Beautifully Broken

Chapter Three

*SHORT CHAPTER*
"Meanwhile This Nigga Puttin' His Hands On Me" Dirty Laundry X Kelly Rowland

Wednesday , October 31st 2018
7:45pm
"So you really not coming ?" Sade whined over
FaceTime.

"I want to but Tray doesn't feel good and I wanna stay and make sure he's okay." I said nervously and quietly since Tray is in the bathroom and I was in the living room. The truth is I've been locked in this apartment since he backhanded me like a fuckin child and damn near choked me out. Not to mention the fact that he feels I should still have sex with him.

*FLASHBACK*
Saturday , October 27th 2018 (3 a.m.)
"Baby wake up." I heard Trey mumble while he kissed on my neck. "Princess wake up." He whispered against my ear as I cringed at his touch. I try my best to keep my eyes closed and act sleep because the last thing I wanted to do was have sex with this fucking psycho.
"I know you not sleep Brianna. I'm horny wake up." He whined while kissing my neck and forcing his hand between my legs. I slowly open my eyes too look him trying to find an ounce of care in his dark , cold eyes.
"Please Tray I don't feel like doing this today. I'm tired." I begged hopping he would change his mind.
"Baby I want you , you don't want me ?" He asked looking into my eyes.
"Are you okay?" I asked seriously concerned with his mental state.
"I mean I just said I was horny. Why you asking me that!" He asked as he continued rubbing my thigh.
"Do you not remember what you did to me less than 6 hours ago? Now you laying here trynna fuck me are you serious?!" I semi yell pushing his shoulder.
"Damn I'm never gonna hear the end of this. I said I was sorry." He huffed looking irritated.
"Fuck your sorry Tray. What is sorry gone do for the cut on my lip or the handprint around my neck? Not only did you put your hands on me but you also won't let me leave the house. If you are truly sorry you would leave my apartment and never come back." I said while I rolled my eyes and attempted to turn my back on him. Before I could turn my body completely around he grabs me by my neck turning my face to look at him.
"You called me another nigga name you lucky I didn't do more than that. If I called you another bitch name you would've done the same. Why you keep denying me what's mine tho ? You got another nigga or sum" He asked as he looked at me an irritated expression with his hand still around my neck squeezing softly.
"Well excuse me for not wanting to fuck a nigga that busted my lip." I said instantly regretting my response.
"You might wanna be careful with that mouth of yours. What makes you think I won't bust your lip again ?" He asked with a wild look in his eyes while tightening his grip on my neck.
"You right I'm sorry baby I was just playing." I said instantly getting ptsd from last night.
"Oh yeah...show me. Take your clothes off." He said pushing me back on the bed by my neck. I reluctantly get off the bed to undress.
"Lay down on your stomach and don't move." He demands. I don't think he knows how much I don't wanna do this but I will do anything to keep him for spazzing on me again. I cringe when I felt his hand caress my buttcheeks. I start to mentally zone out when I feel him enter me. Something I learned to do when I was a child. He finished up about 6 minutes later rolled off of me and fell asleep. I rolled over to my side , wipe my eyes and curl into a ball slowly drifting off.
*FLASHBACK OVER*
"Hell nah bitch he a grown ass man. If he need to be taken care of tell his ass go back to his momma house cuz you coming out tonight. Come over here and get ready with me. Did your outfit come ?" She said all in one breath.
"Girl it was supposed to be here yesterday but for some reason it's not here Lemme check Amazon." I respond. I put the FaceTime on pause and open the amazon app. This nigga canceled MY WHOLE ORDER. I am sick of this shit. How did he even get into my phone with out me knowing. "Hold on bitch imma call you back."
"Is everything okay ?" She asked concerned.
"Yeah I just need to talk to Tray." I respond in anger.
"Ight call me back later bitch." She said while hanging up.
I put my phone in my pocket , took a deep breath, stood up, and walked into the bedroom. I open the door to see Tray sitting on the edge of the bed and playing the game. I need to find a way to ask him why he cancelled my order without making him mad. I sit on the head behind him and wrap my arms around his waist while kissing him on the cheek.
"Baby.." I said in a sweet tone.
"Yes Bri?" He responded in a calm tone. At least I know he isn't already irritated so thats a good thing.
"Did you cancel my amazon order with my halloween outfit?" I asked in the calmest voice possible.
"Um yes I did. Why you asking me about? I already told you that you can't go so what you need the costume for?" He asked pausing his game on his XBOX, turning around to look at me at me in my face.
"It doesn't matter what you said, who told you to go in MY phone and cancel an order you didn't pay for like what the fuck is wrong with you. You don't run me Tray. You gotta go man dead ass. I can't do this. Its either you go or I call the fuckin police." I said putting my foot down waiting on his response. He stares at me for a second , let out this deep dark laugh , turned around , and continued to play the game.
"HELLOOO!!!???" I exclaimed as I tapped his shoulder.
"I would be real careful about where you put your hands because that could very well be the last thing you touch. Get the fuck out my face Brianna." He stated in a very calm but clearly angry tone. I take my phone back out my pocket getting ready to call 911 when he jumped up and threw his XBOX controller at my head. I ducked and it slammed into the wall behind my head breaking. I slid off the bed with intentions to run into the living room and out the door. Before I could get all the way to the door he shoves me toward the bed.
"I wish the fuck you would EVER call the police on me bitch." He yells while he grabbed me by my arms shaking me. "Why are you pllayng with me ? What's so bad about staying home with me why the fuck do I have to beg you to love me?" He asked pushing me on the bed. He grabs me by my neck as I squirm under him.
"I can't breathe" I whisper. That only seemed to agitate him more. He stands up , grabs my arm and slings me towards the wall beside my door and closet making me hit my face on the metal closet door.
"AH IM SORRY" I screamed pleading as I hit the floor holding my nose.
"GET UP BRIANNA. WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR SMART MOUTH ? WHAT HAPPENED TO CALLING THE POLICE ?" He screamed. He then walked over to the bed picked up my phone , and tossed it on the floor in front of me.
"You still wanna call the police ?" He teased.
"Tray Please." I responded crying.
"Answer my question Brianna I don't care about your tears." He stated in a calm but demanding voice.
"Please baby I'm sorry." I cried looking into his eyes.
"ANSWER MY FUCKING QUESTION BRIANNA." He yelled making me flinch and my drop my head back to the floor and close my eyes.
"No.." I whispered in defeat and anger because theres nothing I could do but submit.
"I can't hear you speak a little louder and look at me when I'm talking to you" He taunts laughing. I lift my head up and look at his face though my tears.
"No Baby I won't call the police." I stated loud enough for him to hear.
"That's what I thought. Now let's talk about that controller you made me break." He said sitting on the edge of the bed while I'm still laid on the floor. "You got two options. Option number one you give me the money for it or option number two I give you this ass whooping you've been begging for." He stated seriously. I didn't answer and continued to look at the floor out of fear. He kneels down to my level and lifts my head up by my chin.
"Silence is not an answer princess. Open your mouth before you not be able to use it again." He stated. I still stayed quiet because I was stunned. About 10 mins later he told me to sit up. I placed my hands on the floor about to push up from the ground when he suddenly kicked my arms from under me making me fall back down. Then he sat on my back and punched me in the back of my head. I bury my face in the carpet so at least he wouldn't hit my eyes , nose , and mouth. He flips me over and hits me any where he can in my face. I laid there squirming to get from under him as he continued to assault me screaming and crying praying that someone heard me and came to the rescue.

