"So you're with him? I don't want my daughter growing up around a guy whose not her father!" Vic shouted at me. I thought that him betraying me hurt, but this, him yelling at me, hurt the most.
"We are not in a relationship, Vic! You know damn well I don't move on fast." I defended myself and steadied my breaths. I would not cry right now. "Well you must have because you moved into his house pretty quickly" Vic fired. He was so angry with me and it hurt so much.
"Vic you know I wouldn't be that naïve. I just needed to get out of that house and Alex-" I was cut off by Vic. "Naïve, you wouldn't be that naïve? Think back Kyler, think way back. The first night you met Chris Drew when you toured with us for the first time. What did you two do?" Vic challenged and glared at me. "We had sex" I teared up and avoided his harsh stare. "Vic I have changed since then" I mumbled.
"You have Kyler, and I don't like this new you. You're even more naïve and depressed. Why would I want Daisy around that?" He bit and I squeezed my eyes shut. Naïve? No. Depressed? Yes.
"I'm not naïve like that anymore. I may be depressed but I can take care of Daisy. Vic please don't take the last person I love away from me, please" I broke down and covered my eyes.
I heard Vic sigh and it killed me even more. "Fuck.. Kyler, look at me, please?" I refuse to look at him. He has seen me cry too many times, this will be the last. "Kyler, please. I hate seeing you-" "DONT FUCKING SAY IT" I shouted and wiped my face. Vic jumped at my loud outburst. "Why do you do that? You like to fucking toy with me" I cried and sat on the bench in the hallway. "Kyler I have never liked seeing you hurt in anyway. Mentally, Emotionally or Physically. I hate that I can't love you, but it's how things turned out. I just want my daughter to be in a safe place, surrounded by positivity and love. Here is not the place, I mean look at you; I can feel the negativity and hatred radiating off of you." Vic explained and touched my arm. "Negativity because I just broke my number one self promise, hatred because I hate you for hurting me" I shook with anger and sadness. "What was your promise" "To never let anyone see me cry since we broke up."
Vic fixed his eyes on his lap and sighed. "I take back what I said Kyler, I love you and always will-" "STOP FUCKING WITH MY HEAD VIC" I shouted. "I've had enough, okay? I understand, you don't like me. You want a reason to take Daisy away. You have done enough and got enough out of me. So fucking stop" I sobbed into my hands. I heard the front door open and my heart stopped.
He's not supposed to be home until three.
"Vic?"
"Alex."
"Kyler... Are you okay?" I heard Alexs soft voice. So soothing to hear... I shot up from the bench and ran to the stair case, jogging up it then down the hall and into Daisys room. I picked her up gently and hurriedly walked into my room. I shut my door and locked it as echos of stomping feet roared up the stairs.
"Kyler, come out please. Don't do anything stupid" Alex jiggled the handle. I cried quietly and held Daisy in my arms. I loved her so much. Her dark brown hair and Icy blue eyes. Her unbelievably tan skin. It reminded me of Vic.
"Why the fuck would you put a lock on the door if she was living here?!" I heard Vic shout. "So she feels as if she had privacy and felt safe!" Alex shouted back but much quieter.
"She could be hurting herself, Alex. I don't want to see her go through those days again!"
"Good then leave! I can handle this!"
"Kylers not an easy fix you ignorant fuck"
"To you she's not. She actually trusts me, there's a difference."
They're both right. so right.
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It's been four hours since Vic has left. So I've been in my room for four hours plus the two Vic stayed after I locked myself in my room with Daisy. So six hours I've been in here. I haven't ate anything either. I made sure Daisy did though. I have her diaper bag in here so she's okay.
I stared at the ceiling in the dark room. Thank god i have a play pen in here for Daisy to lay in, other wise I would have had to go out and into her room. I rolled onto my side and closed my eyes. Flashes of Vic and Marcy at their wedding danced on the back of my eyelids.
I was too busy thinking to notice the bed dip down due to weight being added to it. "Princess, are you awake?" Alex whispered and gently, very gently rubbed my back. I nodded yes as an answer, giving in to his comforting touch.
We laid there for a while, not talking to each other and enjoyed the peaceful silence except for our breathing and the white noise of the fan. I felt Alex wrap his arm around my waist and pull me into his chest. We were spooning. Isn't that a couples thing?
"Calm down, I can hear the gears grinding in your head. I'm just trying to comfort you" he said softly. I relaxed as he cautiously began to draw invisible patterns onto my stomach in a soothing manner. "Everything will be okay, princess. I promise" Alex whispered into my ear and kissed my shoulder. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the last of the peace we would have.
I began to think that from here on out, things would slowly get better. In reality though, this is the beginning to my real issues.
