Friends With Benefits • Suna R.

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Your point of view.

He blackmail me, I can't help not to be mad at myself for actually biting to his trap. His trap of keeping me with him, forever. And now, I'm back again here, to where it all started.

My answer is as simple as yes to that stupid question that put me into this situation. I never expected this side of Atsumu. Blackmailing me for his own sake, he said that he'll tell my parents every detail of me and Suna's relationship back then. How I go off and fuck him while they're away, or even in the house.

I don't wanna disappoint my parents, I know I'm old enough to be experiencing that with Suna. But still, knowing my parents for so long. God knows how will they react, it can even be worser.. my parents can do a lot. And up until now, I don't know why I let Atsumu treat me like this. This isn't him.

"I saw your other man, bitching around saying that he'll do everything to get you back" my eyes landed on Atsumu, currently sitting on a couch with a can of soda in his hand. I was sitting far to him. I don't even wanna look at him.

I didn't respond, so he saw Suna?  I can't help not to get curious about their conversation. But coming from Atsumu himself, I think they had an argument because of me.. and Suna saying that he wants me back.

I want him back too, after seeing this Atsumu. All my feelings went down to the drain, I feel like being jailed. He even made a stupid rules saying I'm not allowed to go anywhere expect, home and school. Hanging out with Caramel is forbidden. It feels like living my old life is illegal now.

"Let's see if he can even step closer to you. Same goes for this friend of his. If I saw, or find out that you've been disobeying me.." he paused as he stood up and grabbed my cheeks, as my eyes closed a bit from how painful his touch is.

"You know what will happen" with that, he turned his back at me, leaving me there almost in tears.

I started to think of ways, how can I get out of this situation? What about Osamu? I'm sure he won't like this character of his twin brother. For now, he's my hope. But I don't know where to find him, Atsumu never mentioned about his current state... and my phone was taken away.

What a bitch huh?

I washed my face using my hand, as I buried my face into my knees. Stressing the fuck out of my brain, to think more of a further solution. I'm becoming dumb, maybe because of the pressure. Atsumu may have said something to hurt Suna. And I hope that ain't related to me going with Atsumu.

The next day.

"Tsumu!" Bokuto went running towards me and Atsumu with an ear to ear smile, while he was followed by Akaashi's normal, emotionless expression.

I saw how Atsumu formed the fakest smile ever, and I did the same thing. My mind never left the process of me looking a way out of it. Like, should I just let him tell my parents and just fuck it already? Just to be with Suna? That may be the best plan, but I don't wanna risk it. What if Suna decided to leave me again?

What face am I going to show to my parents? I bet Atsumu will laugh at me. Insult me, and force me to comeback with him. I don't like that.

Anyways, the day has finally come to and end. I've been ignoring Caramel for the whole day.. I was shock to see Atsumu in my every class. I know she's upset, but I'm scared of Atsumu. Cause I could feel his stares.

"You guys are already on your way home?" Bokuto asked, raising his brows.

"Uh, yeah. Y/n and I have a lot of homeworks so we need to go home" Atsumu said, smiling. I just look down, not giving a single glance to them.

"Well, your apartment is near here right? So why don't we have a little talk about our play for tomorrow? I forgot to discuss things to you earlier" he said, shy fully scratching the back of his head.

I felt how Atsumu's gaze went to me, before returning it to Bokuto. "Sure, there's a convenient store over there, let's go—"

"I don't feel good, is it okay if I go first?" I interrupted, I don't plan on listening to their conversations.

"It's fine Y/n! Then I'll borrow your boyfriend quickly okay? See you there Tsumu!" He waved at us before pulling Akaashi along with him.

"You better make sure to head home, or else" he threatens, I frown as I felt pissed off.

"I know" I forcefully removed his hands around my waist as I turn my back at him and started to walk away from him. It took some time before he started to head over to where Bokuto and Akaashi was. He's probably making sure that I'll definitely head home.

Tsk! What does he think of me?

Anyways, after some few more steps. I've finally reached the building and went directly to the floor where our apartment was located. I was busy searching for my keys inside my bag. That I didn't even realize that someone was waiting for me on the front door.

I frown as I realized, but the thought of Atsumu immediately rushed thru my body. Their conversation is going to be quick right? And I'm sure he'll walk faster just to make sure I was home.

"Suna?! What the hell are you doing here" I whispered yell at him, his smile faded as he saw my reaction. I can't believe this, what if Atsumu saw him here?

"Are you happy to see me?"

"Suna.. please, go home" I massage my temples as I shut my eyes tight.

"I'm taking you with me, Y/n. Caramel had a guess that Atsumu was just forcing you" he says, making me look at him. He's right, Atsumu is just forcing me, cause the person that I wanna be with.. is this person in front of me now.

I sigh, "Atsumu isn't forcing me.." I lied.

"W-what? Come on now Y/n. Let's go" he grabbed my hand but I immediately yanked it away, not giving him a single glance.

Things are going to be better for the both of us if he continues this. He needs to leave immediately..

"I said he's not forcing me, are you deaf?"

"What?" He said in disbelief, looking at me not processing what I just said. I hate to say these words, but I'm doing this because YES I am scared of Atsumu.

"You heard me right..."

"Y/n, I know deep down there. I'm the one you want, and here I am.. here I am for you, can't you see" I saw how painful his smile looks like, and it's giving me a heart ache as well.

"Can you please stop?" I raised my brows at him, making him drop his smile. "Go. Away"

My words had truthfully hurt him, I could see it in his eyes how much my words had deeply affected him. "What are you saying?" He chuckled as he tried to grab my hand again, but I step back.

"Why did you even come back?" I shrugged, Damn I can't look at his eyes when he's like this.

"Because of you right? I-I'm here because of you. Because I love you Y/n. And I become a better man just for you. So I won't hurt you anymore, so I can treat you better... so I don't have to see you cry because of me, I-i love you" he said stuttering, as his voice cracked from holding his tears to go down.

"Your not even doing anything!" At this point, I feel so evil just saying harsh words to him that I don't even meant. It hurts me seeing him in pain.

"Don't you see I'm trying? So please don't push me away" yet again, he forced another smile.

"Suna, go home please—"

"Let's give it another shot, I promise you that I won't fuck up anymore and do everything to make you happy. I will never make you feel the things that you felt years ago. Please, another chance Y/n.."

"Why are you being so stubborn?"

"Because I love you!"

"Well, I can't love you anymore!" I had no choice