So close yet, so far

Chapter 10

Humaira ahmed

We were now in Spanish class and Anika all of a sudden said that she wanted to confess her love for jack. I knew she loved Jack but she had a boyfriend now so I told her to break up with him and wait for a while first. I love Anika but it doesn't mean I don't love jack too and I don't think jack has any feelings for her. Anika's problem was that even though she loved Jack for many years, she was never alone. I mean she never stayed without a boy friend. I told her that these relationships were not going to get her anywhere; if you don't have any feelings for someone, why date them' . Her answer as always was, 'because I am a popular girl and cute so it's a shame if I don't have a boyfriend'. I just don't understand why her relationships depend on her reputation! I don't understand the kids in our generation actually. I sometimes see some Muslim brothers and sisters who went through so many relationships like that, we can't do that. My dad told us always, " It's haram in Islam to be in contact with the opposite gender that is not your marram" But I know we still do. Sometimes Anika and Kayla ask me 'if you don't date then how would you find the right guy for you'. I tried explaining to them that 'there is someone special who is made for me so why not wait for him instead of dating so many guys' but yea they don't understand. I believe in love, I don't see anything wrong with it but I cannot tolerate fake love relationships only for show. If you really fallen for someone than just try to marry he/she if Allah made them for you.

Anika told me that she will break up with her boyfriend and wait some days to tell Jack. One thing I really like about Jack is that he is really decent, and not like others boys. So many girls like him but he wants to stay single after the brake up with Lensey. Lensey is another popular girl in our school and I might say she is stunningly beautiful. Lensey talks to so many boys and had other relationships behind jacks back when they were dating. Jack didn't like it and then last year they broke up with a huge fight. I was actually happy they broke up because jack deserved better. Jack respects others and seems to like my religion. He likes the fact that we cover our selves and he thinks a girl shouldn't show their inner beauty to guys.

"Humaira I think you didn't have good nights sleep last night. Pick up your head" everyone laughed when Mr. marry said that. This class is so boring, I always feel like sleeping and I don't even like chemistry. All this crap gives me a headache.

"Humaira tell us about Ihaan" Ayesha said. We were in the lunch room.

"Tell you guys what and I don't even know anything about him" She asked me when I came to our table after buying my food. I hate school food even though some are halal I still feel like there not. So I always buy chips and soda.

" why you are blushing Hehehe" they all started laughing accept for Jack who was busy with his phone.

"I am not blushing!" Anika raised her eyebrow with a questioning look. Omg why am I blushing, this is so embarrassing. They started making fun of me which made me mad but I secretly actually enjoy talking about Ihaan with them. Just hearing his name gives me this happy feeling. Anika was trying to make Jack eat but he was still busy with his phone and he looked mad for some reason. I honestly felt bad for Anika, I knew her heart was craving for him but I just don't know how to help her.

I saw Ihaan when i was entering my house he was sitting on the staircase using his phone. 'Why is he sitting here like a poor boy?' hehehe, we looked each other and smiled. My heart started jumping, 'Seriously I need to stop feeling nervous in front of him, he is just a regular boy humaira' I told myself. I closed the door quickly and took a deep breath. Suddenly my phone buzzed. It's Ihaan, I smiled while I was looking at his text, nice to see Ya and sorry for yesterday. I slept early. Sorry is not an exception, why didn't he text me back when he woke up? He remembers me now just because he saw me. I will make him wait too.