Calum Hood one-shots

Good 4 U

She couldn't figure out how to feel. He was gone, off with another girl and in another state. The relief was apparent, but the immediate sadness of knowing that their close bond would never be mended made her heart ache.

She had her own dreams to chase down, but she didn't have to worry about running into the brown haired man. Sure, they hadn't spoken in a year and a half, but she still loved him, still cared and still wished the best for him, but god did she miss him. She was so exhausted from being so hurt, so dramatically caring for someone who threw it back at her.

Calum was happy to be excelling in his career at the age of nineteen, in a relationship with a girl he'd poured all his trust into; buying a house with her and moving in together. He was finally getting into the hard yards of his career across the country. But there was this inkling taunting him from the back of his mind. Y/N sat there regularly, he missed the girl incredibly, which he could never express to her. Calum knew what he did and how he could've resolved the situation, meaning he wouldn't have ever lost her the way he did.

The moment he boarded the plane with his girlfriend's hand in his, he gulped; memories of Y/N and his time together with the girl, their laughter, their conversations and plans of the future they fantasised about. He was really leaving, he was moving on. Why should he care when Y/N had made her feelings clear? She blocked him on just about everything, ignored him when they ran into each-other at social gatherings, swallowed down every bit of emotion she held when he was in front of her. Why would he let this hold him back, he had his happy start with the girl he loved.

Why was she so upset over the realisation that he was gone, across the country? She's moving to another state, further north. She's chasing her own dreams with her career. She's nineteen, beautiful and exceptionally wise beyond her years. Why would she care? Why would she still feel the ache of knowing they'd never rekindle what was thrown away abruptly?

Why were the two so affected? Was it just because this was finally where that chapter closed? Did they love each other? Did they miss out on their one shot with a soulmate? God, can someone tell them? They're going insane overthinking every flaw the two played against one another. Was anyone going to set them straight?

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hi everyone.

this was kind of me just venting. most of you would know i use this book to let go of my feelings, write about ideas that make me smile and write about what inspires me or any little ideas i'd love to read myself. a person who i fell out with has officially moved states yesterday. i think i still love him. we never dated but maybe i was in love with him and i never realised. what if i was too much of a bitch, too scared to open myself up? i've never spoken to anyone about this so lmfao i'm so sorry for letting the cat out of the bag with you guys lmfao. i really did just spill the tea, holy shit HAHA i'm sorry!!

have you guys ever gone through a friend break up, but yall defs weren't just friends? ... just me? ... cool.

i hope you liked that cluster fuck of a random vent and disclosure of my emotions. when i get a little too in my feels, i write; and this book has been there for the whole of my healing process- my creativity growth and my understanding for my love of writing.

a psa, i'm still going to be writing here, i just thought yall deserved an explanation of why i wrote so many shitty love stories lmfao.

anywho.. i got way too personal above soooo how are you all? <3 thank you so much for the support with my writing. i appreciate you all sm. i hope to update the last chapter of his world soon. just have to work up the courage!