Tragedy • Eren J.

Bonus Chapter

"Y/n? What are you doing over there?" A voice suddenly cut me off of my hallucinations as I blinked multiple times.

Eren was gone, again..

I turned around to see who it was, "Jean.." I whispered, he seems about concerned just looking at his face right now.

"Come now, i'll take you home.." he says, I thought everyone already left?

I looked back to where I last saw eren, which was the edge of the cliff.. but he was gone, I would often experience this that's why I need to take care of my mental health. Literally, there's no use of medication if I don't drink them.

"Right.." I nodded as I went to walk over Jean's direction, he also knows my condition. In fact everyone does.. it's embarrassing that I became like this over a man.

Jean gave me a sweet smile, before taking my hand as we lead me to his car. My eyes was just glued to the grass we were walking as I felt exhausted already.

Why is he wanting me to hug him? Is he trying to kill me?

"Who told you to pick me up?" I asked as soon as we both got inside his car, I put on my seatbelt and so does he.

"Your hot cousin told me to wait for you"

I sigh, "Jean, she has a child and a fiancé.. please stop being a simp"

"I'm just kidding, you know my eyes are only for you" he winked, making me shake my head. But, yo be honest, this corny pick up line of him sort of made me smile.

"But what were you doing over there, Y/n?" He questioned, while starting the engine.

"I-i thought I saw Eren.." I cannot even say it, I'm embarrassed cause people think I've lost my mind.

It's true, Eren's death surprised everyone.. and Mikasa told me that time, that it was my fault. I still can't believe he tried to go back with me.. but it leads him that way.

"Y/n, Eren is gone. Do you think he'll be happy knowing that you're ruining yourself because of him?" Jean sigh, I looked down, as my sight started to get blurry because of the build up tears in my eyes.

"But, how can I be happy when it's literally my fault that he died?"

"It's not your fault, it's an accident.. stop blaming yourself because of what Mikasa said"

I looked at Jean with the teary eyes, and this is the first time I actually found him charming.. I didn't know looking at his side view can give butterflies in my tummy's.

Jean has been there for me as well thru out the years, that's why he got a bond with my family. I don't know his intentions but I'd like to think that he's just being concerned as my friend.

"Sometimes, letting someone go is less painful tha. keeping someone who's already out of your life. No offense but, did he even showed you how a real woman should be treated when he's still alive?"

I stayed silent, he didn't.. but that doesn't mean I should hate on him, "You just have to accept it and let go Y/n, this isn't good for you. There's so many fish in the ocean. Look around" he said giggling.

I frown when suddenly pinched my nose as I was looking at him while he drives and talk, My fingers landed on my nose as I touched it. His pinch doesn't hurt but why did I freaking felt electricity?

"You know, I've dated multiple girls. And there are some that I want to be with forever, but that doesn't mean they'll feel the same way right? So I just let them go, if they're not meant for me then why should I force it?" My eyes are still glued at him, seeing him smile kinda made me relief and lessen my thoughts about Eren.

"What about you? Do you have any past relationships?" He asked, I looked back to my things as I started to think.

"I don't really remember, except I had a crush on Armin once.."

"Armin? Oh can you please tell me why'd you like Armin that time?" I nodded as I tried to recall all the memories of my childhood.

"He's really nice and positive, he always cheer me up whenever I'm down. And he always sneak out of his grandfathers to play with me. I remember having the same length of hair as his and people actually think we're twins" I giggled, I really love talking about myself. I'm glad Jean asked for this.

"Also, we would sometime walk home together, even though we're just kids. He was the one who used to protect me even though he's also scared.. I fell for him but, when Eren's mother told me that I'm marrying Eren... I kinda felt bad and stayed away from Armin since that's what my parents said. They want me to only hang out with Eren.."

"Aww poor girl, well at least you and Armin are close again right? If Eren's mom didn't set you up. What do you think will happen?" He asked more, so I'll deliver.

"I think I would've confessed to Armin years ago, but you know. When he actually confessed to me two years ago.. I didn't felt anything, I lost feelings for him because of Eren, but I don't blame Eren"

"That's nice, anyone else you had a crush on?"

"I couldn't think of anyone to be honest"

"Do you think I'm cool?" I frown, "I mean, a lot of ladies find me really really attractive you know" Why would he ask this question so randomly.

Knowing Jean, I think he's happy when everyone always compliments him. Not gonna lie, he has this type of confidence that I wish I had.

He made me laughed as he wiggle his brows and looked at my direction for a bit to wink, before fixing his gaze back to the road.

Now that I think of it, earlier.. I was ready to hug Eren, I was ready to run into his arms. Until Jean came, he called me and made me realize that it was only inside my head. He saved me.

"I think your very cool, Jean" I giggled, but I was surprised when suddenly took one of his hand off the wheel as he placed then above mine.

"That smile suits you better" I got flustered, am I a hoe for getting flustered? Cause like 5 minutes ago I was thinking about Eren and no one else.. and now I am here flirting with Jean?

"W-well then.. I'll keep smiling, for you.." I didn't know where that came from but, I saw how Jean's cheeks blushed as he placed his hand back to the wheel.

"S-stop doing that, D-don't flirt me with as a j-joke" he stated, stuttering as he bite his lower lip to prevent himself from smiling.

"I wasn't joking you know, in fact.. I kinda feel like smiling at lot now" I took a deep breath as the burden I had inside finally lessen, I straighten my back and my lips form a smile without even forcing it.

"I know that it won't take me just a minute, and hour or even a day, weeks or months to move on but... I will do it!" I smiled proudly while looking at the road in front of me.

"I will do it for myself and family, I'll try to let go of Eren and don't give a fuck whatever Mikasa says.." I gulped, finally releasing that negative energry I had in me for the past two years.

"Okay okay! Pop off, what else Y/n?" Jean started hyping me up as he chuckled, this is probably the first time I had this type of energy. Damn I feel new.

"I will stay alive to force Thea to give me a niece already! I will stay positive for the people I love and let go of the people who brings me negativity!"

"Yeah, that's my girl.." he chuckled in deep voice as he ruffled my hair.

I feel like a kid getting a compliment, and I love it so much. Looking at Jean right now, I felt relief.. cause finally..

I found myself someone to lean on, again..