The Chosen One's

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MAHIR

No..I can't!

I can't touch her,I can't touch her when I don't know what she feels for me.How can I?

I confessed my love to her and gave her time to express her feelings.I know she doesn't open up so easily but she is transparent.

She has feelings for me just as I have for her,why can't she say it?

I gave her enough time to feel comfortable,if not she would never respond to my touch.

She gets jealous when K hugs me or even talk to me,she does know why she feels like that.Then why can't she express it god damn it!!

It's been two weeks since I spoke to her properly,pretending to be busy.She tried to talk to me,hug me and even kiss me.But I avoided her painfully.

Yes..I'm avoiding her,but I'm doing it for us!!

It's Sunday today,we both were having an off.She was placing the breakfast on the table and I stood up to leave,
"Mahir..the breakfast is ready.Where are you going"?she asked.

It's not only me who is suffering since two weeks,even she was suffering.One night I heard her sobs.She cried to sleep that day because I was not talking to her,I've been avoiding her.

"I have some work,I won't be back by evening.Don't wait for me and eat",I said coldly wearing my jacket.

Hurt was clearly visible in her eye's,she was blinking back her tears,
"But Mahir it's Sunday..I thought we both...",I cut her off.

"I know..but I need to go.Lock the door and take care",I said wearing my watch.

Now a lone tear slipped from her eye and she wiped it before I could see.

I'm sorry Bela,I'm doing this for us!

She has to realize her feelings,I'm a man who expects his love to express.I need her love,I want her to be honest with me,expressing her love for me.

"Mahir at least eat,I made your favorite toast",she whsipered slowly.

"I will eat something outside,take care and don't wait for me",I said walking out of our home and she followed me in a hurry.

"Take care and please...come soon",she said controlling her tears,her eye's were glistening.

I walked away without giving a proper reply and it pained to do that.Walking away from her!

It's been like this since last two weeks,she tries to talk to me and I ignore her like an arse.She is hurt with my cold behavior.

I was the first one to make her feel loved and I was the first one to hurt her too!

All because to give a name to our relationship.Yes we are married for sure,but love and trust is the foundation for every marriage.

And I want to see that love!

Feel free to think that I'm being selfish.I'm being selfish for my love!!

It was very hard to resist when she spoke to me,hugged me or when she tried to kiss me.She rarely initiates a kiss and I ignored her brutally.

She must have feel rejected for what I'm doing since two weeks.But she has to find out the reason by herself.

I don't know where I was driving to,a tear slipping from Bela's eye..that image was flashing again and again.

It's been an hour,I was roaming clueless around the city just to avoid her.Should I go to Vyom's?

No..that bastard isn't talking to me like a highschool girl.I will deal with him later.