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by lifeastinkerbell

by lifeastinkerbell

VENELOPES POV

"I'm... I'm sorry. Isabelle, i didn't..."

"it's okay" she said, and smiled.

"i think i should go" I said and bite my lip

She nods her head.
"Venelope?" She says, " I think we should take a break in our... In our friendship. I can't... I can't be your friend"
It felt like my whole fell apart. In a second, my best friend became a stranger.
"Yeah"
I felt how my eyes Teared up and I just walked away.
I don't know where I was going. It was late and I should problably go home, but my legs walked to the city.
My whole world was spinning and everything was blurry, I couldn't see where I was going.
I ended up at a club.
I walked by the long line and the security man stopped me.
"Name?"
"Uh" I said.
I looked up at him and my body was so heavy, I couldn't lift it up.
The guy beside me grabbed me and pulled me closer to him and said.
"She's with me, Andrew Feilds"
The man let us in and I smiled at the guy.
"Thanks"
"Are you drunk?" He said, and smiled. He was really cute, maybe in his 20's.
"No, just" I said and looked in to his beautiful, blue eyes, "bad day"
He had blonde hair, but it looked brown in the light.
We were walking in a corridor, and I could hear the music playing, loud.
"Breakup?" he said
"With a friend" I roll my eyes and he smiles, I really liked his smile.
"oh" he said, "don't worry, I'll get your mind of things"
He opened a door and my lungs got filled with smoke and my ears hurt a little because of the music.
There were lights, blue, pink, red and green.
And the room was full with people.
The guy took his arm around me and smiled.
"How old are you?"
"I'm" I hesitated, "I'm only 16"
"Now you're 18" he smiled "I'll buy you a drink"
He took my hand and I followed him to the bar.
"Two tequilas" he said to the bartender
"I don't drink"
he smiled "You're with me, kid. So now you do"
I bite my lip.
Should I really do this?
Should I really get drunk and just forget everything for a night?
Forget my weird feelings for Kian?
My break up with Isabelle?
How angry Ashley is?
My stupid, fucking dumb mom?
My dead family?
And yes.
Yes I should.
He gave me a drink and he drank it fast, so did I.
I could feel how the room started spinning and how I felt a little dizzy. But at the same time, it felt great, I feel amazing.
"Two more" I said and Andrew smiled.
The bartender gave me another drink and I drank it fast.
My heart started beating faster and I got happier, I felt better in my whole body.
"What's your name, kid?" Andrew said and put his hand on my leg.
"Venelope" i said and smiled.
"Come on, kid, I want you to meet my friends"
He took my hand and I followed him to a couch, were four girls and two boys sat.
"Andrew!" One of the girls said. She was a ginger, she had long, red hair and freckles. She was beautiful, " who's that little kid?"
"This is Venelope, guys" he said and they actually smiled at me. They were all a little drunk "she's had a bad day, and that's what we're best for, .
A guy, maybe in his 20's too, with brown hair dragged me down beside him.
"Here u go girl" he said and gave me a glass. I tasted it and it tasted so bad.
"What is it?"
"Something to calm your nerves"
I smiled and tasted it again, it tasted even more awful.
"Thanks" I said.
Two girls, both blonde and one of the guys, also blonde went to the bar.
"I'm Grace" The redhead said.
"Hi" I smile. She sits down in the guys lap.
Andrew took my hand and helped me up.
"What are you doing?" I said
I feel so confused and my body feels light but still so heavy. I feel so excited but still so, calm.
"Let's go dance" he said and pulled me closer to him.
We went to the middle of the dance floor, it was so crowded and I felt so small, tiny.
I was still holding my glass of vodka, it was really hard not to spill anything and it was annoying when I was trying to drink and someone pushed me.
Andrew danced really, really near me. His warm skin touched mine and as we got closer to eachother I could feel his breath in my neck.
His lips slowly touched mine and then he pressed them against mine. I kissed him back and he grabbed me, and lifted me up. The kiss got more sexy and it wasn't a kiss anymore, it was making out.
We sat down on a couch, still making out, and he started to touch me on really uncomtarble parts of my body.
I can feel some puke in my throat so I push him away.
I ran to the bathroom, but there was someone in there so I throw up at the door. I shakes my head and I ran to the door, and I was trying to get home when someone grabbed me and pulled me closer.
"Let me go" I said, I was really drunk and it wasn't funny anymore, now I just felt sick and dizzy.
He peeled me against the wall
The guy started kissing my neck and whispering things, I don't know what.
"Stop" I said trying to push him away.
He put his hands on my butt and pulled me closer to him. He kissed my lips.
"let me go!" I screamed.
I feel someone from behind pulling me away from the guy. The guy runs away from me and I look up to see Grace.
"Thank you" I say, happy that nothing more happened.
"Come on kiddo, I'll take you home" she said and helped me to her car.
"But you've been drinking" I say
"No, I don't drink" she said and smiled.
I got in her car and she drove off.
"And honey, I saw Eric put drugs in your drink"

