TOXIC | Jungkook

17

" they started the dissection yesterday "

" I don't know how to feel about it " I replied to the caller whom I trust the most in my life

" they are lazy they put the blame on you without investigating further I bet they won't even take the dissection seriously "

" tell me what I don't know "

I sat on a bench in the bus station, I promised jungkook to stay in the cabin but I broke the promise the next day the introverts life is not made for me in all circumstances.

" I think I should leave the cabin they might find me and you'll be dragged with me "

" shut up and stay there they won't find you "

" but.. "

" No buts I don't want to hear any excuses do as I say I swear I.. "

I moved the phone away otherwise my eardrums would have exploded

" ok ok understood stop shouting now jeez " I hang up and ran to the bus, going back to the cozy cabin after getting what I wanted from the store.

I suddenly had the urge to make a change and what comes first to every girl mind is changing the hair style.

My hair was black reaching the middle of my back I tied it and cut it with no hesitation, I smiled as I watched the strands falling to the ground and all the stress going down with them.

I shook my head to see the final result, and honestly it made me look kinda cute but not done yet, neck-length hair is boring without some special color and for that I chose light pink.

After washing and drying my hair I looked at the mirror " that looks more like me now "

Jungkook's p.o.v

I stared blankly at my computer as I was leaning casually on the chair inside my office, I just didn't feel like working I was physically and mentally tired and luckily I had only few minutes before the end of my shift.

I checked my phone again, I gave her my number 2 days ago and she didn't even leave a message let alone that she's moving round carelessly in the city.

" come in " I said when I heard knocks on the door of my office

" hello ms. Park " I fixed my posture when I saw the lady boss walking inside closing the door behind her.
I stood up and bent when I remembered that I owe her an apology.

" I'm sorry for what happened that day in the coffee shop. I went to your office to apologize but they told me you have days off, I'm really sorry she took it so far "

" no no it's ok " she smiled waving her hands " she's rude but cute though "

A smile crept on my face like if she was complimenting me.

" I can tell she's exactly your type " she added and that made me blush immediately.

" we are just friends "

" boy, I know there is more you can't fool me "

I chuckled, I didn't have any spare energy to deny she was right anyway.

" I came here to continue our talk if you don't mind " she said as she sat on the chair across me, I thought I was leaving in 10mins but that would probably take 2hours more.

I whined in my mind and said what I couldn't say out loud while my outside looks unbothered with a weak smile I said " yes let's get it done "

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" let's stop here and continue tomorrow or whenever you are ready " ms park said after an hour of exchanging ideas and plans to improve the company's profit " I feel like there is something bothering you, you are not fully focusing. Tell me what's worrying you "

" no I'm fine we can stay longer " I protested.

" just take a rest we can work on it later we are not in a rush what matters is to get the best strategy and this needs you to be in your best conditions "

But this might be the last chance to work with you, I thought.

" thank you " I said and bowed to her before she leaves.

I escaped right after her, loosening my necktie as I rushed outside the building to inhale the clean air and let the breeze relieve my stress.

I'm tired of pretending that I'm fine, it's suffocating me

I don't know why I suddenly feel this way, is it because the results might be released today? Am I scared of the truth ? I thought I got over it.

I drove to my house and changed to a simple hoodie and sweatpants then headed to the kitchen to make myself coffee, the same routine. My phone went off, I have never picked up so fast before when I saw the name " incheon officer "

" hello " I said, I could hear my heart beating in my ears because of this sudden phone call.

" hey mr jeon I called you to informe you about the updates since you were following the case I thought you want to know the results, we have just received them right now "

My throat became dry in seconds and my breath heavy, part of me wanted to know and the other doesn't. I was indeed scared to find out the results because I was kinda sure that in all scenarios it won't be something good to hear, it will just reopen the wounds once again.

Even though I haven't said a single word for seconds the officer carried on announcing the results which made my jaw drop.

" he suicided "