Rolling Stone (the weeknd)

chapter 34

I got a text from her.

I was so happy to receive that text from her.

"Good" I text her back with one word I didn't want her to think she was special enough for a two words or more text.

5 minutes later she replied

"no you're not"

"oh"

I wasn't OK. How could some one be OK when they lose their soul mate. I was doing more and more drugs just to mask the pain. I was eating less and less because I could never be full with out Tara

"Whats up with the one word texts Abel"

"nothing" I didn't really want to text her. I didn't want her to know her absent had an affect on me. Or how I miss her so much. I didn't want her to know that she had some sort of power over me.

"whatever talk to you later Abel"

"K"

I know it's kind of stupid. I just don't want my feelings out there in the open. I've been faithful to her every since what happen. I haven't had sex with any one because I couldn't do it with her consuming my mind every second of the day.

This isn't like me. Usually I don't give a flying fuck. Right now I'd probably be at the studio or club turning up. But instead I'm home in my bed. This is ridiculous