More Than Friends

Confessions are hard

Bell

The next days where a little bit lonely. I've been going to the public garden to draw, to work and I kept working on my final project. I decided to go a little bit far and also make a painting of the sculpture when I'm done. Of course I've been texting Scott and Chris a lot. It's really nice.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about the day Chris stayed with me at work. I think we almost kissed but I'm starting to doubt my memory. I was very sure it almost happened but know I'm thinking I imagined it because I was emotional about Dolly.
My feelings for Chris are intensifying and I think I'm imagining things because of that. Although in our texts it looks like we are flirting. He wakes me up with good morning texts and some of his text could be taken as flirting.

From Chris: Wednesday at 8am
Good morning beautiful, hope you have an amazing day;)

From Chris: Wednesday at 5:43pm
I wish you where here Bell. I love spending time with you and I wish we where watching Disney movies :(

From Chris: Wednesday at 8pm
Just got home, I'm so tiered. Can't wait to see you on Friday ;)

From Chris: Thursday at 8am
Good morning Bells have an amazing day at the garden. Can't wait to see you tomorrow;) don't forget your bikini, I really loved that red one btw;)

Those were some of the texts Chris sent me and of course I also replied a little flirty. But I feel bad, I don't know what is going on between me and Chris and I don't want to ruin my friendship with Scott. This is a mess.

***

Friday comes along and I get up at 8am to get ready to go to Chris's and Scott's house. Im really comfortable around Chris so I decide tu put on a blue bikini. It still makes my boobs pop and my ass is a little bit more exposed.