*Is this my life now ? Trapped in a relationship gone wrong. With a lover who doesn't wanna do anything but use me as his punching bag. To think that I survived a life as an abuse child to now having to be abused by the man I love.*

After what felt like forever he finally gets off of me and I feel on the verge of passing out. He stands up and looks at me for about 2 mins then dropped to his knees and gasped as if he mad a startling discovery.
"Oh fuck baby!! LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO!!" He screams out while reaching out to touch my face. I jumped back and looked at him with tears in my eyes and blood running down my lip.
"I didn't mean to hurt you...I swear man. I swear. Now you're scared of me and that's not what I want. If you want me to leave I will baby. I'm so sorry. I don't deserve to have you hell I don't even deserve to live. I'll leave." He stated with his voice going in and out sounding genuine. "Do you still want me to leave ?" He asked.

*Now at this moment you can call me stupid or dumb or even naive but I call it protecting myself. I knew that Tray leaving didn't mean Tray leaving for good. It meant Tray popping up at my apartment tomorrow morning and letting his self in.*

"Just for the night baby please." I pleaded. He looks at me with a sad expression, stands up and packs his game and clothes. I follow him to the door but before he opens it he turned around and reached out to touch my nose that was bleeding.
"I promise I never meant to hurt you." He whispered kissing me on my bloodied lips turned and walked towards the parking lot. I closed the door took a deep breath. 

Thursday November 1st 2018 7:30 qm
I've been awake all night thinking about the things that happened yesterday and weather I should've told him not to come back ever. I have to go to work today but that would be extremely hard now that my lip is slightly swollen. I get out the bed and go to the kitchen. I opened the fridge and grab a Capri sun out the bottom drawer and take it with me in the bathroom. I shower and put my clothes on. i'm not going to work today because my face looks horrible.
*Phone rings*
"Goodmorning Ms.Kendra."
"Goodmorning Brianna. Are you going to work today ?"
"No ma'am I already called out."
"Okay now are you going tomorrow?"
"Yes ma'am I'll be ready by 8:30" I said knowing she would tell me that.
"Okay see you in the morning."
*Phone call ends*
I'm really happy she didn't question why I wasn't going to work because that would've been very hard to explain. I'm about to go to sleep for the rest of the day.

2:30pm
"Brianna. Wake up." I hear a voice tell me in my sleep. I open my eyes and see Ms. Kendra and My mentor Ashley standing infant of my bed along with an paramedics.
"What the fuck." I exclaimed waking up fully.
"Brianna we've noticed that you've been a little depressed and we think that it would be best that you take a break from the outside world and take some time at Tuckers." Kendra explained to me in a nice but judging way.
"Um I'm okay. I'm good I'm not depressed." I said scrunching up my face. "I'm confused as to why the paramedics is here. Like I' okay you doing too much." What the fuck is wrong with this lady. Even though I'm 18 the program can legally send me to any mental institution because I am still in the system and they are my legal guardians.
"Listen it's either you go voluntarily or the ambulance take you it's no way out of this. We've already had a conversation with your social worker and he also thinks its a good idea for you to go in today. So would rather me drive you and walk you in or you go in with the ambulance?"
"I'll go with you. Can I get some clothes?"
"Um I can bring those to you after you get checked in. Just get your id , insurance card, and some shoes."
Welp off to Tuckers for something I didn't do.
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I hope you enjoyed. I think from now on I will be using the dates since I seem to remember those well and it could also help the story move along better time wise. Feedback is always welcome I love constructive criticism so I will not be offended.
*DISCLAIMER*
Please be mindful that this was my real life so do not be rude and judgmental. Do not tell me what I should've done because believe me it's different when you are there.
Thank You for reading 😊
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