A speck of blood

Confessions

Early morning

As always, Seokjin was up first,  tending to the last of the dishes and pondering on breakfast. Looking out of the window, he saw that glittery surface of the small lake . He smiled.
So many times they had taken their rods and tried the luck.
Canoe or boat, mostly two by two, sometimes alone.
He took a quick bite of some leftovers and skipped upstairs to get his gear. Just an hour, such a cool and brisk morning, too good to be wasted.

On his way down he met Hoseok , also an early bird. He looked so pale, like there was not a drop of blood left in him.
Maybe a little hangover? Hoseok couldn't hold his liquor very well, after a couple of glasses he would just space out. They all knew that, so they just saw to it that he didn't fall over.
Sometimes he could be very talkative up to that tipping point.
Yesterday he had been talking about Hye Jin. And the other guy.
What other guy? Yoongi had been listening more closely, he was used to that, listening closely.  Seokjin didn't know what the outcome was. The other guy? Hmm.

-  Are you going out hyung?
-  I'm taking the little boat, you want to come along?
-  Ah, well, just a bite to eat, hold on, ok?
And so they walked through the high grass down to the boathouse and took out the small rowing boat and two life vests.
Hoseok was real quiet, but his face was much brighter now and he sat up straight , facing the glowing sun with a faint smile.
He wasn't very adventurous so there was no use bringing a fishing rod but a net , he could help getting the fish onboard. He took a bucket too.  He was quite confident that Seokjin would get a few fish, he always did.

-  Hyung, are you happy? I mean, your business, wife, children.
Seokjin sat very still. Hoseok had noticed during last night that he wasn't all that sparkly and bright. Usually he was the one , together with Hoseok, that kept the level up, joking, laughing and singing out loud in the karaoke mic. Last night, well, they both seemed ..different.
-  Hoseoki, I miss my children so much. They left so quickly , I
   thought they would stay longer. The house is so quiet.
-  Quiet?
-  We , we , ah, we don't really talk that much. We have separate
    schedules, she runs the restaurant very tenaciously and goes
    to meetings and conferences. I , well, I like the cooking and
    planning with the chefs. We just...
He gazed sternly at the glittering surface and in his eyes there was a whole ocean of suspended tears. He swallowed . And sobbed, almost inaudible.
Hoseok put his hand over Seokjins.
-   That's life hyung, I'm sorry that you're hurting. I guess being
     married isn't the answer to lifes every burden.

And so they let the boat just drift along the calm surface. In the bucket was no fish to be seen.

What's bothering Namjoon?

As they reached the shore again, they were fiercely attacked by
Tanny who happend to love water and took a brave dive from the
bridge . The two men in the boat were drenched and it was no
damage at all, surprised they started to laugh and all of a sudden the dark mode was gone.
Chattering and goofing they ran up to the house with the equally wet dog running after them with happy barks.
Yoongis tired face with hair standing in every direction showed up in a window .
- Tanny, shush!

- Ah, never mind Yoongi, he took a bath and we took a shower!
Yoongi watched his friends race into the house with a soaking dog yapping around them in circles. He shook his head and stopped the motion immediately
-  Ouch, my head...no red wine tonight Min! Only Soju..
Deeply pondering on the disgusting choice soju would be, he waddled into the hallway and downstairs.
-  Heyo, Namjoonah! Wide awake huh? Twins up yet?
-  What do you think, I bet they'll be up by lunchtime! Sleep in a     
    bundle, just like old times.
-   They never grow out of that , do they? Sincerely. I wonder if
     they have a cabin in between the houses..
-    You sourpuss. Is it better sleeping with 5 dogs?
-    Shut up! They're good company, they don't talk back or nag.
Namjoon smirked a bit but realized there was a point in that.
At the moment, he wasn't sure if he would be alone for the next few months. Damn women! A dog would be better.
That woman though, he couldn't risk mentioning her.

-  I don't miss having a woman in my house, the dogs are the
   best company for me.
-  Sorry hyung, I don't think you're being honest now.
-  No, maybe not but I don't think you are either. You keep
   being restless. New women . Adventure, action .
-  How do you know? And what women?
-  Your Instagram.  New ladies, new tracks, new pictures.
-  That's my work hyung. I only arrange hikes for people, that's
    all. I'm not like that anymore, it's been what, 10 years!!?
    Theres only one woman for me..I mean , one kind, one...
*Damn it Kim!! Chatterbox, idiot! *
-  Oh?
-   Who's the woman hyung? Tell me, I'm a good judge of character
Taehyung appeared in the doorway and they could all see the heap in the large kingsize bed wrapped in blankets and sheets,  also known as Jimin.
He would be motionless for at least 2 hours more.

-  There is no woman Tae, none at all!  None! Shut the fuck up!!
Namjoon raced up the stairs and slammed his door shut.
-  What did I say?
-  Its not you, he's got a nail stuck somewhere. I wonder . This
   was a delicate issue for him. Leave him for a while.
Behind the closed door, Namjoon dug his nails into the palms of his hands and cried silently . Sitting on the floor he kept repeating:
-  How could I do this to him, how could I do this to him!! 

- Tae, get your brother out of the sheets, he's got some talking
   to do.
Taehyungs face lit up at Yoongis words and raced back into the bedroom where he crashed on the heap called Jimin.
-  Bro! Wake up. We have an emergency here!
-  Leave him to me, I'm awake, I'm awake.