Love Obstacles.

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Keyvon POV-- Laying down.. Looking at the ceiling thinking what would I do if Ziari ended his life, I would not like that at all... I'd be sad as fuck, weather he's just a friend or not I would never leave his side.

Ziari POV- My feelings for Keyvon are coming back faster than ever right now, I don't know what's going on.. I want him, the way he holds me and comforts me touches my heart.. I want him back.

Ziari started to express his feelings to Keyvon more, his feelings for Keyvon were high and raging.
The two had a conversation.
"Keyvon my feelings for you are coming back.. I want you, I understand that we're not ready for a relationship however I want you, we don't have to he in a relationship, but we can build up to you and fix all of our issues and move past everything.. And then when we're ready we'll be all set for one" Ziari said.
"Ziari... I love you, but I don't think we're fit for a relationship right now-
"I'm not saying let's be in a relationship Keyvon I just said that.. I wanna build with you"
"I'm just confused Zi.. This kills me sometimes man, I just don't know what I wanna do bro and you're not understanding me"
"I told you I understand!!! Im not even hurt that you broke up with me anymore because I know what it feels like! All I'm asking now is that we can at least build with each other"

Keyvon POV- Zi say he understands but he doesn't.. Another reason I don't want to do this right now is because I lost interest in him, I'm not saying he's ugly or less attractive cause no.. It's just I don't think I'm into him the way I was before, though we're not going to be together now I do see us being together one day down the line, that's a fact. I'm pretty sure I'll have my head right then.

"Listen, right now just isn't a good time, let's just focus on being really close friends, I see us being together in the future though.. But working on our friendship is more important right now ight?" Keyvon said while holding Ziari hand.
"Okay.. I got it"

Ziari POV- This is why I don't feel good enough.. I'm not even good enough for him to build with me.. I'll never be good enough for him.
Ziari stayed up for nights crying and confused. He didn't want to let go of Keyvon but he didn't know whether to wait for him or to just let go.

Thursday
"I think for starters I'll tell my mom.. Maybe that'll work" Keyvon said
"Youll really tell your mom about me?" Ziari asked.
"I mean I guess.. I don't know when and how though" Keyvon said
"Don't just come out the blue and say "Mama I'm in love with a boy.. Don't say that, just ask her ''mom what would you do if one of your kids came out as bi?'.. If she says something like she doesn't care and she'd accept it then you can tell her about me, if she say something bad then.. We'll just figure something out" Ziari said.
"Ight"

Ziari POV- Keyvon said he's gonna tell his mom about me, does this mean we're getting back together or something?

"Listen Keyvon.. I'm willing to wait for you and be here for you until you're all set and read-
"Don't waste your time on me.. I'm just a waste of your time for real" Keyvon said.
There was an awkward silence.. Ziari started to feel like Keyvon just didn't like him at all..
"I'm starting to lose hope in our relationship-
"You make me mad when you say that.. Stop doubting our relationship, have hope in it!" Keyvon said.
Ziari nodded..

Keyvon POV- I want Ziari to stop doubting everything and just go with the flow, Ziari biggest thing is jumping to point C before going though A and B first. He's more so focused on building with me but he's not focused on fixing our communications for trust issues in our friendship, even if I was interested it wouldn't work out because he's not trying to fix our friendship first before establishing commitment.

Ziari sat on the porch with his boy bestfriend.
"Sometimes he makes me feel so good.. Then sometimes I feel like I'm just nothing to him, I see him active and stuff on his social media while I'm waiting for a response, sometimes it takes an hour.. Maybe two.. And he's still up there.. I sometimes wonder why am I even being kept around. I tried to see if he at least wanted to build with me but he didn't even want to do that.. Just don't know what to do" Ziari said while venting. His boy bestfriend took a puff out of his blunt and exhaled the smoke.
"Listen.. You got all these niggas in yo phone right now and you stressed over this on-
"Stop.. Everyone says that, everyone is so used to be having this 'Fuck a nigga' mentality but with Keyvon I can't have that mentality towards him"
"Why not? He doing that to you.. He doesn't text you back on time but you say he's on social media, best that nigga isn't even willing to build something with you and progress with you, instead he's putting you last.. Then when he go fuck with all the other bitches and they not like you he's gonna come back to you.. It's so clear that nigga not even into you for real" His bestfriend said before smoking again.
"Bestie he does want me.. He's just confused bruh that's all, I'm willing to wait for him.."
"What's this nigga name best? Where this nigga stay?"
"I can't say.. I know you're my bestie and all but he doesn't want me telling anyone who he is and I respect that"
"You know me and yo brothers don't play bout you for real.. I look at you like you my lil sister"
"I know that.. I just wish everyone would stop trying to get me to turn against him,
our love is just too deep.. There is no backing down, I love that dude"
"Well.. That's you being dumb then I guess best friend.. I really can't say nothing more than what I've been telling you. feel like the more you keep him around the more hurt you gonna be, it's gonna be hard cutting him off but sometimes you gotta cut certain people off to maintain peace" His best-friend said.