Believe Again

CH 15: No...

Fairly short update... Enjoy!

maybe?

- Wannie

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TYPE'S POV...

I was still lost in my thoughts when I heard a car approaching him. I looked up and saw a black car with tinted windows halt near me. I stepped back a little, scared to be in the way. The door opened and a tall man emerged from inside. He had a black shirt and casual blue jeans on. He turned to me with a smile on his face and I forgot how to breath. Why is he here? I thought.

"P- P'Tharn...?"

I know I have to talk to him. But not now. Just... not now. I'm not ready as of now. I need some more time to clear my head. Once I do that, I will myself go to him and talk it out. But not right now. And it is not like it is only my head I need to deal with. I have to talk it out with P'Korn before I do anything or he might go ahead punching P'Tharn across the face. And how can I forget the worst one. Sarawat. My twin does not even know I am married. He is even more protective than P'Korn. I have to tell him in private before he meets P'Tharn himself or he would surely try killing my husband... and get killed himself.

It is not that I doubt my brother's fighting skills, but I just know that he would be nowhere near P'Tharn in this lifetime at least. So, I need to talk to Sarawat first about being married and the situation me and my husband fell into. Knowing him, I am sure he will ask me if I am married, why have I been avoiding my husband. Then, I have to talk to P'Korn and P'Knock to let me talk to my husband. P'Korn allowing me has a high possibility, but with P'Knock, I need to be careful of my words so that I don't make him angry. Not lying, his pregnancy mood swings scare me the most in the world.

One moment he is all smiles and loving with us and the other, he would start crying saying we don't love him. Where does he get that stupid idea? P'Korn stays home the whole day while me and Wat are at university. And when me and Wat are home, he only then goes to his 'work'. In his pregnancy, P'Knock has even started asking P'Korn how many people he kills everyday. 

Back to the man in front of me.

There was something really different with P'Tharn. That is not his usual look. His aura... it is not familiar to me in any manner possible. Even that day, his presence was pacifying me somewhere. But today, it seems dark. Something completely different. Something I never knew. It is like he is someone I never knew. He started walking to me as I stared blankly at his face, trying to find the difference from last time. His expression was bright and not the dull or sad thing that Win and Thanya have been telling me all these weeks. 

They told me he has been barely been taking care of himself and does not even allow anyone other than grandpa near him. But the man in front of me looks like he has never been wavered even a little. Were they lying to me? No. They can't. Win and Thanya would never lie to me on such serious topics. They know how easily words affect me. They know how helplessly sensitive I am. They would never lie to me about my husband at least. 

I looked into his eyes and straight away knew where the difference was and why he did not feel familiar. His eyes were not the almond eyes my husband has. Those were larger than those I knew. No swelling from any sort of crying whatsoever. His eyes were calm, no sign of any regret or sadness. And not only were his eyes strange but his whole face. It was similar to P' Tharn's but not P' Tharn's. Even if my husband has a thousand lookalikes, I will still identify the real him. I know him well enough. And this man in front of me, claiming to look like my husband, is not him. I don't know what he wants and I don't want to know what he wants.