Monster You Made Me

Caught

Alex P.0.V

Erase this monster I've become

Forgive me for all the damage done

It's not over

Say it's not over

I'm begging for mercy

I'm only the monster you made me

I'm better alone now

See I'm torn from my mistakes

And I stop believing that I could ever make things change

How much can I take

When I know that it hurts you

How long can I wait

When I can't go on like this anymore

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Days went passed and the same routine happened day in and day out at school. Ignoring Drake In the mornings, sitting alone until he comes to join me, forcing me to share food.

But tonight was different. The abuse had been getting worse and was getting hard to cover, but tonight they found my first ‘hook up’. When he showed up, he wasn’t mean or nasty, but it broke my heart. Here it was:

Lying on the floor with a crack pipe beside me, bleeding on the floor from my lip and nose, and bruises all over my face, downing a bottle of crown royal. The door bell rings and stumbling over my feet as I walk to the door, I trip over a shoe and land against it with a thud.

Yanking the door open, I’m met by a tall guy in a biker jacket, jet black hair blowing in the wind, and almost black eyes. He leans against the door and smirks.

“You Alex?” Nodding, I open the door and let him in, leading him downstairs. Not fighting it, he does what he has to do and throws me $200, smirking as he left. Going upstairs, I lie in my bed, letting a tear leak out my cheek. Grabbing my heroin needles, already pre set up, and my bottle of Smirnoff and some cigarettes, I sneak out the window and start walking towards the beach. As I sit down on the bench and stick a needle in my vein, letting the toxic drug flow into my system, I feel it being ripped out of my arm and open my eyes, revealing a pissed off Drake. Keeping my head down, I turn my face, hoping he won’t recognize me.

“Drugs kill people you know. Families ruined because of this shit. Go set your life straight.” Thank god…

Suddenly, he grabs my chin and yanks it towards him.

“Did you hea-…“ He drops his hand and stares at me.

“Alex…?” Turning away again, I get up and start walking only to wince as Drake grabs my arm. He places his hands on my shoulders and turns me around, forcing me to look at him. His fists clench as his eyes slit.

“Why the fuck are you doing fucking heroine?” Pushing on his chest, I push him away and hug my arms to myself. 

Grabbing a cigarette, I light it up and take a swig of my bottle, making Drake’s eyes harden more. Swaying my hand in front of me, holding my bottle and pointing at him, I feel myself glare. The drugs and alcohol causing me to get dizzy and fuzzy.

“You know nothing about me.” His eyes widen at my cold emotionless voice. Turning around, I walk away, and start walking home, not paying to attention to him to see if he follows or not.