TOXIC | Jungkook

07

Jungkook's p.o.v

I laid on my bed hand under my head staring at the ceiling as I recalled what y/n said.

" I want to throw my anger on her but I'm quite sure she didn't kill him. I'm stupid. I need someone to blame but can't suspect anyone else " I whispered to myself.

I grabbed my phone and scrolled down my messages before stopping at nayeon, I opened and read the conversation we shared.

| Nayeon:
I love you

|Me:
Nayeon are you drunk?

| Nayeon:
No I'm not, jungkook. I know what I'm saying

| Me:
I'm sorry nayeon I can't feel this way with you I hope you can find someone better

| Nayeon:
Why?
Am I not enough for you? Just tell me what you don't like about me I'll change for you

|Me:
There is nothing wrong with you
you are perfect

| Nayeon:
Then why?

|Me:
My heart belongs to someone else
I can't do anything about it

| Nayeon:
Who's that? Y/n ?

| Me:
Can we stop nayeon!

| Nayeon:
It's her right ? I knew it the day I saw you secretly watching her

| Me:
Does she know that you have feelings for me?

| Nayeon:
Why does she have to know that? You are not hers.

| Me:
But my heart is

| Nayeon:p
You are betraying your best friend!

| Me:
Excuse you?
I'm not, ok?!
I even rejected her when she confessed because I'm not that kind of guys I have priorities and friendship comes first for me.

I'm keeping my feelings a secret and endured watching her being touched and all for my friend and I'll keep doing so till they breakup
But you nayeon!
You.. are betraying her!
I'm pretty sure she told you that she loves me
But you didn't tell her.

| Nayeon:
Fuck her
why everything has to be centered on her
We are in the same shit jungkook don't act like if you are better than me at least I'm not checking out my friend's boyfriend

| Me:
I lost all the respect I had for you
I hope she opens her eyes and see the truth of people surrounding her

| Nayeon:
y

ou will never be hers and I'm ready to do anything to stop that from happening
She doesn't deserve you

" what am I thinking " I threw my phone and rolled on my bed burrying my face on my fluffy pillow " that's a normal response from a girl after being rejected it's not that deep "

I doze off while trying to connect the dots.

My alarm went off indicating the start of another day of work. The place where I feel the absence of jimin the most.
I've taken a bath before wearing a black suit. When I was done I headed to the kitchen but stopped halfway when I saw her sleeping on the couch and without a blanket.