Trapped

Back To My Roots

I got home and I was exhausted, more mentally than emotionally. Well I guess you could say vice versa. I mean things with Charlie will probably never be the same again, I mean I know sometimes you've gotta accept that things change but this? For some reason I can't shake it, its crazy. If this was just a normal person that I had LIMITED FEELINGS for it would've been easier but with Charlie its different. She's different, she's not somebody I can just get over like that, I got mad feelings for her and after what she did to me, I felt like I became cold-hearted as fuck. I didn't give a fuck about nobody but myself because I felt like I couldn't trust anybody anymore. But then she comes back into my life like a boomerang like shit hasn't happened. We're very good at pretending like shit hasn't happened when we know it has. And its just crazy to be honest. Minutes later, my phone rings and already I know it's Kevona and Siera on three-way. "Girl, so tell us what happened"! They shrieked in unison. "Well damn, calm your nerves first please lord jesus. But, it was kind of bittersweet. It was good to talk to her again and see her since it felt like 10 years. I told her how I felt completely and after all the bullshit she's put me through, I still have mad love for the girl and mad feelings, she's not just somebody I can get over. To be honest, I couldn't get over her even if I tried, although I have tried and failed miserably. After I told her how I felt, I was about to walk and she called my name which sent chills down my body, and I turned around and she told me she loved me and I was froze for a minute because it just struck me. But in the end, I told her I loved he too because its the dead honest truth. I'm just not sure where her head is it... she just came out of a broken relationship and I have too, part of me is saying we can mend each others hearts and another part is saying no, its not gonna work. Its like my heart says the right, while my mind says the wrong. I don;t know what to do ya'll." I explained. "You just need to listen to your heart Brishanna, real talk. You kept her waiting for so long so maybe that needed to happen so ya'll could find your way back to each other. I know you ain't never met real love, but have you ever thought that this might be it? I know you have a few times because I know you Brishanna. Well WE know you. Just listen to your heart and 99.99% of the time, its true". Kevona explained. "Damn, you a thought stealer Kevona, always stealing shit, remind me to not think in front or around you. You got mind control or some shit. But yeah, what Kevona said" . Siera rhetorted. I started to think and at one pint in time, I did think that it could've been real love, but I couldn't bring myself to believe because I didn't fee; it nor have it before so why would it start now? "Thanks ya'll, especially Kevona, for keeping it 100 with me. And Siera, get some help boo boo. Seems like you need it more than Kevona because she has a little bit more sense than your ass". I said laughing my ass off. Your welcome". Kevona said. "Whatever". Siera said annoyingly. But anyways, I'm gonna get some sleep, its been a long day and I've got things to do tomorrow, talk to ya'll retarded asses tomorrow". I said. "Byee" They hollered in unison. After that, I decided I need to go back to my roots, first my hood where i'm from and then, back to music, what got me through everything. But first I needed to hit up an old friend. He can understand the depression and pain I feel right now because he's been through the same thing. I decide to call him up. "Hey Ollie, you got anything going on Friday"?