This is just a poem I wrote just before letting go of something I've been holding onto for a long while. Though the ending was quite bittersweet indeed, I have thanks to give. The experience made me unafraid to be myself, and that's a very valuable lesson in life.
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My heart still leaps at the mere sound of your name.
It seems crazy, and idiotic.
That's really what it is.
I'm chasing after a lost being; a ghost of who you used to be.
Now I'm even starting to wonder: that girl you fell for....was she even me?
Did you want a lie?
Did you want a mirage of the real masterpiece?
That girl wasn't me.
That wasn't who I was supposed to be.
I was compressed, forced to fit others' image of beauty.
I didn't want to have to change myself.
But I didn't want to lose you.
Society made me choose.
So, I chose you.
That was before I knew....
What I'd be giving away.
I gave away my own ambition,
The keys to life,
The real person I was supposed to be inside.
Instead, I was picking and tugging at my every flaw.
That never stopped just because you left...
I didn't understand that it was irreversible.
Once I started chasing, that was it.
I would be running for the rest of time.
Unless someone found the answer.
Unless someone found me.
Finding myself was the key locked within the diary full of secrets.
I had been stuck chasing a ghost of who you used to be.
And when reality struck me, I broke.
But I don't want pity; or an apology.
I want to thank you.
You lifted the stubborn veil I had been living under.
I'm finally unafraid to be....me.
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Random Poetry
कविताThis is a book full of random poetry from the depths of my imagination. Each poem holds a special place in my heart, as they are either my way of making sense out of this crazy world, reflecting on a past experience, or just plain storytelling in wo...
