Illegal 🚫 | KookJin / Taejin ✓

6. Let Go

❗ WARNING: Angst ahead 😭
I believe I have noted this in the start of the book, but I'm warning again, ok? Don't hate me pls ⚠

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While Jin was on his way back to the hospital, he tried calling the company he works for so he can ask if he can still loan more money just as so they can get discharged from the hospital.

Tears are already forming in his eyes. He's feeling so helpless now. This morning, he was determined to try and work for something that's very new to him. Turned out, it's way too much for him to fathom.

He needs a thick skin and strong stomach for this job. Something he obviously does not possess. But what can he do now? His office isn't even answering his calls.

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Seokjin's P.O.V.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was informed that Appa was moved to the ICU. I just closed my eyes and took a deep breath, thinking that this only means one thing - it's really getting worse.

"Mr. Kim, we need to start the combined treatment as soon as possible. Right now, if I may say. Your father isn't responding well anymore with the initial medications as his stage is getting worse," the doctor said.

"Jinnie, your Appa was screaming in too much pain earlier so they decided to put him to ICU. It just means it's really not working anymore, I'm sorry son." Aunt Jisu added while crying. She treats me as her own son too and we've been living together since her husband died when I was 10.

"Ok. I'll just step outside for a while so I can clearly think. I'll be back." I told them as I didn't want to break down in front of them.

As soon as I stepped outside the building, my tears burst out streaming like a river. I just held my hands up my face to suppress my cries, but I can't help it anymore.

What will I do now? It seems I don't have any other choice. I can't just let my Appa die like this. Especially when I haven't exhausted myself yet and all other resources possible.

I took a deep breath and wiped my tears away. I searched for my phone in my pockets and took it out. I dialed a number and wait for it to be answered,

"Hello? Jimin? Are you still in Busan? I'll do it. I'll come with you."

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Ding. Dong.

"Babe, you're here? I'm just washing up, I'll come to the hospital right after. Come in."

Jungkook let me in to his house. I met with Jimin earlier and took the money from him. I already promised him that I'll come to Seoul in a couple of days, I just wanted to make sure I'm there when Appa starts his treatment.

But once and for all, I have to face Jungkook to end things with him. This pains me so much as I love him more than anything and anyone, except for Appa, of course. He must come first, so I have to do this.

"Jin baby, are you okay? Are you crying?" He walked towards me and hugged me tight which made me cry even more. How can I let go of him like this? I still tried to keep calm and faced him.

"Jin, I know this is hard but we'll figure it out okay, together?" Jungkook said to me. Shit!! How can I tell him I figured it out all by myself?

"Babe, I'm so sorry. But I have to go." Fuck my brain! Function properly and tell him the right words!

"What do you mean you have to go? Wait for me, let's go together to the hospital." I just got him more confused.

"No babe, I mean I have to leave for a job. In two days maybe. To Seoul."

"What?! What job?"

"I accepted Jimin's offer. The modelling job. But I have to move to Seoul with him." Jungkook stayed silent for a while.

"Are you sure you can do it?" He then asked. I'm sure he has a lot of questions but he's still formulating everything.

"Yes. I already took an advance money so Appa can start the treatment right away." I saw Jungkook closed his eyes before he looked down at the floor and sighed, then he looked back at me.

"Ok. Ok Jin. At least let me take you to Seoul on the day you need to move. I just want to make sure you'll settle there just fine."

"N-no baby, you c-can't do that. I'm so s-sorry!" I can't help but cry too much again.

"Why not?!" Jungkook's eyebrows are creased as he stared down at me.

"They r-require models to be single. T-that's why. I have to let you go J-jungkook. I'm so sorry!!"

I broke down and fell to my knees in front of him. I bow my head down to him to apologize for what I've done.

"I-i'm sorry. I h-hope you can forgive me s-someday. I'm v-very sorry Kookie."

Jungkook started to cry now as he watched me beg in front of him.

"Jin, what the fuck are you doing?!! Get up!!"

He pulled me back to my feet and gripped at my arms to make me face him.

I can't bear seeing his crying face. Never in our five years of relationship that I've seen him cry like this in front of me.

"You are going to give back that money, do you understand?! If I have to sell my car, I will!! Just give that damn money back!! You are not going to Seoul with him!!!" Jungkook shouted at me.

"Kook, no. That's still not enough. Appa needs the treatment for six to twelve months. I need more and this is the only way." I calmly said. He's too mad now to even understand me, I guess.

He let go of me and walked back and forth in front of me while brushing his hair.

"Fuck Jin!! If I know, Jimin just wants you for himself that's why you need to be single!! Would you really break up with me for him?? You're fucking unbelievable Jin!!!!"

His shout just echoed thru my chest. I'm really hurting right now but there's nothing else I can do. I have to hold firm to my decision.

"I'm so sorry, Kook. I really am. You know how much I love you. But I'm not breaking up with you for Jimin. I'm doing this for Appa.

I know you won't understand now. But I have to do this. I'm so sorry. Someday, you might even thank me for this. As after doing this, I don't deserve you anymore. I-i'm sorry. I have to go now."

I had to cut this now before he gets the best of me. I walk to the door to leave but stopped at his statement,

"Jin, as soon as you step foot outside this house, there would be no more Jungkook for you to get back to. I'm warning you!!"

I just let my tears stream down my face then continued walking out the door but I was still hearing him shout,

"Seokjin!! Jin! Baby!!"

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I'm sorry to break your Jinkook hearts for now 💔

Let me know your thoughts lovey's!

Borahae 💜

~Author-nim 😊