Project LOKI Fanfiction: His Excellency ✓

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CHAPTER 27

Servant

DANI

A WEEK AFTER MY GRANDMOTHER'S funeral,I decided to stay in the Philippines for a vacation.I need this,to refresh my mind.The death of my grandmother is still fresh,we are still mourning.Mom pleaded that I should stay for the mean time but Dad requested to stay here in the Philippines for good,which I couldn't do.My life is in Paris,my friends,my work,and my business.At first I consider Dad's idea because Ysmael wouldn't need to travel that far to be with me but I am old enough to decide on my own.Luckily,I got an amazing boyfriend.

When I decided to leave the Philippines and travel to Canada,I feel like there's something missing.Sariwa pa Kasi sa isipan ko Yung mga salitang binitiwan ni Luthor.I couldn't think straight that time,Sa Canada ako nagtapos ng highschool.When I turned 19—because their education system there is too advanced—I'm already at my college days.I pursued Psychology,cause I think it fits for me and it has been my dream profession but I guess that job is not really for me.I failed.I failed the exam for Psychology,I already did my best and take the exam twice but the world of psychiatry is not for me.Because of thinking that I could two birds in a one stone,I took that course.I really want to see my self in a white lab gown at the same time heal my lost self.

It sounds overrated but when Luthor and I called it quits—its just my decision—,I lost my self.I started overthinking,I started doubting my self.With those harsh words,it may sound light to others but for my young and sensitive heart,it isn't.Dinibdib ko talaga ang mga sinabi niya.Imagine the man you ever love,told you that you're worthless,that he made a mistake for choosing you,the man who fooled you.I maybe in denial when I said that maybe Luthor and I were not meant to each other but my hopeful and whimsical heart grows it's faith on fate.The hope that grows on the root of my heart just disappoint me in the end.

But when I take another step on college and failed my Psychology exam twice,I realized that some things that you wished for are not really for you.Life will disappoint you and you will have a series of 'why's' in your mind,but it gives you a great lesson that will make you stronger and courageous.Experience is a great teacher,indeed.

One year akong natigil sa pag aaral, that's my mom's advice.Kailangan ko raw ng maayos na kaisipan sa pagsasagawa ng desisyon na magiging daan para sa maayos na buhay ko.So I did, after a months of refreshing and healing I finally decided to take Fashion designing.When my mom brought me to a foundation on Florida—its serves as my vacation for my soul searching,lol—,I discovered my talent to reproduce a new clothes from reusable materials.She's happy for me of course,Kasi susunod daw ako sa yapak niya.

That's when I decided to live in Paris.I studied hard, that's how I met Ysmael,he is 3 years olderer than me so when I met him he's a panel when we first had a fashion show on school,lahat ng pagod at paghihirap ay natumbasan lahat,I graduated as Cum Laude.After I graduated I temporarily work as Ysmael's stylist, that's when I started knowing him more.I am very blessed because I got him,but at the same time guilty.Siya ang kasama ko minsan Pero iba ang naiisip ko.So I decided to not renew my contract on him and he respect my decision,I built my own clothing line and luckily it was now renowned.

All  failures and exhaustion for a success is all worth it.

And then I finally realized that is everybody is worth it.

Kaya ngayon na ginugulo nanaman ni Luthor ang isip ko ay Hindi ako papayag.Maayos na ang buhay ko,although there's something missing.The closure that I want,I want to move on completely from him.I don't want to hold on from the past that wrecked me.