COV3N

Ferris Wheel

"I wish I were confident enough to open my mouth and just... say something to a cute boy." Rose pouted.

I sniffed the air. It was clear that the place was starting to get overwhelmingly full. Sweat, spit and the smell of moist dirt being kicked up as herds of people walked by started obnoxiously filling my nose. Acres of this horrid smell mixed with the smell of popped corn, burnt onions and sugar irritating my senses.

"You don't even have to be confident, you just gotta lock eyes with a kid, and they'll be head over heels. They'll be out here making the first move on you." I chimed.

"Maybe you can introduce me to a cute kid from your new school~" she wiggled her eyebrows and I rolled my eyes so far to the back of my head,-

"if I don't get out of there the day I step into that new shit hole, then I might just consider it~" I bantered with her.

The truth is, I didn't tell her too much about the school. I say that as if I know anything about it but I really don't.

Thing is, my grandmother died on our kitchen floor two weeks ago. I know that I shouldn't be thinking about it, because it makes her want to come out, but I honestly can't help it.

"I'm so sorry Miss O'Ryan, but we tried everything we could." said the doctor.

It happened so quickly. One minute she was in the kitchen, making herself a cup of tea, the next she was on the floor. And the next thing I know, I have the ambulance on bursting through the door as my Ma was rupturing on the floor like an addict who overdid it.

"She was hemorrhaging far too quickly to control-" he said.

And just like that, she was gone. I called Aunt Eva to come and get Ruben, my little brother and myself since we were both minors. Not even 2 hours after arriving at her house and trying to settle down, two obtuse women came to the door. Nothings been the same since that night...

"So are you excited about boarding school ?" Rose saved me from my thoughts.

"honestly ? It doesn't feel real. Two weird ladies showing up with documents not even 2 hours after my Ma died, claiming that it is in her will that I must attend their crappy weird fossil school till I'm 21 years old ? sounds kinda sus." I stole from her popped corn.

And it was pretty sus.

"Why just you ? What about Ruben ?" She hummed.

"precisely~ I don't know man. If they kill me, at least I wouldn't have to deal with your stupid ass anymore." I poked her side.

"Hey, fuck you. you're the idiot that's full of crap between the two of us." She shoved me with her shoulder and we laughed, walking to the ice cream stand.

I don't know what it was, but, there was this group of boys beside the ice cream stand, at a Korean food stand, laughing and acting as if we couldn't feel their gazes. It really made me want to scream at them but I didn't want to embarrass myself or Rose tonight. Besides, I was too emotionally drained.

One kid in particular, specifically kept his eyes on me. Staring into my every being, and God if it didn't make me sick to my stomach and drive me nuts in the worst ways possible-

I could feel her wanting to break loose and attack him. Attack all of them and anyone who decided to get in the way. Ohhh, the way she clawed on my skin and became blood thirsty to just sink her teeth into each of their necks, and rip open their carotid arteries... I didn't let her. I couldn't.

So I returned the favour and I looked back at him so that he could stop.

He didn't.

I think that was the first time someone else shut her up. Someone other than me. Because the moment I locked my eyes on his hazel gems, she was cut off like an umbilical cord. Silent. unmoving. playing possum.