*𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖎𝖆 𝖕𝖔𝖑𝖎𝖇𝖎𝖔* 𝔀𝓱𝔂???

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you came home home aj was with noah

you went into the room and you walked into

mattia and hazel fucking you froze

mattia:shit y/n its not what it looks like

y/n:....

you walked out seconds later she left and mattia came up to you

mattia:babe im sorry

y/n: everday is getting worse you do the same things and it hurts i dont know if i should cry all i know is that im trying i wanna believe in you but you make it so hard to do

mattia:i fucked up y/n i love you really pls were getting married

y/n: What's the point of making plans You break all the ones we have I don't know where we went wrong Cause we used to be so strong

mattia:look we have a son together dont do this

y/n: So why can't you Be good to me

mattia:then what the hell do you want from me y/n huh i cant offer much you know that dont be stupid

y/n: I don't ask for much, all I want is love Someone to see, that's all I need Somebody to be Good to me please i used to think I had it all Then one day we hit a wall I had hoped you were the one Where's my dream where has it gone I wanted to be with you Forever just me and you So why can't you be Be good to me

mattia: happiness comes in many froms most of our lives is a series of images because even when the truth is cruel and painful, and utterly horrifying, it is still better than any lie Our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but for the things we didn't do

y/n: you never loved me

mattia: i do i just dont know what to do you push me away i cant do anything about it y/n

y/n: bye mattia

6 months later mattia came up to you he looked at you and said

mattia:ok i messed up im sorry what do you want me to do bro

y/n:What I wanted? I Wanted you to fight for me! I wanted you to say that there was no one else that you could ever be with and that you'd rather be alone than without me. I wanted the mattia polibio from the beach that night telling the world he's the one for me I kept looking over my shoulder, hoping and wishing But the silence grew so loud and the loneliness consumed me, even when there was company around. Because when it isn't the right person, it doesn't matter who is there thinking that you'd be there. I kept looking down at my phone, waiting for you to say, "I'm sorry."? I needed something from you I needed you to need me, the way I thought I needed you I needed you to want me, as deeply as I wanted you I wanted you to think of me, as much as I thought of you Because I refused to give up on you without a fight. I gave you a million chances I wanted this thing to work, and I was willing to work There were secrets you didn't tell me. With your hand cupped in mine, I felt safe. I told you everything You told me you were honest. You told me you were good. And I believed you. I trusted you. I wanted you to trust me too. Because I would have accepted all your darkness. I loved your rough edges even though mine weren't. I loved you for your past because I saw something or I thought in what could be our future. I didn't judge you for your past and you made me forget mine. To me, your imperfections perfectly complimented my own Because somewhere between all of it, I got lost. I believed in you. And only you. I didn't have eyes for anyone else. And I would have rather been alone than not be with you. Cause from the moment you we met, I thought you were the only one for me Maybe I fell too fast. Maybe I fell too hard. But you were right there with me. You led me to believe, that this was something. I believed every word. Because they weren't just words, but actions that followed Because somewhere between clothes on the floor, and your fingers running through my hair, I thought this was different. Because it wasn't just a physical thing, but there were emotions neither of us could deny were present. It felt different. Because you were different. We were different. And we'd get lost in a world we made our own, and we didn't even know how much time passed. But somewhere along the way, something changed in you. Eyes that once adored me turned dark as they looked away. And all I wanted to do was fix it and make it better and go back. But you made me feel like a fricken idiot because I was willing to give you a million chances. Everyone kept asking why, but I thought I saw something in you. I thought there was something there. In fact, I know there still is. Maybe all of it scared you as much as it did me. But I've believed the best things in life are the things that scare you. And those are the things you gotta run towards, not run away from. You made a fool of me and I was still willing to fight for you. I was still waiting. Because I wanted you to fight for me. i'm not dumb. And I'm no fool. And I know this wasn't just a fluke or some hookup. I know you felt it too. Because with every simple touch, I could feel it from my head to my toes. From every kiss, you left me wanting more. I wanted you, maybe more than I wanted anyone. I still do. So when you are ready and when you are ready to fight for me, I'll be here. The moment you do realize you too would rather be alone than be without me, I'll be here to say I told you so. Because even with a broken heart, even with these sleepless nights, despite all of this, I still believe in you. I still believe that we can make it. I still want you. Unfortunately, that makes me hate you at the moment. Because I've never been one to wait around. But I do think there are people worth waiting for. I do think there are people worth every tear i want you From the moment we met, it's only ever been you. And I look forward to the day you want me back