The Swap

hope (supposed to be after "nervous")

Marissa's mom has been talking for like 10 minutes. Her father is still looking at me. I just want to leave.

"You seem like a very nice young man. Doesn't he Robert?" Marissa's mom says asking her dad. He stands up and walks twards me.  I freeze as he stands in front on me.  I flinch as he extends his hand twards me.  I look at his hand and put mine in his and we shake hands. "I really like you son. I think your a fine choice for Marissa," he says. I sigh in relief.

Her parents leave on their anniversary date.

  Marissa and I sat on the couch and started watching movies. We agreed to watch the Hunger Games catching fire. It was going smoothly until it was halfway through the movie. Marissa leaned onto my shoulder and I put my arm around her. She then spoke, "Joe... " I looked down at her, "Yeah?"

"I... I really...really like you...  I think Of love you," she looked deep into my eyes and started to lean in. My eyes widened and my heart stopped. I then blurted out, "wait!"

She stopped, "what's wrong? Don't you love me too?"

I sighed,  "I do but it's just...  I haven't...  I haven't had my first kiss...and I don't know if I'm ready."

She smiled, "oh that's okay. I want you to be comfortable and I won't force you."

We then continued to watch the movie.

I wasn't lying to Marissa. I haven't had my first kiss yet as a girl or a boy. But I still didn't want to just yet.  I want it as a girl...  And if I don't get turned back,  I'm not going to get it.

  After eating pizza and talking, my date with Marissa ended.

I went home and layed in my bed.
What if the moon thing doesn't work?  And if it would've worked, would it work if I did it by myself?