Beautifully Broken

Chapter One

🎶"How did I let you do this to me ? Somewhere along the way I lost who I used to be." - Shattered X Tamar Davis🎶

"Ahhhh I'm sorry" I scream as the man I once loved strikes me again with his fist.
"Bitch SHUT UP , you out here flirting with these niggas while I'm standing here bitch I'LL KILL YO DUMB ASS." He yelled. After 5 more minutes he finally got tired and let up. He then dragged me to the room by my hair.
"Get up Brianna before I fuck you up again."
I quickly try to get up but as I try to stand he kicks me in my back and I fall back down.
"PLEASE STOP" I said as I fell back down feeling defeated.
"You fucking taking too long and shut up with all that screaming before somebody think I'm killing you in here. " I quickly stumbled to my feet, held my face , and ran to the bathroom. I locked the door and cleaned my face.
*Knocks on door*
"Baby come out I'm sorry.....I just didn't like the way he was looking at you...and y'all was smiling and talking like y'all did something before...I love you baby please open the door."
I reach my hand to the door about to unlock it...
*BANGS ON THE DOOR*
"OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR BRIANNA" I quickly snatch my hand back.
"No because you're gonna hit me again" I say.
"You got five seconds to open this door or imma break it down."
I hesitantly open the door and close my eyes preparing for whatever hit he was going to throw my way. He grabs me by my hips.
"Look at me" he says softly.
I slowly open my eyes but I look at the floor. He reaches out to grab my chin. I flinch thinking he's gonna hit me.
"HA!!! I'm not going to hit you this time. Shit I will never hit you again if you would just listen to me. Baby all I want is for you to listen to me. You know I'm not doing nothing wrong right ? HELLO ?! YOU HEAR ME TALKING ?"
"Yes baby I'm sorry I'll listen to you." I say as I look back at the floor.
"Let's cuddle now."
I followed him over to the bed. I make sure I lay on the inside , beside the wall because I remember the last time I tried to sleep on the outside.
He lays down in the bed behind me as I stare at the wall. He wraps his arm around my waist and put the other under my neck.
"You know I love you baby right ? "
"Yes Tray I love you too."
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I open my eyes at the sound of my alarm clock going off. I take a deep breath and prepare myself to get up and go to work. I work at a daycare until I can get to where I want to in life. I look over at Tray and roll my eyes. I reach over to shake him so he could wake up.
"BRUH WTF DO YOU WANT." He yelled.
"I gotta go to work and you gotta leave."
See I was in this independent living program that didn't really allow overnight guest on the weekdays. I was already breaking the rules by allowing him to spend the night yesterday.
"You not going to work today Brianna tell them you sick and don't wake me up no more."
"Tray I gotta go to work today or imma get fired."
"Why are you still talking to me YOU NOT GOING TO WORK BRUH END OF FUCKING DISCUSSION."
"I'm going to work Tray. Im not about to lose another job because of you and your controlling ways so move."
I sit up and slide down to the bottom of the bed. I walk into the bathroom and lock the door for two reasons. 1 is because I don't want him to come in here messing with me and 2 is because that was way to easy.
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After I get out of the shower I dry off and get dressed in the bathroom. I open the door and see Trey sitting outside the door.
"Excuse me." I say as I try to walk past him and go into the room. As I pass him I feel his hand on the back of my neck.
"Why do you wanna play with me like I'm green like you don't already know wassup with me." He ask while gradually gripping my neck harder and harder. "You cry to me and ask me why I hit you and why am I mean to you...BECAUSE YOU DON'T FUCKIN LISTEN. You like a kid I gotta fuck you up for you to listen. I'm starting to think you like this shit....huh you like it....I CANT HERE YOU BRIANNA ?"
I was now on the floor whimpering because he was still squeezing the back of my neck.
"Tray please...." By now I'm laying flat on the floor and barely breathing. He finally lets my neck go. I sit up but keep my head down crying.
"Listen I never want to hurt you. Do you think I enjoy hitting you. *he sniffs* I love you with everything in me Brianna I swear I do...you just make me so angry when you don't listen to me. STOP ALL THAT CRYING BRIANNA DAMN. Matter fact you can go ahead and go to work I need to go home and get some clothes."
I stay seated on the floor until I hear him close the front door. I get up and go back into the bathroom. I look at my face to see if its anything that needs to be covered up. I had a little swollen lip but it wasn't that noticeable. I get my bag and walk over to the office.
"BRIANNAAAAA" Mrs. Tasha said
"Hey Mrs. Tasha." I said as I forced a smile on my face trying to look as happy as possible.
"Who you waiting on ?"
"Ms. Kendra she taking me to work this morning."
"KENDRA BRIANNA DOWN HERE."
"Okay I'm coming Brianna can you meet me by the gray car ?"
"Yes."
I walk out side to the gray car and wait beside it.
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When I get to work I clock in and I go straight to the back.
"Good morning Barbra which class do you want me in." I ask my manger.
"Um lemme ask Caroline."
She calls Caroline on the walkie.
"Grab a walkie and go to the 2-4 year old class you gone be in there by yourself until 12. After lunch I need you back in the preschool room with Caroline."
I grab my walkie and walk into the toddlers class.
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Its now 11:55 and I'm getting the kids hands washed for lunch. As I walk them to the lunch room Ms. Caroline ask me to come here.
"Hey how you doing today ?"
"Good how about you ?"
"I've been great. I called you over because I noticed your lip was a little swollen and I just wanted to know if everything is okay at home ?"
"Umm....."