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As Mrs. Arvydas was walking through out the room making her way to every table giving an encouraging smile to everyone's drawing of what's on there mind or what is burdening you. I glanced down at mine it was a gental showing of what was on my mind. A bright blue eyed girl sitting at a dinner table with a plate of salad I had forgotten Jordan was next to me until he asked," is a hatred for lettuce on your mind ??" A smile forming on his face I laughed looking at him he was trying to understand my drawing. He saw it as someone eating but really to me it showed someone sitting alone at a table craving so badly to eat but stopped herself from it. it showed me how badly I craved food yet I couldn't eat anything a piece of toast in the morning that was all. the last time I had eaten anything else was when I  had eaten that salad. He stared at the drawing but I  quickly cut his thought off when I asked about his drawing a female only drawn from the neck up at a side view, her hair in a lovely bun but her face was hidden by words written in a beautiful gentle cursive over it so many words from her chin to her for head leaving the identity unknown. I looked his face unreadable he spoke quietly as if to make sure no one could hear him "it is about society now hidden from being  what it is and being so lost that we can't even recognize it." I sat there a looking in his eyes they saddened as he spoke he must have seen the sympathy in my eyes when he shrugged it off and checked his phone  as to avoid an explanation. When the class finally left he looked at me with a spark of excitement in his eyes "where to next my little tour guide" with a small laugh I started to walk out into the hall while saying loud enough for him to hear "its a surprise...and I'm 5" 2 not that tiny" I didn't turn to see his expression but he ran up behind me with a little snicker dangled a paper showing me a schedule for the day I reached to pull it from his hands but he was so tall I had no chance as he pulled it away he teased me by saying "haha to slow better speed up" he erupted in laughter. Then I noticed it just as I felt it was all forgotten it appeared the whispers the following stares and the pointing laughs. They noticed me the girl who lost my best friends my endless admires and my bright light I created to shine brighter than anyone I did so much to be noticed but not anymore my biggest priority was to be left out unnoticed hidden although it barely even worked Jordan didn't help he was tall and muscular broad shoulders his hair an ink black. I suddenly went silent, he noticed, "what did I say something I was only joking" but I didn't hear him all I heard were the tapping footsteps of a lifesize barbie in heels with her herd of followers tailing her  from behind as they moved towards us towards Jordan. I couldn't help but think it was nice to have a good sincere laugh once more to forget it all for a little." Hello I don't think we've met", she said as she shook Jordan's hand."I'm Cecily, and you are?" "I'm Jordan, Jordan Gray" "oh what an original last name it is not everyday you here Gray! Well welcome to the school, if you ever have a question or need a favor don't hesitate to ask me!" she giggled her lips pushing out a smile. That smile had soon quickly vanished when she caught side of me. Her eyes darkening as she looked down trying to silently and subtly convey a warning, she is claiming Jordan and I could do nothing to stop it. Cecily's eyes made their way back to Jordan's and she gave him one last quick smile before she strolled down the rest of the hallway. Her minions close behind. He looked at me "You okay I saw the look she gave you and I saw your reaction " he asked. I looked back at him "Fine."  I said hoping to change the subject I snatched the paper out of his hand before he remembered that he had it. "So now back to the surprise"I looked at him with a teasing smile " you're gonna have to guess". "Um I'm gonna guess lunch?, Please tell me it is lunch" 

"Okay Mr. Physic let's go to lunch" "One problem I don't have any money on my account" "it's cool you can use mine I don't eat here so I have plenty of money" " you sure I mean I just met you and your buying me lunch" " just say thank you and tell me what you want to eat." "The burrito please". the lunch lady handed me the tray with the burrito I walked over to the cash register on the end and I scanned my I.d. and gave the tray to Jordan.

 I went and sat down at the corner table I usually sit at, then being an idiot forgot he had followed me to the table he took a seat but I told him he didn't have to sit with me he could go make some new friends if he wanted. I blushed when he told me " I thought you would be my new friend?? " I nodded then saying your choice I stole a fry off his plate he took a bite of his burrito. 

"Marcella can I ask you something?" I looked up in curiosity "when Cecily gave you that look I knew it wasn't a normal look you guys had a history probably a big one could I ask what happened" 

"...I um...well we grew up closer than ever basically sisters but freshman year I had a crush on this guy and she didn't like that. She told him that I was using him to get a girl I loved jealous when I ignored her she got worse sophomore year not one person said a word to me voluntarily but plenty behind my back but ever since then she hates me and she made sure everybody else does to." When he looked at me I saw the intent on his face, his eyes looking like they were trying so hard to read that emotions on my face, he studied me silently until slowly he spoke " in art class your drawing I know it wasn't about a hatred for lettuce it was the hunger but the lonely girl that was you because here your alone with no one and you're afraid of staying alone" he hadn't looked at me till he stopped but when he looked up he saw me looking down my eyes watering, biting my lip trying to keep my tears back, and my shaking hands.I will not cry in the cafeteria with a boy I just met! All of the sudden I felt a surge of warmth come over my left hand when he spoke he spoke softly quiet as if to keep others from hearing. "I'm sorry" His voice was smooth filling my head up with a wave of calmness and silence." I realized I might have overstepped and made you uncomfortable it was not my intention." he said  I looked up and the sincerity on his face I couldn't help it when the faintest movement of a smile appeared on my face. "so you don't hate me?" The concern audible in his voice and clear to see in his ocean blue eyes.

"No"