All That You Can't Leave Behind

Questions unanswered

Nathan's POV

It's been a very stressful week so far with China moving back here and Sophie being very on edge about the whole thing. I've been finding myself tip toeing around her when it comes to the subject of China and her living just a few houses down from me now. I was walking to the house that I just share with Max now since all the other boys are trying to settle down and thinking about the China situation when all of the sudden I bumped into the very person I was thinking about.

"China, What are you doing here?" I asked not realizing how close I was to home. She overlooked my stupid question and proceeded to hand me a package wrapped in brown string.

"Here I thought you might want a copy. You know since it's kind of about you too." She said as I grabbed the package. I didn't have to open it to know that she was giving me the book she had just gotten published. "If I was you I'd read it. There are a few things in there that you don't know." She told me before turning and walking away leaving me standing there by my lonesome.

I looked at the package one more time before making my way home once more. This could give me something to do because all the rest of the lads are doing something tonight so none of them can hang out. It only took a couple more minutes before I reach the front door of the house. I opened the door and walked in feeling the emptiness of it. I got myself a fresh cuppa and then sat down on the sofa so I could flip through China's book. I could have left it for the plain ride I was going to be having in about two weeks since I'll be on the plain for a good solid ten hours, but I've never been one for putting off self-gratification. I flipped the book open to the part where she left me and started to skim it. I couldn't believe that she admitted to cheating on me in the book. I was gutted. According to what she wrote she was cheating on me for most of the time we were together. She cheated on me for six months. I always had my suspicion but never any proof.

I didn't find much more of the book very interesting until I came to the chapter titled 'Who's You're Daddy?'. If the title wasn't interesting enough it goes on to say that China for a good amount of time didn't even know who the father was of the twins. I guess she wasn't just stepping out on me with one other guy. This made me think of how many people she was with while also being with me. I hated thinking about all this. I'm with Sophie now and I shouldn't be thinking about China or our past together. I felt like I was cheating and it made me feel disgusting. I couldn't stop reading though. There was this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that this is what China meant about me not knowing everything.

I was proven right a couple of chapters late when it said that she had her current boyfriend take a paternity test and it came back negative for the twins. It seems that he still stayed with her though even with the twins not being his. I choked on my cuppa when I read that with that result there was only one person they could belong to: me. I couldn't believe what I just read. It didn't help that there was a picture of the twins on the next page at eight months and I could see some resemblance to myself in them.

"Shit." I breathed glad that no one else was home. Could I possible have fathered two children that I've never met? Look at what was right in front of me I would say the answer is yes. What is Sophie going to think about all this? To help clear my mind of everything that has happened this past week with China and today I did something that always helps, I wrote songs.

Sophie's Pov

I was about ready to walk into the flat when I heard Jay yell something about not getting any for three months to Tom. Hearing this I decided that it might be better if I stayed out for a while longer. I figured I would go visit Nathan since I haven't seen him all day. I went and saw Bonbon while the boys where doing an interview or writer or something. I really wasn't sure what the hell they were doing earlier. I just know that it was something important and for the band. After visiting Bonbon for a few hours I went to go get something to eat and then to swing in the park. You are never too old to enjoy a swing set. I was going to go home since I figured Carter would be wondering where the fuck I was and why I wasn't helping with the angels, but it seems that her and Jay already have some people there that are more than capable of helping out with them.