KIAN'S POV

I knocked on the door and I fler THE doorknob.
It was open.
I opened it a little.
"Venelope?" I screamed. No one there.
I decided to wait in her living room, since no one was home and I really needed to talk to her.

VENELOPE'S POV

"What?!" I scream.
"Take it easy, get some sleep and the weird feeling you're feeling right now? It'll disappear" she said and I felt so confused, "So what really happened kiddo?" Grace looked at me "why did you get drunk on a Thursday night"
I bite my lip.
"My best friend broke up with me and... She's lesbian and she told me she loved me, in another way" I said, quietly and slowly, I had a hard time to talk. My head was spinning around and it felt so weird to be this drunk. I've been a little drunk before but not... Not like this. I've had like 6 really strong drinks and my body is not use to that.
"Wow that's messed up" grace said.
"And there is also this boy" I mumble.
"Oh honey. Tell me" grace said. I really like Grace. She's so pretty and nice and I just like her.
"I don't know... He kissed me and... It was my first kiss. Or no, I've fooled around before but I've never kissed anyone like that. You know passionately?" I say.
"Then what are you waiting for? He kissed you kiddo?" She said
I rolled my eyes, "But... Why is this so fucking hard? It feels so easy when you talk to someone else about it or when you give someone your advice, m 'Do what feels right, you have nothing to lose, go for it, and if he doesn't feel the same way, then you'll at least know it!'"
I take a deep breath "All that feels so obvious when you say it. But the truth is, if he doesn't... " I can feel my eyes tearing up, "If he doesn't feel the same way... I'll break.
And I know that I will lay in my bed and cry until my eyes swollen up and my voice cracks. I know it is going to feel like my heart breaks into a million pieces and my lungs are to tired to breathe.
The truth is... I'm so fucking scared to get rejected."
Grace looked at me like she totally understood. I wasn't sure if I should continue, but now that I had started. I couldn't stop. I just wanted to scream, and I wanted to say what I felt, "The truth is... That the sentence 'you have nothing to lose' feels so fucking meaningless.
Because I have everything to lose.
It hurts to wonder, but I'm scared that it's going to hurt so much more if he and I, is just something I made up in my head.
Sure, I may have ruined everything, but everyone makes mistakes.
All the laughing, the kisses, what happens to that?
Does that just disappear?
I'm so fucking scared because, to be honest, I'm to tired to get sad.
I'm so fucking scared because..
I think I'm slowly starting to realise that I actually like this guy... A lot.
Scared that he doesn't feel the same way.
Yes, he told me that he liked me but somehow I don't believe him...
Because he means so much to me. And I don't even know what. I'm scared. I'm scared of this feeling.
I'm...
I'm scared to break.
That's why it's so fucking hard"

KIAN'S POV
I stand in the window, looking out for Venelope.
I see a black Volvo pulling up against her house, and then I see Venelope walking out of it. She looks so clumsy,
And it looked like she couldn't walk.
I ran down the stairs and when I got out,the black Volvo was gone and Venelope sat on the cold ground.
"Venelope?" I said and helped her up. She looked up at me.
"Kian" she pushed me away, and throw up beside me.
"Are you drunk?" I said and she smiled at me.
"Maybe a little" she said.
I helped her up the stairs.
She went straight to bed and I could see how she slowly falled asleep.
When I was just about to go I heard Venelope's voice.
"Stay" she said and took my arm.
I sat down beside her.
"I want to cuddle" she said and I took my arm around her, "I want to do more than cuddle" she said, and turned around. She started to kiss me passionately, but it was more like fooling around then kissing.
"No" I said and pushed her away, "I will not take advantage of you"

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THIS IS REALLY DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE OTHER CHAPTERS BUT I LIKE IT.
I WILL CONTINUE WRITING THIS BTW, NOT GONE.
Because I just made a new one, go read that babes.
Now I'm so sorry for the bad update.
But, I CANT WITH THE FINALS ITS SO FUCKING MUCH HOLY FUCK.
BTW i KNOW ITS SHORT I will update more tho, bye bae's