Colors ♪SukHoon AU

can we just go back to the time that... we are just stranger

Hyunsuk 🐷

It's now my thing going to Han River at 11 p.m.

I was admiring the sky when someone call me at the back

I look back and I saw Jihoon, I stand up and I was about to walk when

Jihoon: hyunsuk hyung, wait

I stop in my tracks but I didn't look back

Jihoon: hyung please, about yesterday I'm sorry
Hyunsuk: I know
Jihoon: hyung I promise I was about to go there but mom text me that i will cook dinner for Jeonso hyung and I should clean their room

I know he's telling the truth, but I think i should stop this now

Jihoon: hyung can you spare me first?
Hyunsuk: Jihoon stop I don't need your explanation now

I was about to walk but i was stop by him again but this time, he hug me at the back

I try to remove his grip but he was just too strong

Jihoon: hyung please, I'm really sorry
Hyunsuk: Jiho-
Jihoon: no hyung I won't let go
Hyunsuk: what do you want to tell me Jihoon?
Jihoon: I didn't mean it hyung, I didn't meant to hurt you at that time I'm sorry I didn't let you explain, I didn't meant not to showed up yesterday, I'm sorry hyung my... My baby

Did he just call me baby?! No I wouldn't fall for this Argh park Jihoon I wouldn't fall for this

Hyunsuk: Jihoon let go

Instead of letting go he didn't he tightened it a bit

I felt a warm liquid running down to my cheeks and to my neck, it was at this moment when I knew we are both crying now

Hyunsuk: Jihoon enough

I collect all my strength to escape from his hug and i success I face him

Hyunsuk: Jihoon you know since mom mentioned you to me all i was thinking where I can find you after 3 years I found you I hid my true identity I hid to you that I'm alive because I know you wouldn't believe me then one day you break up with me because you are very mad at me when you found out, I go to Busan with yejun when it's the heart transplant but i didn't showed up there too, why? Because you are mad, yesterday i thought that will be the time but I'm wrong

I look at Jihoon who is crying but now sounds staring at me with a guilty on his face

Hyunsuk: I always love you, I never leave your side, I always support you, I always fight for you, but I think it's time to let you go will not push myself to you anymore... Jihoon Park, I will always love you

Jihoon 🐼

After hyung spat out everything I can't find any words then he speak again

Hyunsuk: I always love you, I never leave your side, I always support you, I always fight for you, but I think it's time to let you go will not push myself to you anymore... Jihoon Park, I will always love you

I look at him now this is he felt when I left him?

Author 🐝

When hyunsuk said that for the taller it's just like a sound ruining his life keep repeating

For the smaller he know it's hard but he also need to let go he didn't imagine his self saying this, but now it already happened he made a decision yet he felt guilty it's just like he wanted to bring back the time where they are still together by at the same time he wants to bring back the time when they are just stranger and stay at that time

The world of the two stop and crush down

Jihoon: H-hyung you don't mean it right? Right?

The taller try to convince his self that what the smaller said is he didn't mean it even if he did

Hyunsuk: Jihoon, let's just act like we don't exist to each other, let's act like we haven't met each other, I'm tired

With that Hyunsuk left, leaving Jihoon broken hearted

Jihoon realize that this is how hyunsuk felt when he left him

He turn around and about to follow hyunsuk but he's feet didn't move an inch

He watch the smaller leaves him, he wants to shout hyunsuk's name but he can't, he wants to follow hyunsuk but he can't, he wants to say I love you to hyunsuk but he can't, and that was the started when he got weak everything for him is heavy, he's like carrying all of the problems in the earth

"??: He likes you he loves you, he doesn't like being rejected"

A baby voice got in jihoon's head, he was confused who's voice is that but he knows he can just hear it in his mind

When hyunsuk is nowhere to be found, Jihoon drop on his knees as he started to cry and cry

He can believe that he just let go of Hyunsuk for the second time, to the point that he know he can do something to fix their relationship but he didn't success, the decision hyunsuk made is the hardest things that he made, a mix emotions he can feel, sadness, madness, freedom, he was sad because he let go of Jihoon, he was mad because he didn't look for Jihoon and didn't tell the truth to Jihoon, and he felt freedom because it's just like he doesn't have any problem, like he's not carrying the worlds problem

'jihoon hyung? Ahh I see, wait ?? Hyung let's visit Jihoon hyung'

'why not? Let's go ??-ie'

Jihoon keep hearing the voice, he was being scared right now, he never encountered this in his whole life, he can hear two boys talking

'?? hyung?'

'yes?'

'i just want to ask? Do you know Mashiho hyung?'

'mashiho? Ah ??-ie he's in Lower grade but higher grade to you'

'ahh okay'

Now he started to think who are they, who is Mashiho

•To Be Continue•