𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐅𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐌𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥- 𝐆!𝐏- 𝐁.𝐄

7

Sex with Billie, add that to a list of drugs that could make you addicted. At first it was very sweet, she knew how to properly take care of me afterwards and she knows how to take care of me during. One thing that's very important to me is aftercare. I don't want to be treated like a one night stand. She continues to love and cherish me endlessly, I'm forever grateful for her.

Last night

We laid there in silence, reminiscing on moments ago when we were making love for the first time. My thoughts cut off when Billie rose up from my bed. She was on a mission and she didn't intend on hiding it. She walked over to my closet, opening it looking for some clothes. I watched her grab a set of my pajamas for me before she faced me with her shirt that I stole in hand.

"Thanks for my shirt back" she smirked, making me roll my eyes. "I only took it cause I like the way it looks on you," I say, resting on my elbows. "You could've just asked me precious, I would've given it to you" she said while I blushed at the new pet name. She gathered her shirt and some large basketball shorts I owned. Before she went to go shower she placed a small kiss on my forehead, leaving me to think of her.

Holy shit im naked.

She came out of the shower and placed her old clothes in my hamper. Already making herself at home I can see. She reached out for my hand, kissing the top of it while leading me to the bathroom. When we entered i saw my bathtub filled with steaming water and some tea light candles around the bathtub. I sit in the tub, submerging my head for a second before coming up out of the water, running my hands through my wet hair.

"Why?" Billie looks at me confused "Why what?" she asks. "Why did you choose me? Why did you fall for me? I mean there are so many people who are prettier than me in our school, let alone our town. So why me?" I ask. I've always been the person who needed validation in relationships, not because I was desperate for attention, but because I just needed to know if I was good enough. My anxiety and countless overflowing thoughts never allowed me to think i was worthy, mainly why my relationship before us did not work out. Billie pushed a piece of wet hair behind my ear "I have something I want to show you when you're done"

When I finished and got dressed, Billie sat me down and passed me black journal. "I promised myself I would let you read this when you were finally all mine" she smiles while i laugh "What?" she questions while laughing. "You are so corny" she places her hand on her chest acting as if she's offended "Maybe i shouldn't let you read this" she jokingly threatens. I pull the book into my chest and shake my head with a smile "Nope, it's too late." I open the book and begin to read it.

The book was filled with letters addressed to me, drawings of me, songs that reminded her of me, even drawings of us being intimate. One in particular stuck out to me, not just because the line work was beautiful. I sat between her legs in my silk gown while she slid her hands down my underwear, teasing me while she kissed me. "I drew that after you grabbed my dick" she chuckled "i'm still so sorry about that-" "It's fine" she cut me off "keep reading" she insisted.

I turned to the next page and to my surprise the longest note was written here. She continued to write how she felt about me, even including the story of how she knew I was the person she had wanted since forever. At the end i began to feel my eyes water as i read

"I never told anyone about my feelings for you because I felt as if you were out of my league. Whenever I looked at you, all I saw was something I couldn't have not even if I tried. You were perfect. You are perfect. There was a point where I thought that if I dated other people, or fucked someone new I would get over you. It only made me want you more. No one made me feel complete, like how you made me feel."

This. This made all of those shitty relationships feel worth it. It made me feel like there was nothing I needed to worry about. I was so used to seeing what love did not look like. All that made me feel as if this is what I was waiting for. All the fights and screaming with broken glass and broken hearts. Its over now.

I closed the journal and placed it beside me. Immediately I took a pillow to cover my face so she couldn't see me crying. "What's wrong? Was I too corny? I was just being honest-" she stops once she hears the sound of my sniffles through the pillow. She pulls the pillow away, cuppin my cheeks to look at her. "Did you really mean it?" I ask "Why would I write it if I didn't mean it?" she says while letting go of my cheeks "I only want you and you forever" she says while leaning in to kiss me. Her lips move in sync with mine. Once we release, she lays in bed, bringing her body closer to mine. We cuddled until we fell asleep.

Current morning

When I woke up this morning, I saw Billie wasn't beside me. I sigh just wishing she would stay the night, just for one night. My little seconds of sorrow get cut off when Billie bursts through my bathroom door, swishing listerine in her mouth coming to grab her aquaphor. She notices I'm awake and waves before putting a finger up indicating for me to wait, running back into my bathroom. I joined her in the bathroom, brushing my teeth. She kisses my face all over while I brush my hair, causing me to laugh.

"You have a lot of energy bil" she places her hands on my waist "Yup, i always get energized the day after sex. It's weird." she giggles "Oh by the way why didn't you tell me you were a virgin?" she asked. My eyes widened, turning around to look her in her eyes "How could you tell?" I questioned her like she was under investigation. 

I never mentioned it mainly because I was afraid shed take it easy on me. I want to be tossed around, used, manhandled, its hot to me and I don't want her to be gentle. I want her to be everything but gentle. Slammed against a wall, bent over a counter, almost choked to death while being railed. that's what I'm into. 

"Well, you were tight as fuck. Usually if that's the case that means that the other person isn't into it. You were moaning your ass off so I knew you liked it. They definitely weren't fake moans, I would know." I hit her arm making her laugh "When you were cumming you got super tight, god that felt great." She drools over the thought of last night

"You make the cutest little face when you cum" she whispers as we walk out of the bathroom, leaving my room. We walk down the stairs, to see my mom cooking breakfast while talking to someone.

"Oooh I'm meeting your momma!" she whispers in excitement as we laugh

"Hey honey" my mom says "Look who came to visit you" I freeze in my tracks as i make eye contact with the other girl in my kitchen. She's familiar. Not the good type of nostalgic familiar like when you watch Hannah Montana or Victorias, it was bad nostalgia. Sometimes I feel like I could still hear glass breaking whenever someone says her name. Billie catches me tense up, putting her hand on my shoulder to calm me.

"Ava"

A/N: AHHHH we got some drama coming !!!! HERE COMES THE STORM. I planned on making this book at least 12-18 chapters. maybe even a sequel. Who do you think Ava is? What do you think she did to Selest?

25 OVERALL FOR NEXT CHAPTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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