their youtube romance

chapter 3

Johnnie sat, on the cold bathroom floor, damp from some liqueur that was spilt last night. He felt numb, he wanted something to make him feel alive, different, new.

He took his favourite blade, it was stained brown, it was quite rusty, wasn't that attractive, but still did the job.

He slowly lifted his shirt up, and over his head. So he was now just in his underwear. Then he placed the blade on his upper thigh, digged it deeper & deeper into his skin, he effortlessly glided it across his leg.

As the sharp pain left him making strange noises, it was different, it was therapeutic. The stunning red blood dripped down his leg and onto the bathroom floor, like raindrops crashing down on a window and falling down.

His mind was a mess, he could barely hear anything over his thoughts getting louder and louder, but even he could hear the unknown person stumbling around through the house, tripping over and shouting "SHIT!" and "Oh God!!".

It got closer and closer to the bathroom, 'is it Bryan?' 'He's gonna kill me, I promised him however bad things get, self harm is NOT the answer!! Fuck..' Johnnie thought to himself, until he got interrupted by KYLE falling into the door, he shouted "Ouch!! Someone needs to fix this door!!".

Johnnie panicked! He didn't want Kyle to know he was in there, but he had no choice but to help him. He stood up and quickly opened the door, then jumped into the boiling bathtub so Kyle couldn't see his cuts.

Even though Kyle was still a bit drunk, and everything was a blur, he was still very aware of what had happened. He looked down to the floor at the big patches of blood, turned to Johnnie and completely ignoring the fact he was naked, just noticed the red, steaming water.

"dude, it's like a fucking murder scene in here, what, did you skin your knee or something??" He said laughing, his smile showed happiness but his voice said terror.

Johnnie replied "huh yeah... something like that..."

Then, as Kyle began to awaken a bit more, he noticed the blades and just started shaking his head in fear. He didn't say anything, but his eyes said it all. "no please... don't cry Kyle. Atleast not yet anyway. I need to tell you something.."

"what, that you fucking relapsed! YEAH I CAN SEE THAT!! I'm sorry, my mood probably isn't appropriate right now.. But seriously, man, what happened??" he tried to stop crying, but he couldn't. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be crying, I'll make you feel worse." he turned away from Johnnie so he couldn't see him crying, he felt ashamed.

"I... I got drunk last night and-" says Johnnie, stuttering very often, Kyle interrupted him "yeah, we all did ahah." he didn't know whether to laugh, or cry, nothing seemed appropriate.

"To be honest Kyle I'm not sure you'll be laughing after I say this..." Johnnie mumbled, "in fact, maybe it's better if you lea-"

"Tell me."

"I got drunk, and Damon took advantage of me...", Kyle slowly turned round, he looked absolutely horrified.

"But it wasn't my fault, he took me to the bathroom! He dragged me in here! He even kissed me in here! I'm ever so sorry.." by now Johnnie was whimpering due to how much he was crying.

Kyle was speechless. His memory of last night started to come back..

"you're not sorry, I came in here last night! You didn't even look upset- you were laughing! Plus you didn't even tell me!!" He looked around in discust, he tried to storm out but Johnnie grabbed his hand.

"You actually have no idea Kyle, is that what you take me for? a cheat? I don't believe it. but I am, truly sorry..." he slowly pressed his dry, skabby lips apon Kyle's hand and just sat holding it for a couple of minutes.

"Fuck, johnnie, why is your bath water so hot?" Kyle pulls away, he looks very concerned.

"I ran it so hot that I...I just wanted to melt away... But you forgive me right?" He stared into Kyle's eyes, as if he was silently persuading him to say the right answer, but he just ran away, leaving Johnnie alone in his bathtub.