Cocoa & Subzeroextabyte - Climbing up the ladder of Depression

Chapter 2

Hey guys here is chapter 2. And did any of you notice i have 49 reads!!!!!!How awesome is that!!! Thanks so much!! Sorry it took so long, I still have school and I only have like 3 weeks left, so you can imagine how busy it is. Anyways i'll only be able to update once or twice a week for the next few weeks but after that I can update more regularly!! Anyway, on with the chapter. Also Trigger warning: do not read if this will trigger you to self harm.

???’s POV( it’s kind of obvious, but don’t worry if you don’t guess right, I’m slow as well XD)

“Hey, watch where you are going mate,” She grumbled.

“Sorry,” I replied back.

I looked up to see who it was. She was the most beautiful girl I have even seen. I think she was the so called ‘monster’. She didn’t look scary to me. She had caramel brown hair with slightly lighter coloured streaks. She had two different coloured eyes, one purple and the other pink, but it was mostly covered by her hair. She had a small nose and thin lips. She was skinny as a stick, you could see the bones sticking out. That was the only thing scary about her. She was wearing light denim skinny jeans and a lavender coloured sweater, even though it wasn’t cold.

I looked at her face again and noticed two huge bruises, one on her jawline and one just below her temple, on the right side. I felt the frown grow on my face.

 “Oh my God, are you ok? What happened?” I asked her in a rush.

“I’m fine, she replied coldly, I just had a little…accident.”

“What type of accident? How did this happen? It looks human inflicted!” I exclaimed.

I felt strangely drawn to her, kind of like a magnet drawn to metal. I felt like I wanted to help her so bad.

“I’m fine, why do you care?” she asked with a low toned voice.

“You’re not fine, I want to help you,” I replied back with a hint of sadness in my voice.

“Why do you want to help me?” she yelled at me.

This made me flinch. And being the sensitive person I am I defended myself by saying something rude.

“Maybe I’m just trying to help the monster fit in more and become a real person,” I yelled right back.

I saw her flinch real hard.

“I’m sor-“I tried to explain.

“No, I’m sorry you’re such an insensitive jerk.”

“Bu-“

“No buts (Hehe I’m so mature), I thought you said you wanted to help me.”

“I do, you don’t under-“

“I do understand, you’re just one of those jerks who pretends to like me and then ditches me as some joke, well it’s not funny.”

“Please let me expl-“

“No.”

And with that she ran off into the direction she came from. Great, another person hates me. I couldn’t help but feel a pang of guilt. Why had I said those things? What is wrong with me?

 “I guess it’s time to go home and think about this some more,” I said aloud.

I walked into the shrub back to my treehouse. And yes, I do have a treehouse and I live with no one. It gets pretty lonely up there.

 Cocoa’s POV:

Maybe I’m just trying to help the monster fit in more and become a real person,” He yelled right back.

I felt myself flinch real hard, and then I narrowed my eyes.

“I’m sor-“He tried to explain.

“No, I’m sorry you’re such an insensitive jerk,” I yelled back.

“Bu-“

“No buts (Hehe I’m so mature), I thought you said you wanted to help me.”

“I do, you don’t under-“

“I do understand, you’re just one of those jerks who pretends to like me and then ditches me as some joke, well it’s not funny.”

“Please let me expl-“

“No.”

And with that I ran in the direction I came from. The only thing was, I had no idea where I was going. I guess I would just run to where ever I felt I needed too.

I stopped running. I had run across the whole town and I had made it to the lake 1km away from the village. This is the first place I ran to after running away from my parents. I felt so lost and I had nowhere to go. There used to be a shack on the other end of the lake and that is where I lived for the first two years. After a while the villagers found me and chased me into the forest opposite the lake. After two long days I finally made it back to the lake, only to find that they had got rid of the shack for ‘hygiene reasons.’ I still lived around there for another two months and found it too risky. So from then on I decided to keep moving from place to place so the villagers would not get suspicious.

 I decided to just lay on the edge of the lake and watch the sky. Boy, was it beautiful. I love the outdoors. I would rather be outdoors than indoors any day. I don’t understand how people can stay all cooped up inside all day and night without itching to go outside.

After laying in the same position for a while I decided to get up and find a tree to sleep in. I walked around for a while to find a decent tree to sleep in. in a matter of minutes, I heard voices, so I scrambled up the nearest tree. I strained to hear these somewhat familiar voices.

“She’s a big phoney, all she wants is attention,” I heard one voice say.

“Yeah, she probably just does this for the attention, especially those scars, like come on we know you have a horrible life, but do you have to draw more attention to yourself than anybody wants to know!” the other voice said.

 Oh no, there’re talking about me. There’re right I’m worthless. As soon as I heard the voices go, I zipped open my bag, grabbed my razor and went to the lake.

As soon as I got to the lake I sat at the shore and sliced my wrist one for my ugliness, one for my fatness, one for my personality and two for the girls who said all that stuff about me. Once I was satisfied with it, I washed my wrist in the lake and bandaged it up. Walked back to the tree I was sitting in and fell into an uneasy sleep.

You guys love me, dont cha. i wonder what will happen next chapter???? well, i alredy know what happens up to chapter 5, you will love the ending of chapter 5 :) or maybe you wont. Oh well. I'm evil. Hehehe. Love yall.

Cocoa xxx