Its going there again, she's starting to open up her heart once again...
The cycle has once again started, she's losing herself to this repetitive cycle...
Letting him take control of her thoughts, letting the darkness shun her away from it,
and a small ray of light begins to seep back in through the cracks...
She's loving deep, raw and with everything she's got...
It scares her I guess, so scared to let him in because he reminds her of him ...
And there's no way of stopping her from seeing him as a way for her to be redeemed, its as if she's letting herself escape from the beautiful darkness she once embraced...
His light seeps through every nook and crevice bathing her in his love...
She's changing, her former self resurfacing and I see her smiling once again...
The cold and darkness is slowly letting go of her, releasing her from their clutches as she's starting to bathe in his love, she's beginning to see herself the way he sees her...
Its been 3 years since she's felt this way, I guess she's falling, falling a bit too hard might I add, but however she's falling with a smile on her face...
The numbness is beginning to subside, she's finally beginning to feel again and this feeling is beautiful...
Its been 3 years since she last woke up at 5am and started typing away, her passion has once again found itself slowly back to her and she's embracing her thoughts, her love for this passion...
I guess she fell a bit too hard hey? 3 months in comparison to 3 years? The love she feels for him is something else, its something she's only felt once before in her life and she loves it...
She's loving the way he slowly changes her, the way he makes her laugh too hard, the way he never makes her cry but the fear is still there, she knows this might be temporary and he's gonna depart from her life soon...
She knew this yet she still fell so hard and why, you may ask? Its because he saw through her darkness like he had once done...
The similarity is uncanny, his presence feels so realistic...
She told him that he's gonna be the death of her, he laughed it off but he did not realize the depth of her words...
And she fell for him again, knowing she should have not but could she help it?
His light burnt too bright and her darkness made way for his light to seep in through the cracks and slowly bring her former self back...
"I think I love him", she said but does he love her like she loves him or is this just part of the cycle?
I guess its only time until she finds out...