I leave my apartment when Chris texts me he's outside at 9am. When I get in the car and Chris drives off I regret my decision in swimsuit. It's to much, what was I thinking?!
"Are you alright Bell?" I snap out of it and look at him.
"What? Oh, yeah. I'm fine... how was your last days of shooting?" He smiles.
"They where good. I little emotional, but it's nice to have a break you know? And I also missed spending time with you."
He looks at me with that little smirk and I blush.
"I missed you too Chris, and I'm glad you are done shooting. I'm sure the series will be amazing! I can't wait to watch it."
I say with a big smile and he smiles too. The series is called Defending Jacob. And I'm exited to see it.
"Thank you Bells, you are really kind. And we have to see the series together. I want to see your honest reaction."
"You got it!"
We arrived at his house and he prepares pesto eggs.
"This is very impressive and it looks delicious Chris. Thank you!"
I say a little exited making him laugh.
"I hope they taste as they look."
He sits down next to me.
"I'm sure they do."
And they tasted amazing. I kept telling him how amazing they are and he would blush. After we where done eating breakfast we went outside to play with Dodger for a while. We would run after him to get he's toy from his mouth, we couldn't get it. Chris and I would laugh a lot when one of us tripped or when Dodger would make us fall. We really had a lot of fun.
"Bells?"
I look at Chris and he is looking at me with a little smirk. My heat skips a beat every time he calls me Bells.
"Yes?"
"Can I ask you something?"
I frown a little and then smile.
"Of course, you can ask me anything."
He smirks and looks down at my lips making me stop breathing.
That fucking look is going to be the death of me.
He shakes his head and looks at me.
"Would you like to go for a swim?"
I'm pretty sure that's not what he was going to ask but I let it slip.
"Oh, I um..."
I look away. My bikini is to much, I should have changed.
"Bell...?"
I look at Chris again a little embarrassed and he noticed.
"Bells... are you embarrassed of me seeing you in your bikini?"
He asks frowning and my heart starts pounding fast. I look down and nod my head slightly.
"Shit, Bell." I smile a little.
"Language, Rogers."
Chris laughs.
"Don't start with me Bells." He's still laughing. "But hey," He lifts my chin up so I look at him. "You don't have to be embarrassed. Honestly you have an amazing body. The first time a saw you on that red bikini, I swear it was hard not looking at you. You are beautiful."
I start blushing like crazy.
He thinks I'm beautiful.
"And you made red my favorite color."
I laugh a little.
"Thank you."
He gives me a cheeky smile and nods, then he gets up and extends his hand to me. I grab it and he helps me up. He then proceeded to take his shirt of and I try not to stare. But he is so fucking hot. I'm starting to get hot again.
Demnit Bell, control yourself.
I snap out of it and start taking my clothes off, I can feel Chris's eyes burning on me, looking me up and down. I look at him when I'm done taking my clothes off and I'm just in my bikini.
"What?"
He gives me that look again, he smirks and looks at my lips.
I swear if he does that one more time my self control is going to jump off a building.
"Now my favorite color's blue."
He winks at me and jumps inside the pool.
Take a deep breath Bell, you guys are just friends. You don't want to ruin your friendship with Scott and I don't think he would want to date me.
We swim around for a while and we play a little. After a while we get out and dry ourselves up. We go inside and sit on the couch to watch Disney movies, we are still only wearing our swimsuits and I look at him some times throughout the movie. He is so hot, it hurts. We're watching dumbo and he keeps asking if I'm okay when I cry. I relate this movie to me loosing my dad and I think he knows that.
"Bell, you sure you're alright? We can change the movie if it makes you miss your dad."
Yep, he knows. I look at Chris and smile.
"I'm okay... I really love this movie..."
He smiles and gets close to me, he puts his arm around me and pulls me in. I'm resting my head in his chest and my legs are dangling over his. My hand is on his chest and he hugs me tight.
We keep watching the movie like this. I don't want this moment to end, I feel safe in his arms and I love that I can hear his heart beat. It's going a little fast, I wonder why.
I could get used to this. I take a deep breath and close my eyes, taking in this amazing moment.
"Bell, can I ask you something? You don't have to answer, but I'm curious."
We don't let go of each other, I just look up at him a little and very nervously I answered.
"Of course."
"You are an amazing person, it's so great hanging out with you. I've known you for a little while know and I know I want to be in your life for the rest of my life... your beautiful, funny and loving. So, how come you only had one friend before me and Scott, and you don't have a boyfriend?"
Well this will be hard to explain. He said I didn't had to answer but I trust him, I trust him and Scott more than I've trust anyone in my life. I've never told anyone what I'm about to say... but I want him to know. I take a deep breath and I speak.
"I um... I'm afraid..."
He pulls away from our embrace to see my face better.
"Afraid of what?" I take a deep breath.
It's okay Bell, tell him.
"I'm afraid of people leaving me and breaking my heart..." he's speechless, I now he doesn't know what to say so I keep talking. "My dad died... and he was the man I most admired in the world. My mom left and even though I'm happy for her and he's new partner... she left one month after he died. My ex boyfriend left me for another girl. "More beautiful and less childish." That's what he said to me, when he broke up with me after being together for two years. My brothers left, Dylan left. My best friend Angie, she died—"
I stop myself for a moment, unable to continue. I look down and Chris lifts my chin up.
"You had another friend who died?"
I can see tears forming in his eyes and I also start to tear up.
"I'm afraid of hospitals, did you know that?" He looks at me with sad eyes and confusion, he shakes his head. "I can't go near a hospital without crying my eyes out and when I'm inside one, I get panic attacks. When my dad died, I wasn't there. I was at school. He died in the hospital... and I had two best friends, Dylan and Angie. Angie had a surgery.
"It was supposed to be an easy one, nothing bad could happen. But... everything that could go wrong, went wrong... and I..." I'm crying now. "I wasn't there.mI was out of town, and my best friend and dad died... when I was not around." Chris is starting to cry a little. "I'm afraid of people leaving me... leaving me with my heart broken. So I push people away because— because the less people you care about, the less likely you'll get hurt."
He pulls me in tight and I cry on his chest.
"Bell... I'm so sorry. I had no idea..." he pulls me a way a little. "Look at me..." I do. "I will never, ever, leave you, ever."
I look at him and sit up slightly wrap my arms around his neck, he hugs me back even tighter. It's one of those moments you didn't realized how badly you needed a hug until someone hugs you.
"Me and Scott are going to be in you life forever."
"T-thank you Chris."
We pull away and we laugh a little, Chris wiped my tears away with his thumb and I do the same for him.
"And by the way, your ex is a dick! There is no one better than you, you just need to find the right person. And I know you will." I smile at him.
