Friends With Benefits • Suna R.

6

"y-your what?" i was speechless, while atsumu was shocked..

"that's right, he's my ex-boyfriend.."

i suddenly felt weak, even if it's not confirmed yet... why did i feel like my heart was about to explode?

"suna-san! come here!" atsumu called suna, to probably confirmed it... or worse, tease them.

but as for me? i just stood there... frozen, and was just looking at the floor.. when i saw suna's shoes in front of us..

i can't look at him.

"dude? she's your ex?" atsumu inquired making sure karen's statement was right.

"hmm... she does looks familiar" i heard him spoke.

"of course, we used to be play mates when we're just kids before you moved away.. although, for me? it's just play right? cause we're just kids back then... so it's really nothing serious?.." karen explained. basically questioning if suna feels the same way.

"oh yeah, i remember you now... tsumu, it's not really serious so don't talk about this ever again" he warned atsumu as i heard atsumu giggled.

"of course not!"

"including you, y/n.."

i looked at him, i'm mad... i don't know why, but i'm so mad right now.

"sure.."

time skip..

of all the people in the world, why her? i mean... i've been staring at her for a while and all those stuff yachan mentioned about suna's ideal type earlier?

it fits her..

"suna-senpai, here's your water.." she said offering suna his water bottle.

suna accepts it and smiled at her, i could see she blushed a little when he smiled at her..

he never smiles when i give him water..

am i seriously getting jealous right now? like even if it's just a puppy love or whatever you called it... it's still there, you know what i mean?

at some point, they probably loved each other..

"hey dummy.."

i looked up, meeting his cold foxy eyes that is staring at me. i've been zoning out and letting karen do all the work that i used to do, so she'll get used to it.

"why are you quiet today?" he asked, as i look at his cold stares.

"i am not in the mood to speak.."

"come with me.." he demanded.

"i don't wanna—" he didn't even let me finished and turn his back at me and started walking towards the direction of the storage room.

he's always a bitch when it comes to me, he can't even smile? will that kill him? tsk!

i stood up and followed his ass still having a grumpy look, and following karen with my gaze as she give off the bottles..

she so pretty, and i feel jealous.

"what do you want?" i asked annoyingly when i closed the door of the storage room as soon as i got inside.

"what's wrong with you? you've been acting weird since yesterday?" he questioned.

so he did notice?

"nothing.. i wasn't in the mood"

i obviously cannot lie that i'm on my period, cause we literally did IT last night and there's no blood while we do it.

"i've known you for years y/n, what is it.. spit it out" he demanded putting his hands on his hips.

"i already said it was nothing! why are you being so annoying right now!" i roared at him, he's somehow pissing me off by asking stupid questions.

"see? you are so grumpy! and it's also annoying!" he shouted back making me shut my mouth.

how dare you yell at me you bit—

"don't you wanna be friends with me anymore?" he asked, i was taken aback when he asked in a very soft voice being concerned that the reason why i'm being like this is, i don't wanna be friends with him anymore.

so that's what he's thinking all this time?

"of course i do!"

he sigh, coming closer to me. "i don't really get you sometimes.."

i don't get you too suna... i don't really know why can't you see the affections i showed you..

he held my face as he made me look at his eyes, i feel so broken right now.. because of him, and karen. i know i've been over thinking stuff too much.. we're not even in a relationship right?

"could you just tell me what the fuck is wrong with you?" he asked softly.

i badly wanted to say, how much i love him right now... but i don't have enough courage to do it cause i know he'll just put me in friend zone..

i wanted to be proud on how much i liked you, but i'm always scared that you'll end up laughing because i wasn't his type.. and i will never be his type.

so without saying a word, i closed my eyes and lean to him to kiss his lips..

why do we kiss like this, when we're just friends?

i felt his hands snaked on my waist as he pressed my body closer to him, responding back to my kisses.

why are you kissing me back, when you don't even feel the same way?

i wrapped both of my arms around his neck as our kiss started to get deeper... and as deeper it goes, i didn't even realize that my tears are already falling..

i just closed my eyes shut and kissed him with all the love i have for him as i just let my tears go down to my cheeks, please suna... feel my love for you..

i got lost to his kisses, to the point i didn't even know what was i doing anymore.. i always feel weak when i'm around him.

he makes me the happiest, and at the same time.. he makes me feel like a miserable person..

"we should head back.." he said breaking our kiss and slightly pushing me..

i frown as he looked away from me, he didn't waste anymore minute with me as he turn his back and head outside.

why is he always giving me this type of pain that i never wanted to experience?