Same Mistakes

Chapter 9

Bella's P.O.V.

I got discharged from the hospital a few hours ago but I'm still pretty much in bed rest. My body hurts all over and I can barely move. I'm lying in my room alone not doing anything. Zayn walks in my room and sits down on my bed. I only let Zayn and Harry touch me still. It's not that I don't trust the other boys, I do, I'm just scared.

The boys walk in after Zayn but they just stand in the doorway.

"Belles, is it ok if we go out for a little while?" Zayn asks.

I think for a minute but nod hesitantly.

"Are you sure?" He asks again, sensing my hesitation.

"Umm yeah. I'll be fine." I reply.

"How about I stay home with her?" Harry says.

"Harry you really don't have to do that. I'll be fine." I say even though that's a complete lie.

"No, no I want to stay. You boys go have fun. We'll have fun here!" Harry says with a smile.

"You sure?" Zayn says look at me and Harry but mostly me.

I nod my head and he seems reassured.

"Well then let's go boys!" Zayn says.

He leans down and kisses my forehead and gives me a loose hug since my stomach still hurts a lot.

The boys say bye and they leave Zayn's flat leaving Harry and I. Harry comes and sits down next to me. I move closer to him and lean into him. He starts playing with my hair while I just lay there.

"How are you doing babe?" He asks after a little.

"Ok I guess." I say back.

"Now tell me the truth. How are you honestly doing?" He asks again.

"Like absolute shit." I say trying to keep the tears from pouring out of my eyes.

"Talk to me about it. It's not good to keep your feelings in." He says and turns to me so we're facing each other.

"But that's what I do. I keep things inside. I don't talk about my feelings. It makes me feel weak." I say. Only Zayn knows that, that's why he's always so worried about me.

"Bella, you can trust me. I'm not going to tell anyone. What you tell me right now stays in this room." He says.

I sigh knowing that he's not going to stop until he gets it all out of me.

"I just can't believe that two of my best friends betrayed me like that. I know I didn't know Connor for that long but still. He was my friend. Now I'm not going to be able to trust people. I feel bad that I don't let Niall, Louis, and Liam anywhere near me. I don't think they're going to hurt me, I know they're not going to but it's like my body thinks they are so every time they come near me I flinch and move away." I explain then burst into tears.

Harry doesn't say anything for a few minutes. He just pulls me into his lap and holds me while I cry into his chest.

"Shh babe everything is going to be ok. They understand completely why you're not around them as much. It's not always going to be this way. We'll all help you through this. I promise you that." He says to me.

I take a couple of deep breaths and calm down. He's right everything is going to be ok. My crying has come to a stop my I'm still lying practically on top of Harry. We stay like that for awhile in a comfortable silence. He starts tracing the tattoo I have on my wrist.

"You never showed me your other tattoo." He says.

I lift up my shirt slightly so he can see my hip where it says I won't give up. He starts tracing that one too.

"What do your tattoos mean?" He asks.

"The one on my wrist is just to show my love for music and the one on my hip, really just means what it says. I won't let myself give up on something that I really want." I say and he nods.

"Can you play your instruments for me, please?" He asks.

"Which one?" I say.

"All of them!" He says which makes my laugh.

"Well my cello is at home so I can't play that but get me my violin, guitar, and keyboard. But not all at once! Start with keyboard." I tell him.

He gets up and gets my keyboard and brings it over to me. I turn it on and do some scales to warm my fingers up.

"What should I play?" I ask him.

"Whatever you want." He says and sits back down on the bed.

I think for a minute. Then I start playing my favorite song to play on the piano. It's called A River Flows in You by Yiruma. It's a classical piece and I love it. I memorized it awhile ago and my fingers still remember it. They flow across the piano like I'm home alone practicing. I get so lost in the music that when I'm done playing and Harry starts clapping I jump a little.

"Wow. That was amazing." He says and I blush.

"Thank you." I say and push the keyboard aside.

He gets up and hands me my violin case. I open it up and take it out along with my bow. I put the case on the ground and start tuning it. Once I'm done tuning I start playing a song called the Hell song. I know lovely name, but it's supposed to be in a quartet and it's really cool.

The songs pretty long but Harry listens to the whole thing. When I'm done my arm hurts a little from playing for so long. Harry looks shocked which makes me laugh. It feels good to laugh.

"Damn girl!!! You can play!" He says which makes me laugh even more.

I put my violin away and have Harry grab my guitar which I tune really quickly.

"Can you play moments?" He asks me and I nod.

I start playing and he starts singing. I look up at him and meet his eyes. I keep playing but I get lost in his green eyes. The song slowly ends but we're still staring at each other. Harry starts to move closer to me, I start moving closer to him to. He glances down at my lips and I do the same to him. Our lips meet in the middle and we both instantly close our eyes. The kiss is short lives and we break away after a few seconds. I open my eyes to see Harry staring at me intently.

Well shitty fuckers. I think I'm falling for Harry.

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Sorry for taking so long to update. I still don't know if I'm going to continue with this fanfic.

I don't know when I'll update next if I update. I have midterms coming up and this is my least popular story so yeah...

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