I ran up my path and darted into the house, shut the door behind me and lent back, sliding down the door. Tears streamed down my face. It was the thought of him saying "nothing can ever happen". He was right. Nothing can ever happen, which makes just fooling around with him more harder to stop. My love grew for him as were shared those intent kisses, and knowing nothing can ever happen made me begin to realise I couldn't do it. I couldn't kiss him and then just leave the whole thing like nothing happened. That's why I ran out, to stop before it got too serious and overwhelming.
I wiped the tears from my face and slummed down on the sofa, turning on the TV and watching a bit of Friends, the one where they go to the beach and Monica gets stung by a jellyfish. However, I was just staring at the TV screen, not really taking in the episode, and just thinking. Thinking about this morning. When suddenly, my phone buzzed. I had a DM.
"@NathanTheWanted
Emma, are you ok? I'm sorry if I rushed into things, but I thought you wanted it too. We need to talk, again, so sorry x"
The awful thing was, I did want it. I wanted it more than anything, hence why I pulled him back once he had finished. I was giving him mixed signals and I hated that. It wasn't his fault.
"Emma_Sykes_TW
Im fine. It wasn't your fault, I'll explain once we meet. Come round to my house? 17 Bull Lane."
I needed to get it straight. He needed to know that I was too young for him, and he would end up breaking my heart because nothing could ever happen. Ever. At that moment, my phone buzzed again, however, it was not from Nathan. It was a text.
"EMMA! Why aren't you in school?! I thought I could trust you! Unfortunately, I can't leave your Aunt, she is still severely ill. I will be back Monday, and we will talk. BIG TIME. You are in so much trouble!"
From Mum. Great. This was just what I needed! My phone vibrated again, Nathan had replied.
"NathanTheWanted
I'm coming round now. I know where your house is, one of my old friends used to live there. Speak to you soon x"
Knowing he was coming over, I decided to put the kettle on. I placed the two teabags in the two cups and then waited, thinking over what I was planning to tell him. Then there was a knock at the door. I slowly opened it, afraid my puffy red eyes were still showing. He walked in and thanked me. Either the red eyes had gone, or he was just being polite, OR he just didn't care, but I very much doubt that.
"Emma. Can I just say one more time I'm so sor-" I interrupted.
"Nathan! It wasn't your fault! At all! You were right. I did want it, more than you could ever imagine, but as we were locked, I realised you were right. Nothing could and would ever happen, so what was the point? All that would be left would be a broken heart. MY broken heart." As I said this, trying not to look at him too often, I noticed he was walking towards me, looking into my eyes.
"Emma." he whispered. At that moment, he was very close. "What I meant was, nothing could ever happen - in public." With this he brushed a piece of my hair that had fallen from behind my ear, still locking his eyes with mine. He was so seductive.
"But Nathan, how would that ever work?" I said, looking like there was no hope. Sure this was my dream, but I never thought it would become a reality. And now it was, all I could think of were the drawbacks.
"I dont know, but there is only one way to find out...." he said huskily, while placing his head on my shoulder, breathing on my neck. The breaths then turned into kisses, slow and luscious. The suction from his lips onto my skin sent shivers down my body.
"Nathan....I think...I think...." I moaned. It was as if this moan was asking for more, because at that moment, he brought his head up and pressed his lips against mine.
"Nathan....Nathan....stop.....we cant!" I said in between kisses, then finally built up the strength in my hormones to push him away. He stood there, staring at me with those powerful emerald eyes. They explored my body, then finally met my eyes once more. This was actually happening. Why was I stopping it? It would be secret, no strings attached....what was I thinking? It was like he had been reading my mind, because we then ran up to each other again and locked lips. This time it was more passionate, seen as though we both wanted it. His hands slid down my back and stroked up and down my spine. Mine did the same, but crawled underneath his shirt with my hands against his skin. He moaned into his kiss, which triggered his arms into moving further down, grabbing onto my ass.
"Jump..." he whispered into my ear. No problem with that! I jumped, still kissing his neck. He pushed me against my wall and started kissing me passionately once more. My legs wrapped around him regaining my balance. The only thing keeping me up was Nathan's body, and it felt awesome. We had gotten into a rhythm with our tongues, when all of a sudden there was a knock at my door. I jumped down from Nathan's hands and attended to the knock.
"Hello darling! Is your Mummy there?". Great.
"Aunt Caroline! Great to see you! Unfortunately no, she isn't. She's up in Scotland with Aunt Michelle." I said, with a fake smile. God I hated that woman. She was quite older than my mum and Aunt Michelle and wore lots of heavy make up. She always treated me like a child, still buying me barbie dolls for Christmas and still referring to my Mum as 'Mummy'.
"Oh I see. I've heard Auntie Michelle isn't too well. Anyway, what are you doing out of school?" she said, trying to get a peak on whats in the house.
"Oh erm, I'm not too well. Got a bad headache, so if you don't mind I will get back to my..erm....sleep." I said, knowing Nathan can hear me made me chuckle inside. Unfortunately, Nathan was unable to control his laughter and giggled, making me and my Aunt Caroline stunned.
"Who was that?" she asked, again trying to poke her nose behind the door, which I was keeping fairly shut so you could only see my face.
"I have the TV on" I said, shutting the door slowly. "Goodbye Aunt Caroline!". I closed the door and punched Nathan in the arm.
"Nathan! My Aunt heard you! You could of gotten us into deep shit!" I said, playfully.
"Sorry! I couldn't help myself! You know, all this sneaking around stuff is kinda exciting don't you think?" he said, moving closer to me with a smirk on his face. I knew what he wanted.
"You could say that..." I also said with a smirk on my face. My feet flew off the floor as Nathan picked me up bridal style and threw me onto the sofa, with him following after me, leaning on top of me.
"Now Nathan, this position could get us into a lot of trouble. Lets keep it PG for now" I said with a wink. He sighed.
"Good enough for me!" he said and before you know it, our tongues were dancing once again.
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Hey guys! Sorry I haven't added bits to the end of the other chapters. I just wanted to get my thoughts out onto a story. Up to now I have known what to write, but now I'm just going along with it. I have had a few ideas onto what is going to happen next - you will just have to wait and see!
I try to update every couple of days, but since the holidays are coming to a close, they might be a little further apart.
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