TourWithoutYou

Chapter Nineteen

My eyes flicker open to Ashton's jaw, my head peacefully resting on my spot on his shoulder. He breaths deeply, still embraced in sleep. I smile before I am beaten with the reminder that I will not wake up to him tomorrow. Or the day after that. Or the day after that. My breath whooshes out of me, my air robbed by the pain deep in my chest.

I bury my face into his neck and squeeze him,  breathing in his scent before the ache takes over and I begin to shake. Afraid of waking him I slide off to roll away, but his hand grabs my arm and pulls me back to him as his folds me into his arms, allowing me to weep. I wrap my around his neck tightly as I let the wave of heartbreak crash over me.

During a lull, when my breathing is manageable, he says, "If we need to lay like this all day, that is fine, but I would much prefer we go for a drive or a hike. Definitely have some breakfast. If you're up to it of course."

I chuckle lightly as his suggestion and give him a tight squeeze, grateful he can always make me feel better, no matter the distance between us, "I am."

He squeezes me back before giving me a light tickling while making silly noises, getting me to laugh and be of better spirits before he rolls into me, both of us on our sides looking at each other. He reaches above us and grabs a stick of gum, ripping it in half for each of us before he tucks my hair behind my ear and smiles softly saying, "I understand if you need to just cry, but I want to see you smile today too."

"I want to smile today," I push his hair from his eyes as I indeed smile for him and chew my gum.

"Good, because I think you snotted on me," he makes a grossed out face as he brings his gum to his front teeth to chew, making me laugh more as I grab the sheet and attempt to wipe at the shoulder he's laying on.

He pulls the sheet away and grabs me under the ear as he scoots to me, his body flush to mine before he rubs my nose with his; breathing his strong minty breath into my face. I lift my lips to his and he grazes over them gently, his tongue coming out to drag over my lip and leave his cold mint saliva behind. A breath leaves my lips at the sensation before he pushes me to my back and lays over me, his legs tangling up in mine as he begins kissing my neck.

Goosebumps raise on my skin at his frosty kisses while my heart begins to thump in my chest, his ear pressing to it as he squeezes me. I hug him back before he continues his kisses, caressing my tattoo with is lips before he travels to my navel, dragging his tongue from the bottom of my ribcage to my belly button.

I shiver as the air hits his saliva on my skin, my breath increasing as he savors my body, taking his time as he memorizes every centimeter of me. He nips at my lower abdomen, making me squirm before he grabs my hips to steady me, sucking hard on the soft delicate skin just inward of my hipbone. I bite my lip as I watch him, praying his fingers will leave smears on my skin as well so I can always see his marks on me and this body I have freely and openly given him, and only him.

His suction begins to sting and I whimper, knowing it's going to a beautiful reminder of his claim on me, my back twisting in delight. He runs his hand up my side protectively and them drags down my whole stomach, his fingers spread wide to take in my soft skin. I moan as he continues his hand down my thigh, caressing the sensitive skin on the inside before wrapping his warm around it. My breath catches when he licks his new brand, the area feeling like ice before he slips between my legs, his arm wrapped around my thigh spreading me for him.

I instantly whine as he presses his soft tongue to me, small gently strokes leaving a cooling sensation behind that begins to drive me wild. Moans and gasps crawl up my throat as my hands grip at the bed sheets, easily a slave to the wonders of his mouth as I begin to unravel. My hips instinctually raising to him as his large hand runs up me again to my chest, his fingers digging when he brings it back down the center of my body, my back arching for him.