me for months and I took it out on gulf .I know ,He's just a kid. I should've been more careful. I know he had gone through a lot .It must have been very hard for him to cope with .

My head started banging with pain and I stared at my phone ,scrolling up and down , wondering if I missed something but no ,nothing at all .

9:45

Fifteen minutes!

It meant there wasn't enough time for me to shower ,getting dressed looking at the scattered clothes near to the bedside ,an exhilarating feeling swelled up in my mind . My hormone levels went through the roof, and I felt invincible.when I saw him lying naked under the sheets for the first time.even if It was a drunk mistake .I enjoyed it .I never planned on doing it to Gulf intentionally .I felt unsure .he is the second most person i've being with after arty. When arty left me. I didn't know what to do .I was lost. Gulf was one way to take my mind off from Arty .

Even though I know what I did to him has pissed him off.but he never shows it.he'll completely shut down all his emotions, which was like his coping mechanisms to keep away all his feelings from me and he does it all the time which is quite not easy for me to deal with.

I couldn't face him right now so I left him alone in my room.I couldn't stand to see the hurt feeling in his eyes, he's one among the best I've ever cared for.He never complains about anything.he'd be horrified to see me right now .i have to get outta here.

"Feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, or excessive guilt was clouding me ."

I remember the first time I laid my eyes on him. It was hard to forget. When he started off as an escort at our hotel . I know he's going to be one of mine till I've had enough of him .But I never cared about anyone except gulf.he is real !

I never knew what he feels right now. Sometimes when I ask him to stay in my room he would refuse me.Noone in their right mind never had the guts to decline me . but he does it every time

**********************************************************************************

For the time being when he was old enough . I could see how beautiful he had grown out to be.A beauty to behold, everyone at imperum admired his natural beauty.I couldn't let him slip out of my hands that easy.He was a gem to hold onto .

I'd make him stay and order him to spend the night with me , demand him to come with me to "the Crescent garden "and join me for a dance .I was always tempted because of his flawless skin and his lovely blue eyes .i felt crazy about him .I know even if I'm startlingly good looking. he disliked me the most .

"We are different people ,we really don't get on well .we'll never be together ,we are not the same." Was what he said to me .when I asked him to be mine .

I will find my ways to get him to trust me .But he turns me down all the time because of what he experienced before.

"I couldn't bear to see him like that again ."

one night, when he set off to carry out some sort of necessity for the guys at the sauna ,I asked one of my security guards to keep an eye on him.i couldn't lose my sight on him , the shady corner of the sauna was hardly visible to anyone .after a while I felt some heaviness in my chest .I decided to go out for some fresh air and asked my guards to check on him.when they searched for gulf at the sauna. they found him legs stretched out on the floor wide and butt naked ,lying unconscious.Mumbling some incoherent words. It made me realise I couldn't bear to see him like this ever again.Suddenly I was finding it difficult to breathe . He raised his arms,asking out for help inviting some space ,tears pooled in his eyes but none escaped under his eyelids . Within seconds ,We were on our feet to the hospital .

From then and there ,I sworn to protect him from harm ,to keep him under close watch in order to prevent danger .even if he disliked me .I truly cared for him ,

"my mistakes would never change what I feel for him, my heart truly cared for him

But Gulf never trusted anyone.

**********************************************************************************

when appa parted away.our family broke apart. My mom remarried and I was all alone without her. my uncle pappi he took care of me.he showered me with all the love.Because of what happened with me and gulf , I rang pappi ,who had picked up after one and a half ring ,he always picks up ,he's very conscientious

He asked " where are you?''

Mew : "I ve to move in with you ,pappi"!

' i heard you',boy.

" I ve all my clothes and stuff packed away , I've nothing to wear until I get my stuff from arty's "

" Sit tight " pappi said

" I'm on my way " he said and hung up.

When the lift door opened. I made my way to the long corridors which led up to the entrance .I walked along ,swinging my hands and looked casual. I checked out everyone that passed .But no one dared to look at me or ask me about gulf when I reached the entrance . I saw pappi at the reception desk .I kept walking ,passed the smoking area and into the cafeteria.

When we were at our cafeteria . I personally requested pappi not to involve gulf in any work today. I'd feel pappi's eyes on me. He was bursting with questions to ask about what happened ,but controlled his curiosity with an effort until we found a table at the cafeteria.We had a long discussion about what happened. He glared at me and accepted my request and sent gulf home with No and I left the place by saying it immediately.