Me (The Story Of Ianto Jones - Torchwood Fanfiction)

I knew the risks

The kids, the 456, the hub, Jack. The virus, it killed me. Oh my God! I died. I actually died. in his arms, in Jack's arms. How did I forget that! But how am I still alive? Did he use the glove to bring me back from the dead? Where the hell is he? Where's Gwen? Is she alive?

I finished my meal and got out of there. I went to the hub to see if I could find them. But the only thing I could see was a huge whole in the ground. The police, and the danger signs. How it ended like this? Our lives, actually my life sorta.

I always knew how dangerous it was. I was in the war of canary wharf. One of few survivors. The fall of Torchwood 1. My colleagues, my friends, and of course Lisa,all of them are gone. But I joined Torchwood 3 anyway. I knew the risks, but I had hope, maybe I could save her. And if I could go back, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. Because if I didn't I probably would never meet Jack. And now I don't even know where he is. At least I know he's alive but he doesn't know I'm alive.

Jack, my boyfriend, who now thinks I'm dead. Who killed my ex, and became the love of my life. But I'm not sure he felt about me in the same way that I felt about him. My last words before my death, I told him that I love him but in return he said 'don't'. Really! Is it what you say to someone who's dieing in your arms and just said that he loves you? Even in those moments, he didn't say he loves me. He could just say it. Even though it wasn't true, even though it was just a lie, but it could make me feel comfortable and die in peace.

I watched the sun rise and headed to Gwen's apartment. I got there and went upstairs before I knock I heard Gwen and Rhys talking.

"He's gone, he's actually gone. He left us alone. He left me alone. He's a cowered. Except staying and dealing with his sorrows and his guilt, he just ran away. Now it's just me. The only member of Torchwood. I can't take it Rhys."

"Give him time Gwen. At first Tosh and Owen, and then Ianto and Steven, Just like he said himself. What could he do if he stayed? His boyfriend is dead, his own daughter hates him, the hub is destroyed, and you would leave Torchwood too. I think it's a good thing for us. We're going to have a baby, don't forget that. It's good that he left earth, it's good for us, for our baby, for our family..."