Skinny Love

Chapter Nine - "What are you doing to me?"

After three weeks stuck in the apartment attempting to write about how much I loved the song, I hadn't been out, I hadn't been to Joe's, I was so stressed out, I had only really seen Addie, Jade Ryan and Liam.

Jade moved in last weekend, it took Liam and I ages to bring all of her stuff up to the guest room, it was ridiculous how much stuff she had, I managed to keep half of my clothes in there though because they were mostly going out stuff, it was nice to have someone around the apartment, it didn't feel as lonely.

Niall distanced himself from me, the night he slept over after they scared us was the last time he spoke to me, he didn't call; he didn't text. Logan however did and I was stuck between my gut and my head, I wanted to talk to him, I wanted his promises but I couldn't be with him. Never again.

I missed Niall, I missed those blue eyes and that horrendous laugh he did but I would never tell anyone, Addie questioned me about him but I just shrugged it off, there was nothing to say. He had said he wanted to be there, in my bed, with me, I guess he just changed his mind.

We had a week of fun and that's what he wanted, I wasn't going to sleep with him so he got bored, that's just what happens. I heard he had slept with at least 4 girls in the past three weeks but I didn't let it bother me, they gave him what I wouldn't, who was I to say he was wrong?

I handed my assignment in before the deadline, I then met up with Addie and Liam to walk to music class, Niall had attended but he didn't sit in the seat behind me for the last three weeks, I found it strange that he didn't want to be near me and I wondered what I had done wrong, I mean I know I wanted him to cuddle but he said he liked it, maybe it was because he was trying to get me to sleep with him but I chose to ignore the growing knot of worry in my stomach. I know it was the first time anything had happened without alcohol but if it’s because he realised he was wrong then that’s worse. Fuck, I’m so anxious about this whole situation, he told me not to be shy around him, we were friends? How can he just stop speaking to me? I mean fair enough if he didn’t wanna sleep beside me anymore but at least be the friend you were supposed to be.

"I hope they don't want us to sing" I whispered to Addie as I saw the whiteboard with assignment written in big letters,

"It'll be fine babe" she smiled, we sat in our seats next to Liam, my skin was burning, the back of my neck was itchy and I could feel the stares, I knew he was behind me; we hadn't been this close in three weeks,

"Oi mate" Niall patted Liam on the shoulder, he turned to face him but I didn't move, I was embarrassed, I knew the disappointment would show on my face,

"Are we heading to Joe's tonight?" He asked Liam,

"Yeah, sure who's going?"

"Everyone, they're throwing a party for Scarlett" Scarlett? That’s never going to be over. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat and Addie patted my thigh,

"Yeah, ok" I checked my phone ignoring their conversation; we were waiting for the professor, who was running late,

"Are you texting Logan?"

"U-um"

"Jesus Christ Izzie" Liam shook his head,

"What?"

"Does this mean you're going to get back with him?"

"Maybe, I don't know"

"For God sake make up your mind, you wanted Logan then you fooled around with Niall now Logan again" he raised his eyebrows,

"I fooled around three times, that was it, it didn't mean anything"

"I'm hurt babe" my breath hitched as I flashed my eyes towards him,