Finding the Akonda boys...and my true mate -on short hold

chapter eight

SONG OF THE NIGHT--> If We Were A Movie-Hannah Montana

Chapter Eight;

Anastasia's POV

Its been almost a months since I've last seen Caden and as much as I have been pushing him away and trying not to take notice to him...admitidily I miss him. I miss his presences, his woodsy scent, his dirty shaggy blond hair that fell messily just above his peircing blue eyes. I miss the way he would constantly show up at places to just check on me and the boys, and how when he slept he would twitch slightly. I miss the soothing sounds of his gentle snores. Oh yeah you heard me right, I said it, soothing sounds of his snores..I always knew he came around at night just to sleep close to me, I'm not that stupid. I miss his smile, the way his eyes brightened up when he got a small smile out of me, I miss the way his leg would bounce up and down like thumper from the movie Bambi, and I miss the way he would just sneak up behind me at most random moments and just hug me, his scent wrapping around me like a blanket.

My green eyes looked at the four walls surrounding me, a sigh left from my barely parted lips as I sat on the bed looking down at Blayden and Aiyden who were asleep for their afternoon nap. They were growing fast and saying more words each day. They were becoming boys by the passing minute, getting into troubles at only 3 years old, having their little fights and myself having to become the ref, coming home all muddy from playing out in the rain no matter how many times I've told them to not come in the house all dirty but I can never stay mad at them.

The nightmares have continued but it seems everytime I open my eyes they just quickly fade away. I know there is something about my nightmares but I just dont know what it could be..They frustrate me and every night, I wish Caden was around because his touch seems to make my mind clear up and calm the raging storm inside of my head.

"Ana..The Alpha is here" Aleeah whispered to me from the door way. I looked up to see the Alpha standing behind her. A low menacing growl sounded from my throat as I rose to my feet. Ever since he had trapped me in that damn room, I had attacked him out of sheer anger. He was surprised that a girl like me, who is about half his size could over power him so easily. Apparently my strength and bravery to protect my boys had earned his trust but, myself being the thick headed stubborn over protective hardly trusting Alpha Female I am, I still don't trust him. The Alpha gave me an apologetic look, he has been doing that ever since I took him down.

"Ana he is here about Caden." aleeah said breaking through my badgering thoughts. I looked at her then nodded and left the boys room after kissing their foreheads and tucking them in tightly. Shutting the door behind me, I made my way into the living room and offered the Alpha a seat while I sat on the other couch. I looked at him with hard green eyes of mine.

"As you know, Caden has been missing for over a month now. His scent has some how vanished and none of my men can find him. Every pack within a 200 mile radius has been searched and he is not amongst them." The alpha explained.

"What does that have to do with me?" I asked, although I knew what it had to do with me. The Alpha along with his wife have been trying to convincer myself that I am Caden's true mate and so now that they have exhausted every other lead, the Alpha was in my home about to ask me to try and believe in the fact that I am destined to be with Caden, that we have a bond and that I can feel where he is so it is up to me to save him. Well if any of that was the truth then why didn't he save me long ago? Why didn't he ever notice the bond? Why did he let me suffer all those years with Vladimir and the Chogan pack?

Part of me was furious at the fact that they would insist that Caden and I were mates but another part of me was happy about it because Caden made me feel at ease, made me feel loved and wanted. I could feel my chest become constricted with conflicting feelings. I want nothing more in the world to trust him, and believe he is my mate but I refuse to let myself be hurt by him or any other male wolf or human to hurt me again. My eyes averted towards the floor as I tried to focus on my breathing.