"You are definitely right about that... he didn't care about me, he just wanted one thing from me."
He frowns.
"What do you mean?" I look down.
"He... um... He just wanted to take my virginity. He made a bet with some guys. And he did take it... we did it a couple of times and it wasn't even good for me. He only cared about his pleasure. And when I didn't wanted to do it anymore he broke up with me."
Chris looks really mad. I can see from the corner of my eye his hand making a fist. He takes a beep breath and closes his eyes.
"I swear to God, Bell. If I ever meet this guy I'm going to beat the hell out of him."
I grab his face with both my hands and he opens he's eyes.
"Don't..." he looks confused and angry. I don't blame him. "He's not worth the trouble..."
"Bell, he made a bet to take your virginity and didn't even care about pleasing you.... If anyone is worthy of me beating them up, it's that asshole."
I shake my head and get a little close to him.
"He's not... yes, what he did was horrible and yes, I haven't been able to have sex with anyone since then. But bad people... are not worthy of our attention. He doesn't deserve the satisfaction of knowing he broke me."
Tears are rolling down my face and Chris's face looks more sad than mad. He wrappers his arms around me and my heart skips a beat.
"Okay... but if anyone dares to hurt you again. I'm going to do something about it... and you can't stop me"
I nod slightly and wrap my arms around his neck and hug him. We hug tightly for a while and then we pull apart.
"And you are not broken, Bell. You're one of the strongest persons I know. You're not broke, just hurt. And it's okay being hurt."
He pulls me closer to him, nothing else needed to be said. We put Tarzan next and I know Chris is still thinking about what I told him, he looks mad. And he doesn't look at me.
"Chris... if you don't take that frown off your face, I'm going to hit you with this pillow."
He looks at me and I'm lifting my eyebrow, he smiles a little and shakes his head.
"I'm sorry but I can't let go what you just told me about your ex."
"Okay, that's it."
I say and I hit him with the pillow, I start laughing. He looks at me and lifts his eyebrows.
"Oh Bells, you just made a big mistake."
"Oh, did I?"
I hit him again and he smiles.
"Yes!"
He says lunching a pillow at me. We start laughing a lot, hitting each other with pillows. I get one good hit in his face and I bring my hand to my mouth so I don't laugh.
"Are you okay?"
I ask trying not to laugh. He looks at me and smirks.
"You're in trouble Bells. You better run."
I laugh and start running around the living room. Chris is chasing me and we are laughing. He managed to grab me by my waist and pick me up. He then puts a little pressure in my waist making me laugh.
"Oh! Are you ticklish?"
I'm still laughing.
"Chris, don't."
"You hit me, so yes!"
He starts tickling me and I fall to the couch. I try to get him to stop by grabbing his wrist but he grabs my heads and pins me down. I stop laughing for the lack of tickles and I realize we are in a very hot position right now.
He is on top of me, my legs are wrapped around his torso and we are really close together. Both of us are only wearing our swimsuit and my top is a little bit pulled up showing my under boob and Chris noticed. I see an inferno in his eyes as he looks up at me, I bit my lip and his eyes drop to my lips. A pool of wetness settles between my legs as i feel him getting hard against me.
He wants me.
I want to loose all my self control. I just want to kiss him and I want him to have his way with me in this couch. I can't take it, I want him. I start lifting my head up to kiss him and he is leaning down.
He does want me.
We are about to kiss when Dodger jumps on us and squeezes himself between us pulling us apart. Then he starts licking my face and Chris laughs.
"Oh! I love you too Dodger." He keeps licking me. "Dodger..." I'm laughing. "Bubba... oh my god."
I keep laughing and Chris is on the floor laughing grabbing his left pec.
"Hey! Americas ass... a little help here?!" He laughs harder and gets up.
"Okay, bubba come on."
He takes Dodger off of me and I laugh. I sit up and laugh.
"Thank you... you are so cute Dodger, thank you for all the kisses my handsome boy."
I say petting him and giving him a kiss on the forehead. He jumps off of Chris's lap and runs outside. I laugh and look at a happy Chris.
We where about to kiss. I love Dodger but that is really bad timing... Or best? What would have happened if we did kiss? Would I loose my friendship with Scott? Would I ruin my friendship with Chris? Or maybe both?! Why would he want to kiss me?!
Chris is looking at me with a smile on his face.
"What is it?" I ask Chris a little nervous.
"Did you seriously called me Americas ass?" I laugh.
"Sorry, needed to get your attention. Although you are Americas ass" He laughs.
"Well, you can call me that when ever you want."
He says and winks at me, making me blush.
"Oh, um..." he clears his throat and I get nervous.
Does he want to talk about what almost happened?
"You might want to adjust your top."
I look down, you can see a lot of my under boob. I blush a lot and fix it quickly, Chris is staring at my boobs and I laugh a little. In that moment Scott comes in.
"Bell!"
He screams and I get up. He runs to me and picks me up and hugs me tightly, I'm wrapping my legs around his torso and laughing. He puts me down.
"Hi Scott. I missed you too."
"God! It's so good to see you, and I'm happy Chris is making you company."
He scans me up and dow.
"Girl, you have a hot body." My eyes widen and i feel my cheeks burning. "I mean, look at that ass."
I hide my face in my hands.
"Don't go all shy on me. You do. If you don't believe me, ask Chris. After all, Chris Evans is an ass man."
He winks and i turn to look at Chris. He's pinching the bridge of his nose, but he's still looking at my ass. It's suddenly a hundred degrees in here and i need a cold shower.
"Oh hey, great timing I was talking to Steve."
Thank god he changed the subject.
"How is he?" Asked Chris.
"He's great! He sends all the love. So, he gets in tomorrow but late at night so we can't do anything." He looks at Chris. "I want Bell to meet him."
I look at Chris and he is nodding with a big smile in his face.
"Wait, what do you mean he gets in tomorrow?" I ask.
"He was on vacation with his family, I couldn't go because of work."
"Oh, okay."
"So, tomorrow Chris and I could go to your apartment and watch some movies. I think Chris would like to see your art." He winks at me making me blush. "And on Sunday we could go to a club!"
My eyes widened.
"You guys go to clubs?" Chris stands up next to me.
"Yes, but we have a rule."
"Everything is okay as long as no one screams our names."
Says Scott and my mind goes straight to nasty things. I'm trying hard not to laugh but I fail.
"What's so funny?"
"I'm sorry. That sounded so wrong."
I laugh harder and Chris starts laughing with me.
"I was thinking the same thing." Chris puts his arm around me.
"Oh my god! You two have such a dirty mind!"
"Okay... okay, sorry. So if someone recognizes you guys and screams your name, what happens?"
"We run out of the club and go home." Says Chris
"Okay, so we run. I think this will be fun."
We all smile
"Btw, that bikini is hotter than the last one."
Great, we're back to talking about me wearing a bikini.
I should burn them.
I look at Chris and he's smirking as he eats me with his eyes.
Or maybe not.