*SLOWLY BEING EDITED*
Zane had a special mission to accomplish. No one could find out that he's undercover. No one. But with those hazel eyes and her smart mouth he couldn't stay away from her. She was making him feel things he never knew it was pos...
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"Are you alright?" I asked KatKat.
She's been down ever since the trial happened two days ago.
"Right now no, but I will be soon" She replied with a weak smile.
I didn't press further, she'll talk to me once she is ready.
"Baby, I don't want to rush you or anything but my boss asked me to return to Canada immediately. There is a case he wants me to review and help with." I hated that I had to somehow pressure her to go back with me.
I know she agreed but I also know this is all too sudden for her.
After all that's happened to her, moving out to a completely new country would not be easy.
"I see. Alright then let's pack" Her answer took me by surprise.
"Are you sure you can come?" I asked worriedly.
"Yes ZeZe, I'm sure. There's nothing holding me here and I think a new start would help me move on."
This woman...How can she be so strong?
"Alright, then let's pack. We'll travel by car" I explained.
"Which car are you taking?"
"Which one do you want?"
"The blue Camaro of course." She said confidently.
To be honest I wanted that car too. It was my favorite.
Hours went by fast and we were soon in the car on our way to Canada.
Kat's been lost in thought for a while and even if it hurt me to see her that way I wanted to wait.
"My mother bullied me since I was little" KatKat said and it took me by surprise.
"Most of the time she body shamed me. In her eyes, I was always less than Sarah. There would always be something wrong with me or more specifically my appearance. That same attitude passed on to the rest of the family. Soon everyone's topic of discussion was my body." She paused for a few seconds trying to probably collect her thoughts.
I didn't say anything but I took one of her hands and intertwined our fingers letting her know that I was there for her.
"I bared everything thinking that maybe she was right. Perhaps I was at fault and wasn't aware of it. But before I knew it I already developed a hatred towards myself. And if that wasn't enough Sarah made me hate myself even more. I liked a guy in high school but he only talked to me to get to my sister. Then in college, I thought I moved on and found someone I liked again. At the end that one also wanted to get to my sister. For a girl with issues like me, these events don't help. They make you drown deeper. And then I met you and I didn't want to admit it but I was attracted to you from the beginning and Sarah saw it too. It really didn't feel good to see her take you from me..."
After saying that her whole face turned red probably because of the embarrassment. But for me she looked adorable.
"But look who won in the end, you. I'm not that good for a prize but I will give you all the love that I have" I said kissing the back of her hand.
"I know you have an internal fight right now, probably asking yourself if this relationship is real. Let me assure you that it is. I grew up with my grandparents because my parents died when I was little. A thing that my grandma always insisted was to treat the person that I love with care. Be honest and not try to act like a man, put aside pride and ego. She said that a real woman needs to feel like her partner is a real person with feelings. Not some arrogant bastard who treats her like shit as a way to express their feelings. And this is how I promised to live all my life. With honesty."
I smiled at the thought of my grandma scolding me. Of course, I didn't always listen to her when I was young but I eventually understood what she meant.
"Your grandma is right. Not only real women but I believe most women want that kind of partner beside them. You are that person for me ZeZe. Whenever I am with you I feel safe and at peace. It might not sound like something special but it is to me. Whenever I had to see Emilia or Sarah I felt nervous and anxious. Wondering what kind of insult I would receive or what remark they'll make. But when I have to see you I get excited, impatient to see you. This feeling tells me everything I need to know. You are good for me."
She turned towards me and gave me the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. Hearing her say that made my heart beat. She is the one.
"I also wanted to discuss with you something that's been bothering me" Her face turned serious and her eyes looked sad.
"You already know you are my first in everything. Unfortunately, I don't think I'm ready for the next step yet. You helped me love myself a little bit more and I know that if I stay by your side I'll get to love myself. But as for now, I'm still insecure about many things. I would understand if you want our relationship to end because of that. I cannot ask you to wait for me and neither do I want to force myself to do it just to not lose you."
"Baby, there are other things that we can do without actually having sex. And even if you don't want to do those things it doesn't change anything. I did not fall in love with you only to do that. It's the way you make me feel that matters to me. Don't get me wrong I would take you right here and right now. You get me hard with only a smile, but our relationship goes beyond that. I love you and I'm ready to wait no matter how much it takes"
I gave her a quick glance only to notice her crying. Fuck, did I say something wrong?
"Thank you ZeZe, you only confirmed to me once again that I made the right choice" This time it was her who kissed the back of my hand.
