It had been 3 days since I had walked up the path into my new life. I had kept to myself, just staying in my room, thinking. This is all too much; my mum leaving me, different home, different school, my feelings for Nathan. They all just clustered in my brain! Me and Nathan had been laying off each other, I think we finally both understood that it wasn't right. Besides, I couldn't be dealing with a relationship at the moment - never mind a secret, illegal one! It was Thursday morning, nothing to do all day since I wasn't at school for the next two weeks, they had let me stay off for bereavement. Besides, the funeral was tomorrow, so today I was just planning on lazying about. I was just laying in bed, then all of a sudden my stomach grumbled. I hadn't been eating properly.
I walked into the kitchen to find Tom making bacon butties. Nathan was right, they were so easy to get along with, I was practically best friends with all of them now. While Tom was flipping the sizzling bacon, Jay was in his room, Nathan was asleep on the sofa, Max was watching Manchester City on the TV (the match had started at 6am - he loves his football) and Siva was taking a bath.
"You want one of my amazing bacon sarnies?" Tom said, noticing me stood behind him.
"If you don't mind, thanks Tom, I'm bloody starving this morning!" I went to sit on the sofa next to Max but Nathan was taking up the rest, fast asleep.
"Wake him up will you? He won't listen to me, the little dick!" He said, playfully, and grabbed Nathans ear. Nathan was kind of awake, because he had the strength to lift his arm up and swat Max's hand away from his face.
"Fine by me..." And I punced on Nathan. Max started to laugh hysterically, and I could hear Tom's laugh from the kitchen. This was the most fun I have had all week, I need to keep my mind of my mum.
Nathan groaned. "That's it!" He got up and chased me around the house. I ran back up the stairs, into my bedroom and stood next to my bed on the far side. Nathan followed me in and stood on the other.
"You're gonna get it." He ran around to catch me, however, I leaped over my bed and out of my bedroom door, leaving him stunned. I ran back down the stairs, giggling and entered the front room. It was empty, where had everyone gone? I peaked round into the kitchen - nobody. As I turned back round into the front room, the boys were there, stood in a line, smirking at me.
"Shit." I said, a blocked my face as they came charging up to me. Jay picked me up and threw me onto the sofa, the boys then looking down at me.
"You woke me up." Nathan huskily said in a 'scary' voice.
"You should never wake Nathan up from his beauty sleep..." Tom said, following by an "Ouch!" when Nathan punched him in the arm.
"You need to be punished." Jay said, following by a giggle. They were trying their hardest to keep calm, however it sounded really sexual.
"Three...two..." they said in unison.
"ONE!" Nathan shouted and they all piled on top of me, one by one. Nathan was directly on top of me, our faces were nearly touching. While the other boys were laughing hysterically because Tom had fallen off, me and Nathan stared at eachother. This was the closest we had been since that night. We were both breathing heavily until Nathan was knocked off of me by Jay, who had then jumped on him. Basically, it had just turned into a mosh pit.
I got up, straightened myself out and went into the kitchen to collect my bacon sarnie, which had just been cooked before they all decided to attempt to kill me. I scoffed it fully, I was starving. Plus, it was the nicest bacon sarnie I had ever tasted, then again, I hadn't eaten one of Nath's yet.
I entered back into the front room where it had all suddenly stopped. Max was back watching City, Jay was back in his room playing with Tia, Tom had gone up to get a shower and Siva was on his phone on the sofa next to Max. Where was Nathan? I cleared my head and decided to go up to my room and open my laptop, check up on the latest news from my friends. Especially Lucy, god I missed her. I trailed up the stairs and pushed open my bedroom door, only to find Nathan sitting on the edge of my bed.
"Can we talk?" Nathan said, looking serious.
"Sure." I sat next to him on my bed, not too close, and turned to the side to face him.
"What are we doing?" He said, crinkling his eyebrows, looking confused. He stared at me waiting for an answer. Honestly, I didn't know.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"When I met you, you were crazy about me, and I have to admit I kinda fell for you. Then we shared a kiss, and it was amazing. You got upset, I comforted you, you got upset again, and then we decided to go for it. Sure I may of took it a little far one night but we stopped and just kept it PG. Now, we are acting like it never happened." He basically said what my mind had been saying to me over and over again. I mustn't of wanted to tell him because I was afraid of what he might say. I just looked at him, I didn't know how to react.
"Look, Nathan. I have been thinking. Even though I love you, and I do love you, I don't think this is a good idea. My life is a shit hole at the moment, and I don't want to focus on a secret relationship when I have other things on my mind. I have just moved hours away from my home, the one person I felt safe around is gone, I have no friends here, the only things that are keeping me going are you boys, and I don't want to ruin that." We stared at each other and I saw him tearing up. I thought it was only a fling? Why were we this upset?
"Okay. I understand. For the best, right?" He said, looking directly into my eyes.
"For the best!" He forced a smile. But it was for the best, and things were going to get better!
"Come here." He pulled me into a friendly hug. At least we can still have these. "I will protect you no matter what relationship we have. Sure it will be hard at first but we will have a laugh and forget the whole thing. Living with us boys isn't a piece of cake, but we have one hell of a time!" He pulled away and winked at me. He stood up, put his hands together and walked out.
It was for the best.
