𝐛𝐧𝐡𝐚/𝐦𝐡𝐚 𝐨𝐧𝐞-𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

Kirishima x Reader

(A/n sorry for the lag <3)

Y/n POV

Hugs. Running my hands through your hair, no matter how many times you told me how 'unmanly' that was. Holding hands. Kissing. Love. All of it. I love you. Well I did. I still do. But you don't know that now. I mean how could you? I left you. Not the first time, but in the end. I. Left. You. It was never my fault though. I couldn't save myself, you could have.

It started with our daily walk in the park. I had noticed you had become more distant. But I wasn't gonna mention any of it. I mean there was nothing I could really say to that. You were busy practicing to get your hero license, so I didn't think much of it. Not until that afternoon. You stopped me as we were walking. We just stopped. You turned to me, taking in every feature on my confused face.

"N/n. Ah I mean Y/n, I can't do this right now. I can't do us. I love you, believe me, I do. But I've been so busy and it's almost summer and I have to work on hero stuff and I don't think I can make more time for you. For us. This has nothing to do with you, you're amazing. I'm just gonna get more busy and I don't want us to fall apart in a big way that will hurt you more. This was the best way I could dump you. I'm so sorry Y/n. I know you won't forgive me right now but I love you so much. You're amazing. This isn't your fault. This had nothing to do with you. You'll move on and you'll find someone who can make time for you because at this moment, I can't be that person. " He sighed.

I stood there in complete shock, I felt it coming but I didn't think it would hurt as bad as it did in that moment. I couldn't breathe. I was still processing everything. I was dumped. By you, the love of my life. My ride or die. My soulmate. The person I saw my life with. At that moment, I realized you had said you were dumping me because you were busy, not because you didn't wanna be with me. I held on to the hope that you still loved me. Even if it wasn't true, I just wanted to hold onto something. Even the memory of you. I could hold onto that. I didn't know what to do. I mean what are you supposed to do when someone dumps you? I mean am I supposed to walk away? In movies, the girls always cry about getting dumped. But that would seem unmanly of me. You stood there staring into my eyes. I turned around and decided to take the long way home. I was taking the opposite route that I would when we walked home together and I could feel your eyes on me as I was walking. You knew that I wasn't going my usual route, but I didn't think that you even cared.

Love's just a fucking lie. You swore you would love me forever and now I'm walking home after you dumped me. Maybe it's better if I tell myself that I'm not good enough for you Kirishima, but truth is I gave you everything, if not more.

The next day, I saw you hanging out with Mina and that hurt. I'm not sure if you knew the way that she looked at you. But, I could see it, the whole world could see it. The way she clung to your arm, the way she giggled every time she saw your gorgeous shark smile. It made me so sick.

I needed a drive to clear my mind. I put my favorite playlist on and drove around until my mind couldn't think of anything but you Kiri. It was all you, the great things you did for me, how you were always so kind to everyone regardless of what they were going through. You were always the kind of nice that everyone needs to experience once in their life. You just couldn't get off my mind. I tried, and tried, and tried. But Kiri, you...

Then, a loud noise came from in front of me. I hit a light, that's what I thought at first. That was wrong. I hit the brakes, on the busiest street ever. A villain. out of nowhere came out of the ground in front of me and smashed my car with its fist. I was dead in an instant. I couldn't have been saved. I didn't even feel it, all I felt was the love that was left in my body, the pain and love from missing you Kiri, I know that it had only ended for a few days but that was the end of my whole world.

I saw you at the scene, helping out and then you noticed my car. The one you knew and sang with me in. The one that drove you to your first day at your fancy new hero school. You remembered those times as you raced your way to me. Bakugou saw you running for the smashed car, at least, what was left of it. Tears were falling down your face, faster than you could wipe them.

"Y/N, I KNOW YOU'RE THERE, ALIVE, BREATHING!" you screamed. You didn't care the villain was getting away with everything, you just wanted to make sure I was okay. I'm not. I died, not knowing you cared, that you loved me.

I would answer if I could. You found my lifeless body, so crushed, you couldn't even recognize the eyes that you claimed made you want to be the manliest man ever.

How could you have known I wouldn't be here the next morning? What would you have said to me? I want to run my hands through that spiky red hair one last time because if I had known it would be the last time forever, I would've done everything with you. You were always too good for this world. I'm sorry I can't see the great things you do.