I'll Take Care of You

Secrets

Buck
There I laid in my floor with eddies arm wrapped around me. His lips on mine I can taste the beer and the pizza but even then the kiss is soft and has such passion with un said words from the both of us. "I'm sorry" I whispered mostly to myself because I feel sorry for myself. I miss her everyday and there's nothing I can do about it. I felt Eddie hold me tighter and I held onto him. Should I tell him? No I can't. He would look at me different. "Buck what's wrong?" That's the question I didn't want him asking. "Where's Christopher?" I asked looking into his beautiful brown eyes. "I called Carla he's okay." I nodded and got up from the floor grabbed his hand led him to the couch. I walked over to the kitchen counter and grabbed two glasses out ice in it and grabbed the tequila bottle. I walked back over to him and handed him a glass with tequila. I took mine in a whole gulp. "Wow Buck slowdown." Eddie said grabbing at my wrist. "Eddie I'm gonna tell you my story and you and I are both gonna need a drink for it." Eddie looked at me and nodded. Eddie grabbed his drink and got it down in one gulp. "Ok sit." He said and pulled me down with him. "Ok where to start I ask myself." At that moment I kept getting flash backs of my story my life. "Hold on." I got up from the couch and went into my room and went to the safe next to my bed. I opened it up and there it was the three pictures I had of her. I went back to the living room area and I saw Eddie sitting there looking around. "Ok here." I handed him the three pictures and he looked at them. "Buck who is this?" He asked looking up at me I grabbed the pictures and picked one out of the three. You can see me with a big smile showing off  my teeth holding the baby. I sat down and pushed myself into Eddie arms. I grabbed the other pictures and analyze them. I see myself with her at the park in the swing and then it's me and her laughing I miss her. "That's my daughter Eddie." I cried into his chest. "Buck what do you mean? When did you have her and where is she." He asked, I knew I could hide this from him. "When I was a sophomore in high school I got a girl pregnant at a party and 9 months later  I had my baby. The mom just disappeared one day no trace of her at all. So just me a teenage boy as a single father and I managed with my parents. Yeah they weren't supportive but they saw I was trying." I told him and I leaned forward pour myself another drink. "So I know your wondering where is she. One day we went out she was 1 and I was now a junior in high school. My parents had gotten me my own place at this point so it was just me and Brianna. One day I asked my dad to watch her cause I had to go study with a friend. When I walked out that door something told me go back don't leave her but I did. 30 min into studying I get the call a uncontrollable fire in my building. So I hurried back by the time I got the the fire department was there trying to turn off the fire and they wouldn't let me in. I fought to get in Eddie but they wouldn't let me and next thing I know I'm in the hospital and they told me she passed. They never let me see the body told me it was something I wouldn't want to see. I wouldn't be able to recognize her." I look at the pictures and I see Brianna with the perfect blue eyes and her perfect pale skin. I felt a pair of arms around me and hug me tightly. "I'm so sorry Buck." I looked into his eyes and leaned in for a kiss. "Can we go to your house? I don't want to be alone." Eddie nodded and got up from his where he was sitting. "Are you okay to drive?" I asked and he told me he only had one glass so I know he's good. I got my things together and before I know it were on the road.
Eddie
My head was working all around. Buck told me his nuggets secret and I couldn't help but wish I could help. I don't know what to do besides being here for him, yet I feel like that's not enough. I look over at Buck and notice he's asleep. I smile at him "I love you." I whispered and kiss his head once we pulled up to my driveway. "I love you too." Buck answered back in his sleep and I found that one of the cutest things in the entire world. I didn't wanna wake him but I had to get him inside. "Hey buck" I shook him and nothing. "Buck" nothing "Buck come on let's get you inside" I shook him and still nothing. "Baby pleaseee get up and legs get you inside." He's eyes shut open at the word baby. "What did you just call me?" He asked his blue eyes tired. "Baby. Cause your going to be my baby." I said confident in my answer. Oh really? Asked Buck as he sat up and rubbed his eyes with his fist. "Yeah really." I said smiling stealing a kiss as I get out of the car. I hurried to the other side and open the door. "Carry me." Says Buck hanging his arms out. I start laughing "baby no come on we're just 6 ft away." He shakes his head "no carry me." He says and crosses his arms. "Okay fine I'll carry you come on you big baby." I said and he let out a huge dramatic gasp. "Fine you won't get a good night kiss." Buck says pushing me aside and getting out the car. He was about half way to the door when I ran up beside him and picked him up. "Come on baby I'm sorry. Your not a big baby. Your my big baby." He fought against me but no use I am stronger than him. I open the door and Carla was there in the living room. Hey Carla you can go and sorry for asking you to come this late. "Oh please child you know I don't mind." She grabbed her things said by to Buck and left. "Okay time for bed." I said as I pulled Buck to my bed. "I know we're off tomorrow but I gotta take Christopher to school tomorrow." I told Buck as I changed into sweats no shirt just like buck. "I'll come with." I nodded and laid down with buck in my arms. "Buck." I called out in the dark room. "Yeah."  "I love you and I'm here for you." I held him tighter put my nose in his hair and fell asleep with the man of my dreams.