The Girl From No Where

Chapter 2- Smoothies

TW: This chapter has detailed description of a panic attack, and feelings of derealization. If there's another tw I should put on it just lmk <3

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"Lunch time!" Deklan said, resting his head on my shoulder. We just got dismissed from History, guess I was spacing out again.

"Alright," I start packing everything into my bad "Should we find Ophelia o-"

"Hey guys, why are you taking so long?" Ophelia walks in, answering my question for me.

"Sorry, I spaced out and didn't hear the bell." I throw my bad over my shoulder and we all walk out to my truck. "Wanna go to... cafe? Diner? There's a cool smoothie place downtown?" I say, hopping in and starting it up.

"Deklan? You wanna choose?" Ophelia says from the backseat.

"You choose, this is your first lunch with us"

"Uhhh... the smoothie place seems cool?"

"Nice choice!" We say in unison, laughing after. "=

"Here, you can play the music" Deklan hands her the AUX cord as I start driving.

"Oh... Are you sure? Most people don't really like my music taste" She chuckled nervously at the end.

"We'll deal with it I'm sure, go for it. How else are we supposed to learn about you?"

She plugged her phone in and started playing music, the first song I didn't know. It was rap, it wasn't bad at all, sounds like something I would've listened to a couple years ago while crying in my bathtub.

'I push away the people that I love the most, why?

I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable, why?'

I wanna know all about her, and I want to hear as much of this playlist as possible to know what I can before even meeting her front. I take the long way to the smoothie place.

The next song I do know, and it's actually one Deklan likes a lot. 'My mind isn't mine, who am I to judge' I always got that. These were my people, but they'd never know it. I'm glad even the people closest to me can't see past my mask. Funnily enough, the song that played next read my mind. 'I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time' This was a song I knew, but I'd never tell them that. I'm not a nerd, I'm a normal teenage weirdo who struggles in school, getting straight B's that plays video games with his best friend and sneaks out to drink a little. Not the kind of person to stay up late into the night watching L'manburg get blown to bedrock, not the type to cry about it. I was normal.

We park and get out of the truck, them bickering as I think to myself. We order our drinks and sit down, I pull myself out of my thoughts and look at them. "Hey Ophelia, do you play video games or anything? Deklan and I were gonna go for a drive after school and then play some games at my place. You wanna join us?" I say trying to be part of this conversation and get Ophelia to be our friend.

"I'd love to Alexander, I'll just have to ask my mom" She said laughing a bit, her leg was shaking uncontrollably under the table, and she was fiddling with her fingers. I look at Deklan, who's sitting next to me and grab his hand, just holding it for a second. It was cold, and sweaty. He was also nervous.

I set his hand down and whisper into his ear "Breathe, remember to be confident and it'll all flow away" He nods slightly, stilling himself and straightening his back. I look back at Ophelia and laugh with how she's looking at us. "Yes miss? You look like you saw a ghost or something"

She laughs a bit "I just... are you guys a couple? Cause you seem REALLY close is all" she asked, almost with fear laced in her voice. Like we were gonna get mad at her for asking.

"No we aren't, Deklan is like a brother to me." I tell her, explaining the funny story of how we met and all the stories in between. She laughed, adn Deklan nearly cried remembering how close we were through the entirety of last year. How scared he was that I would leave him this year.

We get up and head back to school, Ohpelia taking the cord again and playing her music. 'I'm Mr. Loverman, and I miss my lover man' good song, reminds me of a book I once read. And as we turned onto the school street, the song begun. I hit the breaks on accidnet and pulled into the schools parking lot parking and turning off the music. They both looked at me as my breathing went crazy and I became shaky. I started crying uncontrollably and hitting my head against the steering wheel. "Hey hey, it's okay, breathe. Stop it's okay" I could hear Deklan saying but he was distant, all I could hear was the words... the pain in my forehead reappearing every couple of seconds as I hit it against the wheel. I start screaming to silence the words that just don't stop, trying to just loose consciousness to make it go away. Everything went dark and it all fell silent. I was aware, but no light or sound.

"Hey, you alright?" Deklan asks grabbing my shoulder and shaking me a bit. I come back to reality, realizing where we were. We were sitting at the smoothie place again. I smile and laugh a bit.

"Yeah I'm fine, sorry guess I zoned out again, didn't I?" I chuckle, looking at Ophelia who's smiling at me.

"Yeah, you really should get that checked out dude" Deklan says, bring up we need to get back to school before the bell rings. We all get up and head to the car, I take the AUX cord and tell Ophelia she should get to know us a bit too. Playing 'I wanna see some ass' and laughing as we jam all the way to school.