stalker? | jakehoon

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jake?

                                                               what.

don't what me
are we being serious?

                       why wouldn't we be?

                                                                  no
                                      I was just kidding

           why did I say that? I definitely wasn't..
            I got scared and pussyed out I guess.

oh..
still wanna come over tonight?

                                                            sure!

               I turned off my phone after that 
       because the tension and anxiety of it all.
              genuinely made my chest hurt.                 
         I guess I would go over but honestly                
     I should've just been honest. I missed him,
  I missed Sunghoon and I knew that he missed me. I even made the move but then decided to be a bitch         baby. One point Sunghoon, Zero points to me.

When I stopped freaking out over my own dumb actions, I got in my car and made the same drive as before. Rain poured through the gray clouds above me. It felt like muscle memory even though this was only the second time. I was forgetting that I was showing up unannounced until I got to the front door. The walk to just the door made my hair wet and my clothes damp. Oh fuck. Before I knew it I knocked on the white door.

My whole body felt clammy, probably from the rain but whatever. Soon after the door opened.

"Jakey", Sunghoon expressed with a smile. He stepped through the doorway and pulled me into a hug. He was around probably 2-3 inches taller than me but that was okay I guess. Being tall never hurt anyone. I sighed into his shoulder and pulled away. I felt dull.

"Are you okay?", He asked. He must've picked up on something, like the mood or something. The rain didn't help the way I felt.

"Yeah". I followed him inside and I ended up back on that same couch. The memory of having my head in his lap and him playing with my hair easily slipped into my mind. I didn't even try to shake it at that point.

I leaned back on the sofa, honestly not even being able to pay attention to anything. I didn't even notice when he sat beside me.

"Seriously, what's wrong?". He reached out his arm, which now rested behind me on the couch. He was closer than I would've wanted at that moment. I felt like this was the last time we could spend time like this. It was time to let go.

I leaned my head down on his shoulder, just wanting to feel like maybe he cared for once? Jungwon never left my brain. The other brown haired boy. The one that wasn't me.

Sunghoon moved his hand to my thigh, rubbing it in attempt to get me to listen. It was comforting. I could tell that's what he was going for. I didn't even want it to happen but tears balled up at my eyes and spilled out before I could stop anything. Was I seriously fucking crying like a little baby in front of the guy I was in love with??? PATHETIC.

"Jake", He repeated a few time, still rubbing my thigh gently and using his arm that was near my shoulders to pull me closer. I couldn't stop the tears. They just kept rolling down my cheeks and onto his sweater.

"Yes", I finally replied after a handful of minutes. I pulled away from his shoulder and swatted at his hand to get off of me. Weak. I'm weak.

"What is happening? Are you alright? Is there anything I can do?". He just kept spewing out questions and concerns that genuinely hurt to hear.

"I'm fine. Go take your questions to someone else", I replied with no tone. He looked extremely confused.

"Someone else? What?". He was clearly lost and should have known exactly what I was talking about. I was tuning him out and looking at whatever was playing on the stupid fucking tv because I would rather watch that than listen to his excuses.

I couldn't even focus on that because he had a hand on the side of my face and turned my head for me.

"Jake, what the hell listen to me?", He said, kind of sounding upset. I would be too. As a matter of fact, I was. I didn't even want to face him but every time I tried to turn away his grip on my jaw got stronger.

"Let me go already! Go do that to... Jungwon". I just realized how childish I sounded. I wasn't even jealous, I was vengeful. If I ever met this Jungwon person I swear to god I would...

"You're so stupid Jake. God...", Sunghoon muttered, seeming to be relieved. Before I even had the chance to reply he lost the grip on my face and moved his hand to my neck, pulling me closer. I didn't even understand what was happening until our lips touched.

It felt like literal electricity running through my body. He had a decent hold on the side of my neck, I probably couldn't even move or he would make it tighter. I swear he was feral..

My eyes closed out of instinct as his few pecks against my lips turned into deeper kisses. My body reached, wanting to pull away but I knew that I didn't really want to. I felt dizzy and nauseous and I didn't know why.

I had never been kissed before like that, with so much emotion? Maybe I was the one who was tripping but his arm snaked around my body and tugged to get me even closer. All I could do was kiss back, he was completely in control whether I fucking liked it or not. My hands gripped onto his sweater when he started to do things with his tongue that I didn't even know could make someone feel so.. flushed??

I felt like I was going to melt and die right there when he finally pulled away. Maybe that was because I desperately needed to fucking breath. Fire was the only way to explain what he just did to me. Our foreheads touched, resting against each other's as Sunghoon never loosened his grip around me. I didn't know if I ever wanted him to.

"Was that what you wanted?", He whispered with a smile creeping up his lips. I was still trying to catch whatever breath my lungs would calm down enough to let in. My lips felt all tingly and shit??

I didn't reply. I didn't expect it coming and I didn't have any words to supply him with. I just stayed there, as close as humans could possibly be without taking off clothes and binding to each other. My hands finally broke their deathly grip on his top and just fell into his lap.

"Jungwon isn't my boyfriend, he's dating Jay. You're a mess Jakey..", He said. Was he already back to taunting me after that shit? That mother fucker. I balled up my fists and hit one against his chest but that didn't make him back up at all, neither did the second one. I probably looked like a tomato out of embarrassment.

His thumb grazed over my bottom lip, his eyes never leaving them. Thirsty bitch. That hand that rested on the side of my face, rubbing circles into my skin, was the only comfort that kept me from actually hitting him. I think I was still in shock even then.

"I'm in love with you..", Was all I could say.

         I couldn't tell if I just majorly fucked up
           or made everything ten times better..

{hey :))) I don't know how long I intend for this ff to be, but I don't expect many more chapters. Maybe like five or six? Maybe more if people actually like reading this shit- but all I can say is don't expect any detailed smut or anything because I'd like to keep jakehoon wholesome (besides sunghoon's common dirty jokes and maybe a scene here and there with eluding context or some shit :3) but I hope you guys are enjoying this!!}