Did it Hurt? (Keisuke Baji x Reader)

To Hold Your Hand

You reached the hospital with you barely breathing.

The doctors discovered multiple fractured bones in your body and concussion caused by the metal tube that hit the back of your head.

But that's not the cause of Baji's frustration.

"Just prepare for the worst."

It's funny how two simple words can ruin Tokyo Manji's First Division Captain, Keisuke Baji.

He tried his best, right?

He tried to protect you—— to save you. Damn he didn't just played the role of a white knight. He even played the role of a sword, a shield even your carriage.

Isn't even enough?

How can he help you when he's not even enough?

The injuries you acquired this time was much more fatal, especially the blow to your head. But what made it worst was your condition.

CIPA.

Or also known as Congenital Insensitivity to Pain with Anhidrosis.

It is a rare disease with 1 out of 25 million chance of being born with it.

And man, your luck was that bad. You're born with CIPA.

CIPA is a rare autosomal recessive disorder of the nervous system which prevents the feeling of pain or temperature, and prevents a person from sweating.

The inability to sweat is fatal itself since many of CIPA patients die of hypothermia. But being unable to feel pain is much more fatal.

You will not feel pain even if you're stabbed. You won't notice even if someone hit you with a bat from behind. You'll be just surprised when you have a bruise since you didn't felt it. You can't even tell if you have fever since CIPA also prevents you from feeling temperature.

Your condition was that fucked up.

It's a curse not some bullshit superpowers.

He was about to start cursing again when he received a text message.

It was from Chifuyu.

     
Chifuyu
Please come back
to Toman, Baji-san

Kisaki's a nasty guy.

     

Bloody Halloween. He almost forgot about that.

          

          
       
        
   

"Kei...?" You called weakly seeing Keisuke. He was standing at your room for about an hour now, just checking and making sure he didn't lost you.

Hearing your voice instantly snapped Keisuke into reality and made him stop from cursing your condition. He instantly rushed to your side, faster than when he was chased by a dog. "Y/n? Do you need anything? Are you in pai—" He shut his mouth before he can even finish that sentence.

Even asking that question isn't granted to him.

Slowly lifting your hand, you looked softly at Keisuke's eyes. Trying to force a smile. "Can you hold my hand?"

It was a request out of the blue.

For no reason, you just want to hold your best friend's hand. Maybe to know that he's there, maybe just to simply hold him. Maybe to know that you atleast held into something.

Or maybe to have something to let go.

Without saying anything, Keisuke grabbed a stool and sat beside your hospital bed. Then slowly taking your hand, he intertwined his fingers with yours, holding you tightly as if unwilling to let you go. A drop of water fell at his hand.

Tears. But it's unsure whether it's yours or his.

As you look at your intertwined hands, you can only think of two things and smile bitterly,

I can't feel pain.

     
     
     
     
     
    
     
    
   
     
   

I can't also feel his hands.