I hate promises.
We knew eachother my whole life and you broke almost all of your promises during 20 years
I forgave you.
We can't pick our parents, or family. But we have an ability to make alliances we call friendships to fill the gaps your real family left. But nothing in the world can make you upset as your family members do. Forever and always.
You were raised in an unhealthy surrondings, had your battles long before I came. But that day, something must've changed for you. I'm sure you thought that you'll never allow yourself to let your children have less than you did. Most of the time you gave your best to show how good of an intention there is behind your acts. But it all comes down to how much interest you had to ever get to know me. The real me. You broke some promises along the way too, but I forgave you.
We knew eachother for 9 years and you broke all your promises in one day
I forgave you.
Sometimes it all starts with a weird friendship. Someone introduces you to a person no different than any other time. But somehow this person finds a way to sneak into your life and heart like a filthy thief. They occupy a piece of your heart and you're damned before you realize.
Of course you will not think of how that could be bad for you no matter what objective observers said. You willingly let yourself fall down the rabbits hole into maddness of someone else's life. All their worrries become yours, you share laughter and pain. You give yourself all in. You trust them. That's your biggest mistake y'know, letting anyone gain too much of your trust. You should always be careful around people because some of them are just empty shells walking around pretending to be something they are really not at all. But it all comes down to how you left, without a reasonable explanation, but who am I to ask anything of you. I willingly give as much as I have to offer, I wouldn't do it if I expected anything in return. But it makes me sad to see how fake you've become, or how empty on the inside you actually always were. You broke your promise to be true to yourself, will you ever be able to forgive yourself, because I have long ago.
We knew eachother for 13 years and you broke all your promises in one day
I forgive us.
We were too young to even form an idea of what life could bring at us. Always too busy fooling around, being children and making stupid little mistakes. We went through a lot together; first smokes, first drunkeness, first kisses, first real betrayals. I shared my childhood with you and we made a lot of promises. We grew up too fast during the circumstances and our views departed in separate directions, although connection was always there and my tongue wouldn't say a bad word about you, you just didn't fit into my picture until not long ago. You're strong and smart but you're not always right and sometimes it's a problem. We always made unrealistic plans for anything we worked on. It would turn out good tho. How come we didn't? We both broke some promises.
We knew eachother for 4 years and I broke all my promises in one second
You'll forgive me.
She said you were cool. "Looks exactly like Dean Winchester!" was all it took to convince a 16 year old that's her soulmate. Just kidding, but I wanted to give it a try. Romance. Why wait any longer to give it a try? What's there to lose? Everything and nothing in this case. I let you too close and let you see the worst parts of me. You wanted what's best for me and I wanted to have fun along the way. I made a huge mistake thinking I was capable for love like that. You have to understand that I'll never be capable for "forever". I broke my promise and I fell in love. I broke my promise and I let you too close. I broke my promise and saw someone else in you. I broke my promise and tried to be something I'm not. I broke your heart, you'll forgive me.
We knew eachother for 13 years and you broke all your promises in one day
I forgave you.
At first we couldn't find a common language, hated each others guts. Our mothers almost killed eachother every parent's meeting. All signs were showing we wouldn't get along. But, we had something in common. She brought us close but never allowed us to be too close. Damn, kids can be evil. We both experienced it on our skin more times than not. Times changed and we "grew up". The only thing I never wanted to happen did, we ended up in the same grade in highschool. Everything changed for us then. I decided to see deeper than your surface allowed, I let you into my home and heart as it means nothing. Easily, over the night we realized we shared a special bond. Shared some of the best experiences of our lives. Perfect moments where four people operated as one. I knew it would come to an end eventually. But we didn't let the end of highschool divide us. You and I entered the whole new chapter of life. We foolishly and hopefullly let ourselves believe there'll be more to it. Studying and being an adult was neither of ours priorities. We lived this perfect little moment during few months. Shared an unique connection and met some of the craziest people ever. I really thought there might be forever in our promises. Even after a few lost battles we rised up together, stronger, but we too shared some different moral viewings. Stuff happened and how we fell apart is the worst story I'll never tell. I will honestly rather miss you for the rest of my life than allow myself to be hurt by you again. You left my home and my heart as it means nothing.
We knew eachother for 5 years and you broke one and only promise in one moment
I forgive you.
Angel that walked the Earth
That's the easiest way to describe your existence. As something extraterrestrial.
From the first moment our eyes met we both knew it wasnt't just a friendship. Never in my life have I felt an instant connection like that. You were my Pokemon.
On the 13th of September year 2015 everything changed for the both of us. I can't decide if you were more beatiful on the inside or the outside. Silent, fragile creature with huge brown eyes and beautiful long dark brown hair dressed as a four year old kid entered the "red study room" at the dorm. I was first of the many to notice this new presence in the room. Although interesting because of the necklace you were wearing I decided to completely ignore your appearance and your energy was the only thing that made me approach you. The conversation that followed lasted for hours and I never had more to tell to someone and more spark in me when they talked. Two years that followed were something that deserves it's own chapter. Not to drag this story on I'll just say we lived through the moments no story can describe, bonded like family in such a short time. Never in my life was I more invested in any project I've worked on as I was in you. The three of us who lived together at that time may be the only witnesses to some stories. We grew, changed and matured together. 24/7 almost every day. the life we lived was a fuckin fairytale. There were battles and phases we helped eachother go through. On the 7th of March 2020 everything changed for the both of us. Fuck you. I'll always remember all the best and won't let anyone take that away from me. You left me like no one ever did. You left me broken hearted, you left me hopeless, you left me confused. You left me with the least scars. Just one clean cut. It's an ever bleeding wound, one that hurts so different than any other. But your broken promise is the only one I can understand. I still wear that necklace. I forgive you and I will always love you. I would do the same but I promised I wouldnt.
I hate promises.
